ooh... this is cool.
Oh, I started to learn C++. its one of the many programming languages. since im goin into the computer field n comp engin, elec engin (com) and comp sci will expect its students to know basic C++ and java, i thought i get myself a headstart so things would b easy for me later. hey, i got 10 months, i better put em into gd use.
but anyway, ive only did two chapters on bk 1 (there r 7 bks) n ive learnt so much. some useless keys on the keyboard actually has a purpose u know! i learnt a lot of shortcuts, so tt i hardly need to use the mouse to get to certain parts of the source codes n all.
k, im already confusin u guys yes? well, since ive got nothin much to do, this will keep me occupied aside from the uni stuff.
yeah...~
Sunday, November 30, 2003
phew...
finally managed to settle University of California applications. I was panicking coz the server was so slow, it didnt even let me access to the login page. i seriously thought i missed the deadline or somethin coz the link was missing n all. then, i managed to find it, but it took 5 mins to open up whatever the next page was. i was so scared coz i didnt wanna lose out on not applying. from morning, i was somehow tryin to work out the stuff n finally managed to settle it by 6 o clock. then my dad was lookin at it, after submitting it. he saw couple of errors that i couldnt change anymore. then he looked at me in a way like, why did u submit when there r mistakes. man, if i knew the mistakes i would hav changed it rite? y would i wanna deprive my own chance of getting into a gd sch? i mean i cant do anything now, the whole day was such a hassle, its too much of a headache to handle already.
oh well, hope it goes alrite. at least get me in San Diego. LA n Berkeley's competitive enough, those are juz wild darts thrown, just in case one of them hits something.
so, Berkeley, UCLA, UC San Diego and Marquette are done. 13 more to apply to. sheesh. they didnt even ask for councillor report nor transcript for UC schools, so im worried that they might hav asked for it somewhere else that i didnt come across. i hope thats not the case. as for marquette, they asked, i juz need to get in touch wit mr mannan. k, so the next deadline is 1st Jan. four schools to settle, Carnegie Mellon (regular, application very near complete), Cornell, University of Illinois at Urbana-Chamopaign, University of Pennsylvania. Oh, Pennsylvania State University's application is rolling, that means first come, first served basis. better settle that soon.
finally managed to settle University of California applications. I was panicking coz the server was so slow, it didnt even let me access to the login page. i seriously thought i missed the deadline or somethin coz the link was missing n all. then, i managed to find it, but it took 5 mins to open up whatever the next page was. i was so scared coz i didnt wanna lose out on not applying. from morning, i was somehow tryin to work out the stuff n finally managed to settle it by 6 o clock. then my dad was lookin at it, after submitting it. he saw couple of errors that i couldnt change anymore. then he looked at me in a way like, why did u submit when there r mistakes. man, if i knew the mistakes i would hav changed it rite? y would i wanna deprive my own chance of getting into a gd sch? i mean i cant do anything now, the whole day was such a hassle, its too much of a headache to handle already.
oh well, hope it goes alrite. at least get me in San Diego. LA n Berkeley's competitive enough, those are juz wild darts thrown, just in case one of them hits something.
so, Berkeley, UCLA, UC San Diego and Marquette are done. 13 more to apply to. sheesh. they didnt even ask for councillor report nor transcript for UC schools, so im worried that they might hav asked for it somewhere else that i didnt come across. i hope thats not the case. as for marquette, they asked, i juz need to get in touch wit mr mannan. k, so the next deadline is 1st Jan. four schools to settle, Carnegie Mellon (regular, application very near complete), Cornell, University of Illinois at Urbana-Chamopaign, University of Pennsylvania. Oh, Pennsylvania State University's application is rolling, that means first come, first served basis. better settle that soon.
Saturday, November 29, 2003
Thursday, November 27, 2003
YEAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
THE GCE 'A' LEVELS ARE OVER!!!
Jeezz... we spend like 2 years just to sit for that god darn thing.
Can you all believe it? I don't have to study until September 2004. That's almost 10 MONTHS!!!! Whoa.. well, if u ask me, its a well deserved break, since I've not had proper break nor holiday since my JC life kickstarted. All the accumulation is finally here to be spent! But then, what am I gonna do now...??
Well, one goal accomplished, that is to sit for the A Levels.
Next mission? apply to all the universities by end of December. Then my REAL holiday begins where I dont have to worry about anything, n tt i mean by nothing. Filling up application is easy, but unlike in Singapore where grades make the final cut, in U.S., its the applicaition essays that make the final say, even if your grades are like shit. So i still can hav a gd shot at gd schs.
This is my plan for the next couple of years.
If I get into lower-ranked college,
----> Mug damn hard, then I'll accumulate high GPA so that I can transfer to Ivy League or other established institutions to complete my major.
If I go to excellent university,
----> work hard to maintain standard and plan towards a probable double major, or try to consolidate so that I can do M.B.A. after finishing my major.
Whichever way, I'm looking at possible US$60,000/yr (most probably around US$55,000 I think) for my salary when I get a job. Man, that's a lot. If I do M.B.A. at some major unis, that can shoot up to near US$95,000. Thats more than enough for young employee like me. Yep, that's my new goal now that exams are done. N this is like a 4 yr/6 yr plan, so i can work around problems and all.
yes yes, such interesting times ahead. Hope my applications go well.
but for now, lemme just go out as much as i want!!!! I just wanna enjoy...
THE GCE 'A' LEVELS ARE OVER!!!
Jeezz... we spend like 2 years just to sit for that god darn thing.
Can you all believe it? I don't have to study until September 2004. That's almost 10 MONTHS!!!! Whoa.. well, if u ask me, its a well deserved break, since I've not had proper break nor holiday since my JC life kickstarted. All the accumulation is finally here to be spent! But then, what am I gonna do now...??
Well, one goal accomplished, that is to sit for the A Levels.
Next mission? apply to all the universities by end of December. Then my REAL holiday begins where I dont have to worry about anything, n tt i mean by nothing. Filling up application is easy, but unlike in Singapore where grades make the final cut, in U.S., its the applicaition essays that make the final say, even if your grades are like shit. So i still can hav a gd shot at gd schs.
This is my plan for the next couple of years.
If I get into lower-ranked college,
----> Mug damn hard, then I'll accumulate high GPA so that I can transfer to Ivy League or other established institutions to complete my major.
If I go to excellent university,
----> work hard to maintain standard and plan towards a probable double major, or try to consolidate so that I can do M.B.A. after finishing my major.
Whichever way, I'm looking at possible US$60,000/yr (most probably around US$55,000 I think) for my salary when I get a job. Man, that's a lot. If I do M.B.A. at some major unis, that can shoot up to near US$95,000. Thats more than enough for young employee like me. Yep, that's my new goal now that exams are done. N this is like a 4 yr/6 yr plan, so i can work around problems and all.
yes yes, such interesting times ahead. Hope my applications go well.
but for now, lemme just go out as much as i want!!!! I just wanna enjoy...
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
oh boy... haha, i knew phy p5 is bad, but didnt expect it to be this bad. interesting question, but cant answer, so wats the pt. haha.
worse of all, i put in some weird formula, which is to calculate tension in the string by using elasticity, T=EAx/L when we hardly use that kinda formula. haha, all that was needed was average force x extension, since F was not proportional to x. damn damn.
but i think it'll b ok, n ok i mean as in 5 mks or so, which is the rumoured average that A levels candidates scores in singapore.
ah wat the heck, i still hav my p3 tomorrow. but 'realistically' speaking, i think enough damage has been done already. i might not get the A i'm aiming for. i hav to start to prepare myself for a huge possibility of gettin a B. ah well. that disappoints me, but u know, i didnt work so hard for it, so its not like i deserve it anyway. besides, it wont make much diff.
man, im gettin hooked to charmed again. used to watch season 1 n 2 n lost interest, but started watchin since the baby episode. quite comical n bimbotic now. haha.
oh, i received this brochure of University of Southern California School of Engineering. ITS SO DAMN COOL. they portray their programs like so prestigeous n all, n lookin at where their grads work (3Com, Intel, Microsoft, Qualcomm, Hewlett-Packard, IBM, etc) im really temped to go there if by chance i get accepted. plus, this uni has this option where u can choose ur major as undeclared engineering, and spend few months learnin all the different engineering courses offered before decidin which one you wanna do. i think i want that, coz at times, i feel like doin mechanical engineerin or electrical engin and at times, chem engin also. i think thats the best way to choose ur final major.
my dad was like lookin through this pile of paper which were actually resumes of people trying to work in Kyocera. didnt know my dad was also in charge of choosin who the company should hire. i mean, this on top of all the travelling, 2nd in charge of asia pacific, etc u know.. man, its definately more tougher than wat we're doing. yea, so while learnin from him how he handles these cases, i was so surprised to learn how the process was. heh, imagine ure applying for some jobs, you spend like 2 or 3 hours to make the resume all perfect, all it takes is a minute or two, 5 if u're lucky, to get ur resume tossed aside, like it never was sent. All my dad looks for is where you got your degree/diploma from, how many years of working experience, number of jobs prior to applying, current salary and age. n all these people write all this elaborate detail of wat they can do n etc etc, but my dad looks at them for few seconds like it doesnt even matter. but he's been doin this for a long time, he knows the general pattern, so he adopted his own way of looking through resumes. man. i would feel so angered n sad if somethin im spendin like a lot of time on gets tossed within juz few mins. but thats the way it is, since there r so many applicants. but in some ways, its quite efficient too. coz those key areas are the most important information you need. you dun wanna hire people who're above 40, coz those will say they are experienced n try to do things their own way n not be open to alternate ways which the company practices. or if he's a fresh grad, he might not even b able to compose one simple draft of a letter, since thats not part of wat he studied. you also dont wanna hire those who job-hop a lot, you never know when he's hoppin to another place. you dont wanna hire those whose previous salary's above ur budget, coz theyll definately expect more than their previous salary (thats why they're applyin, rite?) n final, but most importantly, where u got ur education. generally, n i repeat generally, coz i hav strong views on this issue, but yea, generally u'd wanna hire those who r academically qualified. i know for a fact n i believe academic record doesnt speak much when u go to the real working world n im certain. n yes, my dear A level takers, even my dad seems to prefer diploma holders than university grads. u know why... we're chao-muggers... they're chao-hands on. yea, i always had a prob wit tt, but thats the way UNCLE MOES (UNiversity of Cambridge Local Examination syndicate-Ministry Of Education, Singapore) expect us to do rite?
sad, sad. its things like these that really makes me happy knowing i wont suffer this as im goin overseas. but i bet there are problems yet unseen when i go there. i guess i'll know there n then. hope i secure a job in some major MNCs. then i can travel and earn considerably a lot too.
i started counting down today. right now, about 18 hours and 45 mins to go....
worse of all, i put in some weird formula, which is to calculate tension in the string by using elasticity, T=EAx/L when we hardly use that kinda formula. haha, all that was needed was average force x extension, since F was not proportional to x. damn damn.
but i think it'll b ok, n ok i mean as in 5 mks or so, which is the rumoured average that A levels candidates scores in singapore.
ah wat the heck, i still hav my p3 tomorrow. but 'realistically' speaking, i think enough damage has been done already. i might not get the A i'm aiming for. i hav to start to prepare myself for a huge possibility of gettin a B. ah well. that disappoints me, but u know, i didnt work so hard for it, so its not like i deserve it anyway. besides, it wont make much diff.
man, im gettin hooked to charmed again. used to watch season 1 n 2 n lost interest, but started watchin since the baby episode. quite comical n bimbotic now. haha.
oh, i received this brochure of University of Southern California School of Engineering. ITS SO DAMN COOL. they portray their programs like so prestigeous n all, n lookin at where their grads work (3Com, Intel, Microsoft, Qualcomm, Hewlett-Packard, IBM, etc) im really temped to go there if by chance i get accepted. plus, this uni has this option where u can choose ur major as undeclared engineering, and spend few months learnin all the different engineering courses offered before decidin which one you wanna do. i think i want that, coz at times, i feel like doin mechanical engineerin or electrical engin and at times, chem engin also. i think thats the best way to choose ur final major.
my dad was like lookin through this pile of paper which were actually resumes of people trying to work in Kyocera. didnt know my dad was also in charge of choosin who the company should hire. i mean, this on top of all the travelling, 2nd in charge of asia pacific, etc u know.. man, its definately more tougher than wat we're doing. yea, so while learnin from him how he handles these cases, i was so surprised to learn how the process was. heh, imagine ure applying for some jobs, you spend like 2 or 3 hours to make the resume all perfect, all it takes is a minute or two, 5 if u're lucky, to get ur resume tossed aside, like it never was sent. All my dad looks for is where you got your degree/diploma from, how many years of working experience, number of jobs prior to applying, current salary and age. n all these people write all this elaborate detail of wat they can do n etc etc, but my dad looks at them for few seconds like it doesnt even matter. but he's been doin this for a long time, he knows the general pattern, so he adopted his own way of looking through resumes. man. i would feel so angered n sad if somethin im spendin like a lot of time on gets tossed within juz few mins. but thats the way it is, since there r so many applicants. but in some ways, its quite efficient too. coz those key areas are the most important information you need. you dun wanna hire people who're above 40, coz those will say they are experienced n try to do things their own way n not be open to alternate ways which the company practices. or if he's a fresh grad, he might not even b able to compose one simple draft of a letter, since thats not part of wat he studied. you also dont wanna hire those who job-hop a lot, you never know when he's hoppin to another place. you dont wanna hire those whose previous salary's above ur budget, coz theyll definately expect more than their previous salary (thats why they're applyin, rite?) n final, but most importantly, where u got ur education. generally, n i repeat generally, coz i hav strong views on this issue, but yea, generally u'd wanna hire those who r academically qualified. i know for a fact n i believe academic record doesnt speak much when u go to the real working world n im certain. n yes, my dear A level takers, even my dad seems to prefer diploma holders than university grads. u know why... we're chao-muggers... they're chao-hands on. yea, i always had a prob wit tt, but thats the way UNCLE MOES (UNiversity of Cambridge Local Examination syndicate-Ministry Of Education, Singapore) expect us to do rite?
sad, sad. its things like these that really makes me happy knowing i wont suffer this as im goin overseas. but i bet there are problems yet unseen when i go there. i guess i'll know there n then. hope i secure a job in some major MNCs. then i can travel and earn considerably a lot too.
i started counting down today. right now, about 18 hours and 45 mins to go....
Tuesday, November 25, 2003
Eid Mubarak to Muslim readers...
The day didnt turn out as bad as i expected. i actually went to three places, above all, to three close friends' places, so it was better than nothing. Went to mosque to pray as usual, was quite irritated by my so-called 'countrymen', who were talking so loudly when we're supposed to keep quiet n listen to the priest talk. ah well, let them be today.
around 1, i went over to one of my gd friend, Nafis' place. Everytime i go to Nafis' place, I try to meet my sec schmate, Jennifer Sau, who's now in CJC, since she lives opposite Nafis. Since we dont get to meet that often, i use it as a chance to get updated on eachother. turns out, she's having supp paper tomorrow, so couldnt get to see her. ah well, im havin phy paper too n it'll b over. one day in december, I'll try to meet that old Queensway Drama people before i leave for good... Nicholas, Lorraine, Jennifer and Joshua. Wait, Josh's gone to Aussie already... damn... yea, so i was eating n at the same time, amusing Nafis' cute cousin. She is like a pure doll. i hid her wrist bands and she giggled and just took them out of my hands n tried to hide them so that i wouldnt b able to get them. Yea, then Nafis was tellin me bout his post O's stuff and how he has planned mostly everything out for his upcoming JC life. since he's an ACS (I) boy, its natural for him to go to ACJC. but he's the very outgoin n fun guy, he's gonna hav so much fun.
then went over to Chahat's place. i was rather surprised she doesnt remember parts of A Levels at all! haha, since PJC didnt teach her p5 tactics at all, i helped her fill in on certain key points, the obvious stuff to score marks. hope she does well, she does really seem to have short term memory. haha, wonder how her chem is when she has that kinda deficiency.
Then went over to Shuvro's place. That was a load of fun. His mom, his elder bro and others all sat down and were talkin a lot of crap and it was funny crap, so it was alrite. Everytime i go to his place, somehow feels like its one place u can stay for long long time and not feel it, coz everyone seems to be able to talk about everything.
yea, then got back, and continued studyin for p5. some tricky stuff i realised, but thank god i didnt miss them out. sometimes the obvious doesnt seem to come up to our head. so always remember this. KISS - Keep It Simple, Stupid. a gd tactic to work during debates, public speaking and now, physics. so true.
i think ive more or less got post exam plans mapped out for the first week at least. right after phy p3 on thurs, hopefully, we'll go out for movie, then stay over at maddie's place, n there's a Newcastle game on at 3 in the morning, so watch that, rush to home in friday morning, coz Dell guy's comin over to fix the PC, then got Chahat's birthday party. Sat, most prob tie up prom stuff and try to meet Hazril. Maybe come soccer too! Then quality time with my mates Junli and Junwen. By die die latest, must submit University of California applications by monday morning, if that hasnt been done by then, and if i managed to get CM 03-04 by then, start the addiction! at the same time, need to start filling up other university applications and essays. I think that will take up much of tuesday. then wednesday will b prom, so afternoon all hassle at the hotel. wonderful night, then probably go clubbing, play monopoly in the hotel room in the morning, see wat we can do from there on, probably walk around n catch another movie. man, that seems so hectic. like enjoying full time. no time for anything else.
ooh, n im lookin so forward to it. two more days, come on Cambridge!
The day didnt turn out as bad as i expected. i actually went to three places, above all, to three close friends' places, so it was better than nothing. Went to mosque to pray as usual, was quite irritated by my so-called 'countrymen', who were talking so loudly when we're supposed to keep quiet n listen to the priest talk. ah well, let them be today.
around 1, i went over to one of my gd friend, Nafis' place. Everytime i go to Nafis' place, I try to meet my sec schmate, Jennifer Sau, who's now in CJC, since she lives opposite Nafis. Since we dont get to meet that often, i use it as a chance to get updated on eachother. turns out, she's having supp paper tomorrow, so couldnt get to see her. ah well, im havin phy paper too n it'll b over. one day in december, I'll try to meet that old Queensway Drama people before i leave for good... Nicholas, Lorraine, Jennifer and Joshua. Wait, Josh's gone to Aussie already... damn... yea, so i was eating n at the same time, amusing Nafis' cute cousin. She is like a pure doll. i hid her wrist bands and she giggled and just took them out of my hands n tried to hide them so that i wouldnt b able to get them. Yea, then Nafis was tellin me bout his post O's stuff and how he has planned mostly everything out for his upcoming JC life. since he's an ACS (I) boy, its natural for him to go to ACJC. but he's the very outgoin n fun guy, he's gonna hav so much fun.
then went over to Chahat's place. i was rather surprised she doesnt remember parts of A Levels at all! haha, since PJC didnt teach her p5 tactics at all, i helped her fill in on certain key points, the obvious stuff to score marks. hope she does well, she does really seem to have short term memory. haha, wonder how her chem is when she has that kinda deficiency.
Then went over to Shuvro's place. That was a load of fun. His mom, his elder bro and others all sat down and were talkin a lot of crap and it was funny crap, so it was alrite. Everytime i go to his place, somehow feels like its one place u can stay for long long time and not feel it, coz everyone seems to be able to talk about everything.
yea, then got back, and continued studyin for p5. some tricky stuff i realised, but thank god i didnt miss them out. sometimes the obvious doesnt seem to come up to our head. so always remember this. KISS - Keep It Simple, Stupid. a gd tactic to work during debates, public speaking and now, physics. so true.
i think ive more or less got post exam plans mapped out for the first week at least. right after phy p3 on thurs, hopefully, we'll go out for movie, then stay over at maddie's place, n there's a Newcastle game on at 3 in the morning, so watch that, rush to home in friday morning, coz Dell guy's comin over to fix the PC, then got Chahat's birthday party. Sat, most prob tie up prom stuff and try to meet Hazril. Maybe come soccer too! Then quality time with my mates Junli and Junwen. By die die latest, must submit University of California applications by monday morning, if that hasnt been done by then, and if i managed to get CM 03-04 by then, start the addiction! at the same time, need to start filling up other university applications and essays. I think that will take up much of tuesday. then wednesday will b prom, so afternoon all hassle at the hotel. wonderful night, then probably go clubbing, play monopoly in the hotel room in the morning, see wat we can do from there on, probably walk around n catch another movie. man, that seems so hectic. like enjoying full time. no time for anything else.
ooh, n im lookin so forward to it. two more days, come on Cambridge!
Monday, November 24, 2003
damn, didnt really get to study as much as i wanted over the weekend. n tomorrow's hari raya. i wouldnt feel the joy tt i felt last yr, when i fasted every single day, since this yr i only fasted for at most 6 days. ah well.
I think its disguise in blessing that the physics paper is in the afternoon, i can still conjure up some studyin before that. n furthermore, its p5. cant really do much, that means more time to prep for p3. which is gonna b ok, i hope.
talked to hazril after a long long time last night. man, i havent talked to him in proper since my birthday. thats how much stuff ive been doin. hopefully ill get to meet him one day next week and catch up on a lot of stuff. i wanna tell him so much stuff ive not been gettin the chance to. i felt really gd after talkin to him last nite, since theres this way about the way he talks that makes me feel completely understood. we're gonna go out a lot like we used to after this week.
im finally gettin my pc repaired this fri. tt means ill lose all my videos, mp3s n certain files. ah well, they can b downloaded again. but will b waste of time. nvm. its gd since first thing i'll buy will be championship manager 03/04. woohoo. gonna play so much i tell ya. work my way from south africa to australia, then to japan, mexico, argentina and finally to the big four of europe. time wont be a issue anymore, haha. cool stuff. i was rather surprised when kim told me tt she too used to play CM before. haha. its a joy when u see ur team succeed. its so addictive.
all's gd... all's gd...
I think its disguise in blessing that the physics paper is in the afternoon, i can still conjure up some studyin before that. n furthermore, its p5. cant really do much, that means more time to prep for p3. which is gonna b ok, i hope.
talked to hazril after a long long time last night. man, i havent talked to him in proper since my birthday. thats how much stuff ive been doin. hopefully ill get to meet him one day next week and catch up on a lot of stuff. i wanna tell him so much stuff ive not been gettin the chance to. i felt really gd after talkin to him last nite, since theres this way about the way he talks that makes me feel completely understood. we're gonna go out a lot like we used to after this week.
im finally gettin my pc repaired this fri. tt means ill lose all my videos, mp3s n certain files. ah well, they can b downloaded again. but will b waste of time. nvm. its gd since first thing i'll buy will be championship manager 03/04. woohoo. gonna play so much i tell ya. work my way from south africa to australia, then to japan, mexico, argentina and finally to the big four of europe. time wont be a issue anymore, haha. cool stuff. i was rather surprised when kim told me tt she too used to play CM before. haha. its a joy when u see ur team succeed. its so addictive.
all's gd... all's gd...
Sunday, November 23, 2003
I feel very enchanted today.
I went for the wedding of Mr. Adrian Chan who was my ex-council teacher at SAJC. Everything was just so perfect. The place, the ceremony, the atmosphere, man, too many things to mention. wat i can say is this, its the best wedding ive attended. period.
im continuously amazed by the holiness of catholic weddings. ive so far been to three of them, and in each wedding, im able to observe, as a total outsider, the whole procession. it seems very divine as well. and the way everyone participates and contributes to the whole ceremony was juz so impressive.
the place, my. it was at Church of St. Mary's of the Angels. the place was very new and it looked like some research facility by design, but once u step inside, it was a totally different place altogether. the seats and the architecture was designed in such a way it resembled a conference hall, yet, had that edge about it. n in the centre hung up was this yet another impressive sculpture of jesus. it looked very authentic and priceless piece of art, i tell ya.
i probably shouldnt be saying all these, because of my own religion, but i cant hide my amazement at everything. it was that nice. actually i dont care wat code of conduct im 'supposed' to obey as a Muslim. these were things that fascinate u, interest you and move you. i was actually contemplating my own possibilities of being involved in this kinda of thing and trying to picture wat it would be like. it was that good.
i realised that i hav this sense of appreciation for these holy ceremonies. i would really like to see how these things are carried out in the traditional greek way. i think it would be much better. for some time, ive been takin note of the details of roman catholic procedings and all. the extricate details and all r v interesting. my my, haha, wat am i doing.
but it was really nice today. i feel so enlightened and all. makes me look forward to seeing another ceremonies like this.
All the best for the future, the newly wedded Mr and Mrs Adrian and Melissa Chan.
I went for the wedding of Mr. Adrian Chan who was my ex-council teacher at SAJC. Everything was just so perfect. The place, the ceremony, the atmosphere, man, too many things to mention. wat i can say is this, its the best wedding ive attended. period.
im continuously amazed by the holiness of catholic weddings. ive so far been to three of them, and in each wedding, im able to observe, as a total outsider, the whole procession. it seems very divine as well. and the way everyone participates and contributes to the whole ceremony was juz so impressive.
the place, my. it was at Church of St. Mary's of the Angels. the place was very new and it looked like some research facility by design, but once u step inside, it was a totally different place altogether. the seats and the architecture was designed in such a way it resembled a conference hall, yet, had that edge about it. n in the centre hung up was this yet another impressive sculpture of jesus. it looked very authentic and priceless piece of art, i tell ya.
i probably shouldnt be saying all these, because of my own religion, but i cant hide my amazement at everything. it was that nice. actually i dont care wat code of conduct im 'supposed' to obey as a Muslim. these were things that fascinate u, interest you and move you. i was actually contemplating my own possibilities of being involved in this kinda of thing and trying to picture wat it would be like. it was that good.
i realised that i hav this sense of appreciation for these holy ceremonies. i would really like to see how these things are carried out in the traditional greek way. i think it would be much better. for some time, ive been takin note of the details of roman catholic procedings and all. the extricate details and all r v interesting. my my, haha, wat am i doing.
but it was really nice today. i feel so enlightened and all. makes me look forward to seeing another ceremonies like this.
All the best for the future, the newly wedded Mr and Mrs Adrian and Melissa Chan.
Saturday, November 22, 2003
Final Score from St. James' Park;
Newcastle United 3
Shola Ameobi (56th)
Alan Shearer (76th & 84th)
Manchester City 0
Yep, top 6 for now. Good progress but entering December, its pretty much clear there wont be any changes in the top 3. So the best Newcastle can continue playing for is another shot at the Champions League Qualifying by achieving 4th place. That's still a reasonable goal, since they aren't so far away. I mean, its nuts, its merely half the season and the difference between 3rd place and 4th place is like 9 pts. Not only do the top 3 have to lose 3 matches, but the gap can only be closed if the nearest teams also manage to win all that 3 matches when the top ones lose. Very low chances of that happening.
Yesterday's Rugby World Cup was so intense. Never have I seen such a tight match, where victory was practically wide open to both teams. Less than half a minute to regulation time, Australia equalises. Less than few seconds left to extra time, Wilkinson scores a drop goal. That was cheeky, but I guess that was required to win the game. He could have risked losing the game, which he wouldnt want to. But that was so exciting. But then again, its the World Cup, so those kinda things are expected.
Newcastle United 3
Shola Ameobi (56th)
Alan Shearer (76th & 84th)
Manchester City 0
Yep, top 6 for now. Good progress but entering December, its pretty much clear there wont be any changes in the top 3. So the best Newcastle can continue playing for is another shot at the Champions League Qualifying by achieving 4th place. That's still a reasonable goal, since they aren't so far away. I mean, its nuts, its merely half the season and the difference between 3rd place and 4th place is like 9 pts. Not only do the top 3 have to lose 3 matches, but the gap can only be closed if the nearest teams also manage to win all that 3 matches when the top ones lose. Very low chances of that happening.
Yesterday's Rugby World Cup was so intense. Never have I seen such a tight match, where victory was practically wide open to both teams. Less than half a minute to regulation time, Australia equalises. Less than few seconds left to extra time, Wilkinson scores a drop goal. That was cheeky, but I guess that was required to win the game. He could have risked losing the game, which he wouldnt want to. But that was so exciting. But then again, its the World Cup, so those kinda things are expected.
Friday, November 21, 2003
Woo Woo...
I think phy went quite well. made some errors, as usual. i always end up in a mental conflict where i compare the facts and my logic. n end up writin down or pickin the wrong answer n discover afterwards. ah well, i think i can still rack up at least 40 for mcq n 60 for p2. my prac was quite bad, so really gotta master p3. i got few days to do tt, specialise in my stronger topics. haha, had it not been for my ignorance of definitions, i could hav racked up some more marks, but ah wat the heck, its done.
but if i do continue to make silly errors, i might miss out on an A by the smallest of margin. i calculated juz now, addin up my probable scores. tt scared me. i want, i must and i will get an A for phy. juz hope i dont make too many mistakes for p3. everythin rests on tt one.
somehow i cant believe im left wit only two more papers. 3.5 hrs more. design prac, cant do much, p3, is like, simpler than p2. yea yea yea. o i realised imy A's are total of 25 hrs not 24. take tt wit the SATs, i sat for 31 hrs of exams in the past almost 2 months. wat a waste of time.
cant wait for thursday. dunno wats the first thing im gonna do, but juz wanna get it over wit asap.
n i juz remembered. damn. after my A's end, i hav three days to finalise University of California applications and send them in. that reminds me, i gotta call my uncle.
I think phy went quite well. made some errors, as usual. i always end up in a mental conflict where i compare the facts and my logic. n end up writin down or pickin the wrong answer n discover afterwards. ah well, i think i can still rack up at least 40 for mcq n 60 for p2. my prac was quite bad, so really gotta master p3. i got few days to do tt, specialise in my stronger topics. haha, had it not been for my ignorance of definitions, i could hav racked up some more marks, but ah wat the heck, its done.
but if i do continue to make silly errors, i might miss out on an A by the smallest of margin. i calculated juz now, addin up my probable scores. tt scared me. i want, i must and i will get an A for phy. juz hope i dont make too many mistakes for p3. everythin rests on tt one.
somehow i cant believe im left wit only two more papers. 3.5 hrs more. design prac, cant do much, p3, is like, simpler than p2. yea yea yea. o i realised imy A's are total of 25 hrs not 24. take tt wit the SATs, i sat for 31 hrs of exams in the past almost 2 months. wat a waste of time.
cant wait for thursday. dunno wats the first thing im gonna do, but juz wanna get it over wit asap.
n i juz remembered. damn. after my A's end, i hav three days to finalise University of California applications and send them in. that reminds me, i gotta call my uncle.
Thursday, November 20, 2003
Guys guys! attention!
wonderful news. singapore is havin the lord of the rings marathon afterall. read in life section this morning tt the tickets can b booked online from midnight today. lets all get together n go for it! four theatres participating. cathay, eng wah, Shaw n GV. the day starts off at 9 in the mornin, wit extended version of fellowship, then two towers n cap it off wit the premiere of return of the king at 6. cathay will offer free flow of popcorns throughout the day whereas eng wah will provide a free survival pack worth bt 20 bucks of food n drinks to last us the day.
dont u think its juz fantastic? but beware, for mentally strong ppl only. watchin 3 movies which r 3 hrs ++ each is a big deal. some might find it too borin, draggy, etc. so, recommended for hard core lotr fans only.
come council ppl, clique ppl as well as the others, lets go lets go! only prob, we will need someone's help to book the tickets. i dunno who could do tt. if any of u guys can help, do tell us!
weeee... this is like so experience of a lifetime. not really, but well, really a grand event, we cant deny tt.
will b great since everyone would hav been well done wit prom n partyin then. look forward to ur replies n suggestions.
wonderful news. singapore is havin the lord of the rings marathon afterall. read in life section this morning tt the tickets can b booked online from midnight today. lets all get together n go for it! four theatres participating. cathay, eng wah, Shaw n GV. the day starts off at 9 in the mornin, wit extended version of fellowship, then two towers n cap it off wit the premiere of return of the king at 6. cathay will offer free flow of popcorns throughout the day whereas eng wah will provide a free survival pack worth bt 20 bucks of food n drinks to last us the day.
dont u think its juz fantastic? but beware, for mentally strong ppl only. watchin 3 movies which r 3 hrs ++ each is a big deal. some might find it too borin, draggy, etc. so, recommended for hard core lotr fans only.
come council ppl, clique ppl as well as the others, lets go lets go! only prob, we will need someone's help to book the tickets. i dunno who could do tt. if any of u guys can help, do tell us!
weeee... this is like so experience of a lifetime. not really, but well, really a grand event, we cant deny tt.
will b great since everyone would hav been well done wit prom n partyin then. look forward to ur replies n suggestions.
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
now tt my other pc, which is much faster, more capable, n has all my mp3 n mpg is temporarily unavailable, (was doin some utilities update when the power cut off throughout the house, which screwed up initialization DLL files, so cant boot up) the day seems awfully long. usually wat i do wit tt PC is blast mp3, watch latest episodes of Friends and That '70s Show durin my breaks, friendster, etc, on top of studyin. so it makes the day seem real short. im left wit this laptop tts only capable of normal surfin n some office applications. this is shit i tell ya.
ill b so mad if the new pc loses all the data. ive got the whole season 1 2 3 n half of season 4 of that 70s show, numerous other videos, n of cuz my precious mp3 stash, CM4 data, pics, etc, etc all in there. if its gone, i can live, but its gonna b such a waste. i hope we get it repaired or somethin b4 my A's end.
anyway, since ive had a long long day, this is wat i noticed so far. take note physics ppl, it might b helpful, but trust me at ur own risk, im not completely sure bt this.
took long look at the past 10 yrs of A levels phy n this is wat i found out.
for p2, (refer to guide bk) topic 1, 6 & 7 has always came out. so study tt intensively. other picks r topic 4 n 5. i mean, ultimately u gotta study almost everythin for p2, but juz a tip. im doin those 4 topics b4 touchin the rest. well, only 2 days to go now, so cant do much, but p2 isnt tt tough.
the real tip, for p3. since we got about a week for tt. topic 3 n 7, bang to it. always one qtn on them. then topic 5 n 2. juz for safety's sake, study topic 4 too. topic 1 n hardly comes out in p3. well, we're gonna pick 4 qtns out of 6 ultimately so better study 5 to b flexible yea?
i say again, i might not b completely right, but its definately some help into goin some way. dont juz study few obscure topics, but one, two more juz in case one of the qtns turn out real tough. well, best scenario's if we can actually take a look at every one of the qtn n pick out the easy 4 n do it, but i understand tt almost everyone hasnt touched physics till last nite, at the earliest, n till tomorrow, after chem p1, at the latest right? thank god its not tt hard a subject yes?
im gonna go intensive on the topics i mentioned above n if i can still afford time (hopefully, well, yea, i definately will) then ill go on to do the topics left out. its better prepared for everythin than not at all.
all the best u guys. 8 more days.
ill b so mad if the new pc loses all the data. ive got the whole season 1 2 3 n half of season 4 of that 70s show, numerous other videos, n of cuz my precious mp3 stash, CM4 data, pics, etc, etc all in there. if its gone, i can live, but its gonna b such a waste. i hope we get it repaired or somethin b4 my A's end.
anyway, since ive had a long long day, this is wat i noticed so far. take note physics ppl, it might b helpful, but trust me at ur own risk, im not completely sure bt this.
took long look at the past 10 yrs of A levels phy n this is wat i found out.
for p2, (refer to guide bk) topic 1, 6 & 7 has always came out. so study tt intensively. other picks r topic 4 n 5. i mean, ultimately u gotta study almost everythin for p2, but juz a tip. im doin those 4 topics b4 touchin the rest. well, only 2 days to go now, so cant do much, but p2 isnt tt tough.
the real tip, for p3. since we got about a week for tt. topic 3 n 7, bang to it. always one qtn on them. then topic 5 n 2. juz for safety's sake, study topic 4 too. topic 1 n hardly comes out in p3. well, we're gonna pick 4 qtns out of 6 ultimately so better study 5 to b flexible yea?
i say again, i might not b completely right, but its definately some help into goin some way. dont juz study few obscure topics, but one, two more juz in case one of the qtns turn out real tough. well, best scenario's if we can actually take a look at every one of the qtn n pick out the easy 4 n do it, but i understand tt almost everyone hasnt touched physics till last nite, at the earliest, n till tomorrow, after chem p1, at the latest right? thank god its not tt hard a subject yes?
im gonna go intensive on the topics i mentioned above n if i can still afford time (hopefully, well, yea, i definately will) then ill go on to do the topics left out. its better prepared for everythin than not at all.
all the best u guys. 8 more days.
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
the biggest pain in the ass is finally gone. well, one more mcq paper n the whole pain in the ass will b gone. yes, im talkin bt chemistry, a subject i once loved but lost complete interest durin my time in JC. its such a torture to memorise and bla bla bla, being denied my preference to study environmental chem or thermodynamics juz coz most SA students do food chem. ah watever, its over n done wit. ive already cleared my desk of chem stuff already. my pile of cleared stuff now stands near 70 cm i think. after phy, it'll b 1m of stuff.
go go go...
cant wait. 9 days from now, ill b drownin in ecstacy. well, not quite, but yea.
im already thinkin of wat i wanna do n cant stop thinkin bt it. CM4, tons of DVD, goin out, etc... too many to mention.
k here i come physics bk. i'm gonna b makin out wit it for the next 8 nights. woohoo!
go go go...
cant wait. 9 days from now, ill b drownin in ecstacy. well, not quite, but yea.
im already thinkin of wat i wanna do n cant stop thinkin bt it. CM4, tons of DVD, goin out, etc... too many to mention.
k here i come physics bk. i'm gonna b makin out wit it for the next 8 nights. woohoo!
Monday, November 17, 2003
damn i wish i could go to limp bizkit concert n headbang my post exam fever off. as luck would hav it, im havin my sch grad nite on tt day. dang. talk abt disappointment. theres no way grad nite's gonna b postponed. the concert? mayb, but v unlikely.
i tried to study for chem. but its not workin. the back of my head is always askin, y the fuck am i wastin my time over somethin tt doesnt make any diff anymore? i got all my SAT scores, i can apply anytime n i hav to study n sit for A Levels tt wont make shit difference to the unis im applyin for.
thank god i'm a american permanent resident. if i wasn't, ill b so fucked right now coz A Levels would matter then. but im not. damn, this sucks. nvm, its only for chem. once its done, then its in my yard. physics, here i come.
heh, my post exam party starts right the next day wit my friend's birthday party.
10 more days n cant hardly wait.
i tried to study for chem. but its not workin. the back of my head is always askin, y the fuck am i wastin my time over somethin tt doesnt make any diff anymore? i got all my SAT scores, i can apply anytime n i hav to study n sit for A Levels tt wont make shit difference to the unis im applyin for.
thank god i'm a american permanent resident. if i wasn't, ill b so fucked right now coz A Levels would matter then. but im not. damn, this sucks. nvm, its only for chem. once its done, then its in my yard. physics, here i come.
heh, my post exam party starts right the next day wit my friend's birthday party.
10 more days n cant hardly wait.
Saturday, November 15, 2003
i'm listenin to tony bennett and k.d. lang's multi-grammy winning album 'a wonderful world' for my saturday late night chillout. i never actually liked oldie jazz, but i admit, this is excellent stuff.
i just sent off my dad downstairs. hes goin to japan for a few days. he's gonna go to kagoshima first. hes having some sort of a reunion with all his university friends and professors. it seems like a grand gatherin of the glory days. all of his classmates are some sort of big shots now. most of them are deans of japanese universities or head of faculty of some sort. its only my dad that didnt go to the teachin profession. but i found out today that he's like the second in command of the whole asia pacific division. he handles sg, kl, hk, taiwan, manila, jakarta n bangkok division personally. i was like, whoa, tts so cool. even though he's second in command, he takes greater control and responsibility than the managing director of kyocera asia pacific. i guess the leadership thing runs through my blood then.
anyway, that made me start thinkin. few years down the road, i'll b travellin around for work too. i'm done schoolin already. uni is totally different stuff. work is another thin altogether. but its cool. i like travellin n if its gonna take me places, im more than willing. im lookin forward to these stuff.
n i hope there will be some sort of a reunion too for the SAJC ppl. u hear of proms n all, but we never actually hear of reunion in singapore. even if its not a school reunion, i hope there will b a clique reunion. its gonna b so cool. i hope there'll b one by the time i'm 30. i would hav finished graduate school, get myself a decent job, probably can get a nice house and a car by then (its so cheap to own em in US), hopefully married wit kids. tt would b fantastic. the guys here would hav finished NS by then, graduated from uni, got themselves work and all too. it'll b great to catch up on lost time.
im thinkin so much ahead. but it'll b like tt. although i get the general outline, i can never be sure wat ill b doin, where ill b at, etc. past few days happenings r like preparin me for the future. home owning, investments, finances, future planning, etc. im learnin stuff from my dad as well as cousins. i got a cousin in california, n he's doin quite well. relatively young age, annual pay is quite impressive, got himself a nice apartment n a cool merc. his colleagues r rather envious of him. i hope to emulate him in some way.
but america is a nasty place. laws govern every little thing. its the way of life, somehow. everyone has this idea of grand lifestlye that americans lead. its so not true. ive seen both the gd n the bad, i can honestly say, the gd we know only apply to a v small percentage. it would b challengin, but im gonna do it.
man, im thinkin so much of everythin, im forgettin wats ahead. its pretty much understood a levels doesnt matter anymore. but im gonna hav to complete it first anyway. so here are the 17 schools that made it to my final shortlisting. usually 8 is more than enough, if selected properly, but im not taking any chances. besides, more schools, more acceptance chances, more flexibility in choice too. when i receive the acceptance/rejection letter in april, i can consider everythin n make my final decision. so heres the list;
University of Pennsylvania
Cornell University
University of California - Berkeley
Carnegie Mellon University
University of Michigan - Ann Arbor
University of California - Los Angeles
University of North Carolina - Chapel Hill
University of Southern California
University of Wisconsin - Madison
University of California - San Diego
Georgia Institute of Technology
University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign
Pennsylvania State University - University Park
University of Texas - Austin
Purdue University - West Lafayette
Marquette University
University of Massachusetts - Amherst
yea.. most of them are in eastern united states but frankly, location doesnt matter much to me. anywhere would b new environment for me. if i happen to go to lower ranked school, well, i guess it works to my advantage, mayb less competition so i might hav better chance to doin well n all. but of cuz, if i start off well, its gonna end well too.
yea its real excitin for me now. but lotsa thoughts are occupyin me. better hold it for 12 more days. tts when i hav to go all out of college stuff.
junli briefly food chem today. i always wanted to do environmental chem, coz the processes make more sense to me n its more my type of stuff. but considerin the lack of time and familiarity, im left wit no choice but to do food chem now. i mean, i'll do environmental if i hav the time to look it through, but ill prepare for food chem in the mean time. junli's gone through the stuff in detail, so the rest is up to me, to remember stuff n learn. thanx junz for takin ur time off to teach me! really appreciate it!
junwen came not too much later. we talked bt a lot of stuff as usual. i juz love the company of the two, weve talked abt almost anythin for the past two years and its really been great. even though junli n i r so busy wit our stuff n apart in terms of sch, wit junwen bein away in aussie previously n now in ns, we still manage to get together quite regularly. its juz amazin. this is wat u call strong bond of friendship. we would hav been able to spend so much time together once all these exams r over n all, but its real pity i would hav to leave em soon. its juz sad that things has to turn out this way, really. it happened rather late and its endin so soon. i wonder how the future will turn out for all of us.
n i juz start to wonder how everyone will lead their lives. it'll definately be interestin.
see wat schless, soccerless sat nite does to my mind. haha. but all these r gd thoughts. i cant put the rest of my thoughts coz those r rather private thoughts bt my own life. bt my love life, goals and stuff. im not sure if im ready to type all those stuff here yet. coz its still undecided kinda thing. hopefully it works out. itll b all sweet n all. it either happens or doesnt.
alrite then, i think tts enough for one day. im exhausted.
n the CD juz ends. tt was a gd companion. k this is one cd i would recommend to everyone then. jazz's cool.
i just sent off my dad downstairs. hes goin to japan for a few days. he's gonna go to kagoshima first. hes having some sort of a reunion with all his university friends and professors. it seems like a grand gatherin of the glory days. all of his classmates are some sort of big shots now. most of them are deans of japanese universities or head of faculty of some sort. its only my dad that didnt go to the teachin profession. but i found out today that he's like the second in command of the whole asia pacific division. he handles sg, kl, hk, taiwan, manila, jakarta n bangkok division personally. i was like, whoa, tts so cool. even though he's second in command, he takes greater control and responsibility than the managing director of kyocera asia pacific. i guess the leadership thing runs through my blood then.
anyway, that made me start thinkin. few years down the road, i'll b travellin around for work too. i'm done schoolin already. uni is totally different stuff. work is another thin altogether. but its cool. i like travellin n if its gonna take me places, im more than willing. im lookin forward to these stuff.
n i hope there will be some sort of a reunion too for the SAJC ppl. u hear of proms n all, but we never actually hear of reunion in singapore. even if its not a school reunion, i hope there will b a clique reunion. its gonna b so cool. i hope there'll b one by the time i'm 30. i would hav finished graduate school, get myself a decent job, probably can get a nice house and a car by then (its so cheap to own em in US), hopefully married wit kids. tt would b fantastic. the guys here would hav finished NS by then, graduated from uni, got themselves work and all too. it'll b great to catch up on lost time.
im thinkin so much ahead. but it'll b like tt. although i get the general outline, i can never be sure wat ill b doin, where ill b at, etc. past few days happenings r like preparin me for the future. home owning, investments, finances, future planning, etc. im learnin stuff from my dad as well as cousins. i got a cousin in california, n he's doin quite well. relatively young age, annual pay is quite impressive, got himself a nice apartment n a cool merc. his colleagues r rather envious of him. i hope to emulate him in some way.
but america is a nasty place. laws govern every little thing. its the way of life, somehow. everyone has this idea of grand lifestlye that americans lead. its so not true. ive seen both the gd n the bad, i can honestly say, the gd we know only apply to a v small percentage. it would b challengin, but im gonna do it.
man, im thinkin so much of everythin, im forgettin wats ahead. its pretty much understood a levels doesnt matter anymore. but im gonna hav to complete it first anyway. so here are the 17 schools that made it to my final shortlisting. usually 8 is more than enough, if selected properly, but im not taking any chances. besides, more schools, more acceptance chances, more flexibility in choice too. when i receive the acceptance/rejection letter in april, i can consider everythin n make my final decision. so heres the list;
University of Pennsylvania
Cornell University
University of California - Berkeley
Carnegie Mellon University
University of Michigan - Ann Arbor
University of California - Los Angeles
University of North Carolina - Chapel Hill
University of Southern California
University of Wisconsin - Madison
University of California - San Diego
Georgia Institute of Technology
University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign
Pennsylvania State University - University Park
University of Texas - Austin
Purdue University - West Lafayette
Marquette University
University of Massachusetts - Amherst
yea.. most of them are in eastern united states but frankly, location doesnt matter much to me. anywhere would b new environment for me. if i happen to go to lower ranked school, well, i guess it works to my advantage, mayb less competition so i might hav better chance to doin well n all. but of cuz, if i start off well, its gonna end well too.
yea its real excitin for me now. but lotsa thoughts are occupyin me. better hold it for 12 more days. tts when i hav to go all out of college stuff.
junli briefly food chem today. i always wanted to do environmental chem, coz the processes make more sense to me n its more my type of stuff. but considerin the lack of time and familiarity, im left wit no choice but to do food chem now. i mean, i'll do environmental if i hav the time to look it through, but ill prepare for food chem in the mean time. junli's gone through the stuff in detail, so the rest is up to me, to remember stuff n learn. thanx junz for takin ur time off to teach me! really appreciate it!
junwen came not too much later. we talked bt a lot of stuff as usual. i juz love the company of the two, weve talked abt almost anythin for the past two years and its really been great. even though junli n i r so busy wit our stuff n apart in terms of sch, wit junwen bein away in aussie previously n now in ns, we still manage to get together quite regularly. its juz amazin. this is wat u call strong bond of friendship. we would hav been able to spend so much time together once all these exams r over n all, but its real pity i would hav to leave em soon. its juz sad that things has to turn out this way, really. it happened rather late and its endin so soon. i wonder how the future will turn out for all of us.
n i juz start to wonder how everyone will lead their lives. it'll definately be interestin.
see wat schless, soccerless sat nite does to my mind. haha. but all these r gd thoughts. i cant put the rest of my thoughts coz those r rather private thoughts bt my own life. bt my love life, goals and stuff. im not sure if im ready to type all those stuff here yet. coz its still undecided kinda thing. hopefully it works out. itll b all sweet n all. it either happens or doesnt.
alrite then, i think tts enough for one day. im exhausted.
n the CD juz ends. tt was a gd companion. k this is one cd i would recommend to everyone then. jazz's cool.
Friday, November 14, 2003
"If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe"
i guess blastin the speakers wit loud music did gd job. somehow my anger was either taken away or calmed down by the head banging beats and the vibrations that the tiny yet oh so powerful speakers produced. was listenin to stuff by three days grace, rage against the machine, limp bizkit, 3rd strike, korn, P.O.D. and so many other real hard stuff.
lucky i handled the day properly. i couldve taken it out on somebody for sure, i was that pissed.
but at the end of the day, everyone has a reason to behave the way they do.
for my dad, i realised he had every reason to lash out on me. had i applied on ED to Carnegie Mellon, it would have meant that he would have to file his federal tax income papers in early. and thats one hell of a job. compared to me filling up 16 college applications, that work is tons more. furthermore, fillin up ur federal tax income papers is so complex and requires months to fill it up. u make any mistake, n u could end up in a trial, even jail. so rushing that kinda thing, yea, i guess i understood his frustration. so i juz let myself forget about the day's incident. nothing to worry about.
after thinking about it, yea, had i been accepted in CM, then it would hav meant high tuition fee, considerable competition, and missin out on prospects of goin to other unis. besides, theres nothin to lose, i can apply on regular anyway. jeez, y was i so worried about. stupid me. gettin so worked over one thing.
oh i got my SAT II results already. got 760 for maths IIC, 670 for physics and 590 for writing. im surprised i scored so high for maths, considerin i only did like 60-70% of the qtns. well, i remember from my practice bk tt in some yrs, they did award 700 for 30 correct ans out of 50 and 800 for gettin 40 out of 50. so i guess i was somewhere in between. im extremely happy for maths. physics was disappointment. i expected to do better. but physics was my last paper after two hours of other tests and it was juz all confusing questions tt u never see in a level kind of qtns. 670 isnt bad, but when i found out tt 670 was like 56 percentile, i was shocked. tt means quite a lot got 760 to 800. i wished i could b one of em. ah well. writin, well cant say anythin.
tts tt then. SAT I n II cleared. two college application complete, only essays to worry about for those two, and im very close to finishing FAFSA. tt leaves me to handle 12 more applications to fill up, all after A's. phew. tts a lot of job done for the day.
alrite, im juz gonna forget bt universities for once n go all out on chem n phy finally tomorrow. junli's gonna help me learn food chem n ill do the rest of chem n phy for myself. man, i wasted two days worth of study coz of all these university shit. i could hav so used the two days to finish physics and dedicate the next few days totally to chem.
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe"
i guess blastin the speakers wit loud music did gd job. somehow my anger was either taken away or calmed down by the head banging beats and the vibrations that the tiny yet oh so powerful speakers produced. was listenin to stuff by three days grace, rage against the machine, limp bizkit, 3rd strike, korn, P.O.D. and so many other real hard stuff.
lucky i handled the day properly. i couldve taken it out on somebody for sure, i was that pissed.
but at the end of the day, everyone has a reason to behave the way they do.
for my dad, i realised he had every reason to lash out on me. had i applied on ED to Carnegie Mellon, it would have meant that he would have to file his federal tax income papers in early. and thats one hell of a job. compared to me filling up 16 college applications, that work is tons more. furthermore, fillin up ur federal tax income papers is so complex and requires months to fill it up. u make any mistake, n u could end up in a trial, even jail. so rushing that kinda thing, yea, i guess i understood his frustration. so i juz let myself forget about the day's incident. nothing to worry about.
after thinking about it, yea, had i been accepted in CM, then it would hav meant high tuition fee, considerable competition, and missin out on prospects of goin to other unis. besides, theres nothin to lose, i can apply on regular anyway. jeez, y was i so worried about. stupid me. gettin so worked over one thing.
oh i got my SAT II results already. got 760 for maths IIC, 670 for physics and 590 for writing. im surprised i scored so high for maths, considerin i only did like 60-70% of the qtns. well, i remember from my practice bk tt in some yrs, they did award 700 for 30 correct ans out of 50 and 800 for gettin 40 out of 50. so i guess i was somewhere in between. im extremely happy for maths. physics was disappointment. i expected to do better. but physics was my last paper after two hours of other tests and it was juz all confusing questions tt u never see in a level kind of qtns. 670 isnt bad, but when i found out tt 670 was like 56 percentile, i was shocked. tt means quite a lot got 760 to 800. i wished i could b one of em. ah well. writin, well cant say anythin.
tts tt then. SAT I n II cleared. two college application complete, only essays to worry about for those two, and im very close to finishing FAFSA. tt leaves me to handle 12 more applications to fill up, all after A's. phew. tts a lot of job done for the day.
alrite, im juz gonna forget bt universities for once n go all out on chem n phy finally tomorrow. junli's gonna help me learn food chem n ill do the rest of chem n phy for myself. man, i wasted two days worth of study coz of all these university shit. i could hav so used the two days to finish physics and dedicate the next few days totally to chem.
fucking hell.
yea tts the only word tt comes to my mind now.
i had set my eyes on Carnegie Mellon University. My plan for the day was to print out the completed Common Application, print the supplement paper, study chem and at night, when my dad's at home, I'll submit and pay for the Early Decision application. Just when I was about to print the forms, my dad called.
He blasted me over the phone. (To summarise an ordeal I don't wanna think about.)
What the fuck, he could have told me everythin last night, why must he call me up in the middle of the day, which left me only about 24 hours to settle everythin? Its just way too late now. Its apply for ED or apply for regular by 1st Jan. Nothing to lose. He started scolding me for not consulting my uncle nor cousins over the essays which, yes, I agree, are important, but what do you have me do? Its less than 24 hours now, even if i send em, how much time is there to review, correct, send, n get approval? Remember, there's about 12 hours of difference. If I call now, its midnight in Boston and New York. Everyone must be tired and sleepy by now, how can I ask them for help. They too are busy with their own shit. They dont live for me, I fucking know that. I know I should have consulted them. But he doesnt get it. To call them would be calling them between 10-12 o clock. For the past 3 days, I've been having A Level papers during that time. Not only that, I have been studying. What would you have me do? I simply have no choice to do anything, do I?
I'm so fucking under pressure since end of prelims. I've been studying for SAT I, then SAT II, then A Levels and now sitting for them. Tt's since 3rd week of September. Its been fucking crazy time for me. On top of that, I had to search for gd schs, consult sources to check their academic rating, SAT score range, student faculty ratio, specialities, tuition fees, etc, etc. And then, compile everything, eliminate and then analyse again. Its a very tiring process, believe me. While everyone else only had A Level revision to worry about, I've had to handle all these other shit. I'm not grumbling, I actually liked searching for schools. But dont just come from nowhere and point fingers and say I didnt do this, I didnt do that. Fuck that. I did everything necessary. I've planned everything out. Its only when I'm interfered thats when everything goes haywire. I mean, my uncle is so busy with his work, and its already bad enough that I'm troubling him with my essays. I cant simply ask him whether he had read n editted my work after few days. He needs time too. Everyone needs time. I need time. N now, I'm sitting for the A Levels, that's the only thing I should be thinkin bout.
I really wanted to throw and smash the phone when my dad suddenly quirped ; what are you going to do with your A Levels?
If he knew, he should have told me long time ago so that I dont need to waste my fucking time over the fucking exams and concentrate fully on my application. I dont need to be told that. Man, I tell him every single process and he doesnt seem to listen or care. N he says he listens to everything. Yea right. If he listened to everything, he would know how many things I'm juggling right now. If I am to just concentrate on the application, I might as well not sit for A Levels. Why sit when I didnt get to study for it? I'm already bad enough, its not gonna be any better, would it?
I know what I'm doing. Nobody else needs to tell me what to do. Just leave me and let me do my own shit. Come on, of course I thought about everything, I wont just do things blindly, would I?
There is so much frustration, irritation and anger in me that I just do not know what more to say. And after yesterday, I was supposed to feel all calm and good. Look what happened now. Everything is screwed up. Everything could hav been fine.
I know my chances of getting in to Carnegie Mellon is low. But at least I can throw a dart. I would know the results by mid december and if it didnt work, then of course I would have gotten a improved essay ready by then so that I would apply again for regular admission. Like, duh???
Damn it. Fuck all. I'm gonna blast Audioslave, Rage Against The Machine and Massive Attack at full volume to make me feel better.
Oh, sorry to waste all you reader's precious time. To cut the long story short; I don't think I'll apply to Carnegie Mellon University on Early Decision anymore due to some complicated reasons. Period.
Fucking hell...
yea tts the only word tt comes to my mind now.
i had set my eyes on Carnegie Mellon University. My plan for the day was to print out the completed Common Application, print the supplement paper, study chem and at night, when my dad's at home, I'll submit and pay for the Early Decision application. Just when I was about to print the forms, my dad called.
He blasted me over the phone. (To summarise an ordeal I don't wanna think about.)
What the fuck, he could have told me everythin last night, why must he call me up in the middle of the day, which left me only about 24 hours to settle everythin? Its just way too late now. Its apply for ED or apply for regular by 1st Jan. Nothing to lose. He started scolding me for not consulting my uncle nor cousins over the essays which, yes, I agree, are important, but what do you have me do? Its less than 24 hours now, even if i send em, how much time is there to review, correct, send, n get approval? Remember, there's about 12 hours of difference. If I call now, its midnight in Boston and New York. Everyone must be tired and sleepy by now, how can I ask them for help. They too are busy with their own shit. They dont live for me, I fucking know that. I know I should have consulted them. But he doesnt get it. To call them would be calling them between 10-12 o clock. For the past 3 days, I've been having A Level papers during that time. Not only that, I have been studying. What would you have me do? I simply have no choice to do anything, do I?
I'm so fucking under pressure since end of prelims. I've been studying for SAT I, then SAT II, then A Levels and now sitting for them. Tt's since 3rd week of September. Its been fucking crazy time for me. On top of that, I had to search for gd schs, consult sources to check their academic rating, SAT score range, student faculty ratio, specialities, tuition fees, etc, etc. And then, compile everything, eliminate and then analyse again. Its a very tiring process, believe me. While everyone else only had A Level revision to worry about, I've had to handle all these other shit. I'm not grumbling, I actually liked searching for schools. But dont just come from nowhere and point fingers and say I didnt do this, I didnt do that. Fuck that. I did everything necessary. I've planned everything out. Its only when I'm interfered thats when everything goes haywire. I mean, my uncle is so busy with his work, and its already bad enough that I'm troubling him with my essays. I cant simply ask him whether he had read n editted my work after few days. He needs time too. Everyone needs time. I need time. N now, I'm sitting for the A Levels, that's the only thing I should be thinkin bout.
I really wanted to throw and smash the phone when my dad suddenly quirped ; what are you going to do with your A Levels?
If he knew, he should have told me long time ago so that I dont need to waste my fucking time over the fucking exams and concentrate fully on my application. I dont need to be told that. Man, I tell him every single process and he doesnt seem to listen or care. N he says he listens to everything. Yea right. If he listened to everything, he would know how many things I'm juggling right now. If I am to just concentrate on the application, I might as well not sit for A Levels. Why sit when I didnt get to study for it? I'm already bad enough, its not gonna be any better, would it?
I know what I'm doing. Nobody else needs to tell me what to do. Just leave me and let me do my own shit. Come on, of course I thought about everything, I wont just do things blindly, would I?
There is so much frustration, irritation and anger in me that I just do not know what more to say. And after yesterday, I was supposed to feel all calm and good. Look what happened now. Everything is screwed up. Everything could hav been fine.
I know my chances of getting in to Carnegie Mellon is low. But at least I can throw a dart. I would know the results by mid december and if it didnt work, then of course I would have gotten a improved essay ready by then so that I would apply again for regular admission. Like, duh???
Damn it. Fuck all. I'm gonna blast Audioslave, Rage Against The Machine and Massive Attack at full volume to make me feel better.
Oh, sorry to waste all you reader's precious time. To cut the long story short; I don't think I'll apply to Carnegie Mellon University on Early Decision anymore due to some complicated reasons. Period.
Fucking hell...
Thursday, November 13, 2003
ok, after lengthy discussion, this is the outcome; i'll apply to carnegie mellon on early decision.
academic-wise, its a very gd choice. one of the top schools in the field of computer engineering and very noted program, plus the fact tt most of its graduates get jobs at IBM or Microsoft makes it very attractive.
financial-wise, well we can deal wit it. it means more work, applyin through FAFSA n FA but its not too hard. either way ill manage to get some sort of loan. either work loan or student loan, maybe even merit scholarship after some time. but its gonna be hard coz its a gd sch, so many other excellent students will b vying for the same thing.
so tts it then. but if u ask me, i stand a v low chance of gettin in now since my SAT score's below their 25 percentile range n i didnt consult my cousins or uncle for the essay, which means its messy n disorganised. but i cant do anything now, its due in about 24 hours. i gotta fill up the FA stuff now. sigh, how am i gonna study for chem p3 now like this?
hmm, ive been v enlightened the past two nights. amelie was a v nice movie on wed night n last night, i watched it could happen to you. v heart-warming movies. makes me think bt so many things tt i would want in the future. but it would seem like a awkward decision to many who know me, but i want it anyway. i would wanna earn a lot, live comfortably, but not extravagantly, juz a small cosy apartment or a semi-D, which isnt too big, n a old cadillac or plymouth would do. somewhere in the suburban area, if possible, even rural. maybe one of those obscure counties in france, italy, spain, portugal or even turkey. after livin right in the middle of a city for so long, ive grown to detest living so near all the tall buildings, traffic and everythin. i juz wanna liv far far away n be alone, let myself to sit down next to the fire, listenin to lounge music every nite. tts how i envision myself. i might probably remain single, who wants to share a lifestyle which is so stagnant n un-happening? all these thoughts were occupyin my head as i went to sleep last night. im really confused. A's r ending in 2 wks, i hav like 10 months to sort everythin out b4 i head to university, then everythin from there is one way ticket. i used to look forward to that, now i'm rather scared.
academic-wise, its a very gd choice. one of the top schools in the field of computer engineering and very noted program, plus the fact tt most of its graduates get jobs at IBM or Microsoft makes it very attractive.
financial-wise, well we can deal wit it. it means more work, applyin through FAFSA n FA but its not too hard. either way ill manage to get some sort of loan. either work loan or student loan, maybe even merit scholarship after some time. but its gonna be hard coz its a gd sch, so many other excellent students will b vying for the same thing.
so tts it then. but if u ask me, i stand a v low chance of gettin in now since my SAT score's below their 25 percentile range n i didnt consult my cousins or uncle for the essay, which means its messy n disorganised. but i cant do anything now, its due in about 24 hours. i gotta fill up the FA stuff now. sigh, how am i gonna study for chem p3 now like this?
hmm, ive been v enlightened the past two nights. amelie was a v nice movie on wed night n last night, i watched it could happen to you. v heart-warming movies. makes me think bt so many things tt i would want in the future. but it would seem like a awkward decision to many who know me, but i want it anyway. i would wanna earn a lot, live comfortably, but not extravagantly, juz a small cosy apartment or a semi-D, which isnt too big, n a old cadillac or plymouth would do. somewhere in the suburban area, if possible, even rural. maybe one of those obscure counties in france, italy, spain, portugal or even turkey. after livin right in the middle of a city for so long, ive grown to detest living so near all the tall buildings, traffic and everythin. i juz wanna liv far far away n be alone, let myself to sit down next to the fire, listenin to lounge music every nite. tts how i envision myself. i might probably remain single, who wants to share a lifestyle which is so stagnant n un-happening? all these thoughts were occupyin my head as i went to sleep last night. im really confused. A's r ending in 2 wks, i hav like 10 months to sort everythin out b4 i head to university, then everythin from there is one way ticket. i used to look forward to that, now i'm rather scared.
ok, i finally completed my two essays for Carnegie Mellon University. I think its crappy but ive got no choice, its due in two days time.
now the dilemma. should i submit on Early Decision or scrap that n wait for regular admission? it makes a helluva diff. if i apply on ED, i'll know my admission results mid dec. i most probably wont make it wit my shit SAT score, but american university admissions are unpredictable, even shitty scores can get u in gd unis, so its worth a try.
on the other hand, CMU is rather ex. n if i do happen to get accepted, tt means i gotta pay tt big sum. i mean of cuz i'll apply for financial aid from FAFSA, so it wont b too ex, but compared to other state unis, which r as gd as CMU, i dunno if its worth it. i mean, in the field tt i do, which will b computer or electrical engineering, CMU's the best. n best of the best. n its reacheable by me.
the worry is, if i get accepted on ED, then, i HAVE to attend CMU. tts my worry. ill hav no choice but to attend CMU if i get accepted on ED, i mean, tt's wat ED is all for. so i dunno. i mean i can apply on regular, but most of freshman in CMU is those who applied on ED. so its like dilemma. n its bad enough since these few days my dad's like lookin around for info n researchin for expenses n flats around california n texas. arrgghhh wat should i do? CMU, once accepted, will b all sweet. their graduate sch will b quite gd for MBA too.
im gonna hav to talk to my dad first then. everythin else is in place. juz the decision.
now the dilemma. should i submit on Early Decision or scrap that n wait for regular admission? it makes a helluva diff. if i apply on ED, i'll know my admission results mid dec. i most probably wont make it wit my shit SAT score, but american university admissions are unpredictable, even shitty scores can get u in gd unis, so its worth a try.
on the other hand, CMU is rather ex. n if i do happen to get accepted, tt means i gotta pay tt big sum. i mean of cuz i'll apply for financial aid from FAFSA, so it wont b too ex, but compared to other state unis, which r as gd as CMU, i dunno if its worth it. i mean, in the field tt i do, which will b computer or electrical engineering, CMU's the best. n best of the best. n its reacheable by me.
the worry is, if i get accepted on ED, then, i HAVE to attend CMU. tts my worry. ill hav no choice but to attend CMU if i get accepted on ED, i mean, tt's wat ED is all for. so i dunno. i mean i can apply on regular, but most of freshman in CMU is those who applied on ED. so its like dilemma. n its bad enough since these few days my dad's like lookin around for info n researchin for expenses n flats around california n texas. arrgghhh wat should i do? CMU, once accepted, will b all sweet. their graduate sch will b quite gd for MBA too.
im gonna hav to talk to my dad first then. everythin else is in place. juz the decision.
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
"Here in the southtown, you know that kid don't play.
Put it down on the streets, will I see another day.
If I make it back this time, got to hold what is mine
And thank god that I made it alive.
Here in the southtown...."
after the 3 day hiatus, i'm takin a mental break for the day. watchin amelie from montmarte now. i watched it b4 n i muz say its one of the most original as well as creative movie ive ever come across. these movies r wat makes me like european films. they juz hav this quality bout em tts so attractive. when watchin those french or spanish movies that are set to our time, i cant help but dream of living juz like the lifestyle tt the movie portrays one day. juz look at amelie living such a comfortable, peaceful life. i want that. i yearn to live in a simple apartment n juz live life. i guess that will happen soon. or in the years to come, i'll hav complete power over that decision. cant wait. 2 more wks to freedom.
lets do a flashback. slept early on sunday night, but couldnt really get to sleep. was rollin n tossin till like 2am. tts my usual night. i hav big trouble fallin asleep. anyway, lucky as it didnt affect too much for maths the next day. yea it was rather straightforward, i could do most of the qtns, leavin some out coz i wasnt sure. i think i screwed up bits n pieces, but i'm content. i was never tt gd in maths once in jc, so cant expect too much out of myself suddenly. but it'll b ok. next day was gp n chem. horrible day of 3 papers. wrote an essay on 'does the modern world place too much reliance on technology?" so i juz wrote n wrote. kinda crappy at parts but yea i wrote quite a lot for once. i had lotsa things to say. i tot the compre wasnt too hard. passage was easy to understand. yea i agree qtns were rather different than the ones we're usually exposed to, but i guess it was do-able. but we never know, tt's gp. chem was horror show. i think this paper was way simple. but the thing was tt, i went into the paper panickin n very underprepared. had i been on a gd standard, like tt of my phy, then it would hav been quite easy. i dunno, mayb i feel tt way coz there were hardly any organic qtns tt i totally detest. but i was quite pissed coz i couldnt even nail the topics tt i usually would excel at. i'm super at thermochem n equilibria. n for weak or below average students, yea tts me for chem, if u dont do well at wat ure gd at, then ure fucked. so i fucked myself. i shouldve juz trusted the data qtn provided n not go accordin to wat i believed i knew. ah well. im not expectin much for chem. but it did make me feel a little better since everyone found it screwed up n were v unsure. but my damage has already been done. its gonna b hard to recover from this damage. but ill juz do wat i can do. maths p2 today made me so happy. well i never know i might hav used all the wrong methods n did somethin wrong like usual, but if i can attempt everythin n hav a sense of idea as to how the qtn should b answered, i guess tts gd enough. i managed to answer everythin. i actually finished ahead of time. i was amazed. but we never know till we get our results. personally i believe tt if i improved, then so did everyone else. so gotta see. i might do well, n theres still a possibility i screwed up.
man this characters name in amelie is so cool. his surname is quincampouix. so cool. when i start a new CM game after A's, im gonna name myself valderrama quincampouix. valderrama's a surname but it sounds like a first name.
anyway...
worst part of A's is over i guess. tho its not so much, i got quite a bit of time to do chem n phy prep. man, its 2 wks more. it seems quite long, but its gonna fly. ive thus far sat for 15 hrs of the 24 tt im sittin for. man. tts crazy. actually 21 of 30 if u include my SAT I n IIs. man. tts really some waste of time n some pascals on my arse.
im gonna hav to finish composin two essays for carnegie mellon by tomorrow n submit by 14th. that'll settle my ED. but now im not sure if i really wanna go there. well if u do, its gd, but other colleges as equally as gd n at a cheaper price. hmm hmm.
while ive been havin exams, my bro's been downloadin that 70's show for me. now ive got season 1 2 3 all complete. almost halfway through season 4 now. i could hav the entire series by this weekend. n then, burn mania. gonna do tt for friends after A's. n roswell too. ooh, this is cool.
when i reached home today, immediately went to my desk n threw maths n gp stuff on the ground. my mom was like, walid wat r u doin. heh, to hell wit those two for now. stacked up everythin later n it piled up to half a meter already. n theres still much more for chem n phy. 3/8 of my desk space is cleared for now. cant wait till next wk when i can get rid of the god darned chem. i'll still b doin maths n phy in uni, but i really dont want anythin got to do wit chem for the next few yrs.
Kuan Sian was damn funny today. after maths, we were juz talkin lot of shit as usual n he juz noted somethin;
"y is it tt whenever tt guy walks, two girls follow him?"
his friend: 'one of the girl is his gf n the other one is the gf's best friend."
Kuan Sian: "... (after few moments of silence), erm, does tt mean buy 1 get 1 free?"
everyone: "HAHAHAHAHA!!!"
hahahahahahaha..... BURN!!!! (Kelso That 70's Show style)
man Kuan Sian never fail to amuse n crack me up.
k gonna continue watchin amelie.
Put it down on the streets, will I see another day.
If I make it back this time, got to hold what is mine
And thank god that I made it alive.
Here in the southtown...."
after the 3 day hiatus, i'm takin a mental break for the day. watchin amelie from montmarte now. i watched it b4 n i muz say its one of the most original as well as creative movie ive ever come across. these movies r wat makes me like european films. they juz hav this quality bout em tts so attractive. when watchin those french or spanish movies that are set to our time, i cant help but dream of living juz like the lifestyle tt the movie portrays one day. juz look at amelie living such a comfortable, peaceful life. i want that. i yearn to live in a simple apartment n juz live life. i guess that will happen soon. or in the years to come, i'll hav complete power over that decision. cant wait. 2 more wks to freedom.
lets do a flashback. slept early on sunday night, but couldnt really get to sleep. was rollin n tossin till like 2am. tts my usual night. i hav big trouble fallin asleep. anyway, lucky as it didnt affect too much for maths the next day. yea it was rather straightforward, i could do most of the qtns, leavin some out coz i wasnt sure. i think i screwed up bits n pieces, but i'm content. i was never tt gd in maths once in jc, so cant expect too much out of myself suddenly. but it'll b ok. next day was gp n chem. horrible day of 3 papers. wrote an essay on 'does the modern world place too much reliance on technology?" so i juz wrote n wrote. kinda crappy at parts but yea i wrote quite a lot for once. i had lotsa things to say. i tot the compre wasnt too hard. passage was easy to understand. yea i agree qtns were rather different than the ones we're usually exposed to, but i guess it was do-able. but we never know, tt's gp. chem was horror show. i think this paper was way simple. but the thing was tt, i went into the paper panickin n very underprepared. had i been on a gd standard, like tt of my phy, then it would hav been quite easy. i dunno, mayb i feel tt way coz there were hardly any organic qtns tt i totally detest. but i was quite pissed coz i couldnt even nail the topics tt i usually would excel at. i'm super at thermochem n equilibria. n for weak or below average students, yea tts me for chem, if u dont do well at wat ure gd at, then ure fucked. so i fucked myself. i shouldve juz trusted the data qtn provided n not go accordin to wat i believed i knew. ah well. im not expectin much for chem. but it did make me feel a little better since everyone found it screwed up n were v unsure. but my damage has already been done. its gonna b hard to recover from this damage. but ill juz do wat i can do. maths p2 today made me so happy. well i never know i might hav used all the wrong methods n did somethin wrong like usual, but if i can attempt everythin n hav a sense of idea as to how the qtn should b answered, i guess tts gd enough. i managed to answer everythin. i actually finished ahead of time. i was amazed. but we never know till we get our results. personally i believe tt if i improved, then so did everyone else. so gotta see. i might do well, n theres still a possibility i screwed up.
man this characters name in amelie is so cool. his surname is quincampouix. so cool. when i start a new CM game after A's, im gonna name myself valderrama quincampouix. valderrama's a surname but it sounds like a first name.
anyway...
worst part of A's is over i guess. tho its not so much, i got quite a bit of time to do chem n phy prep. man, its 2 wks more. it seems quite long, but its gonna fly. ive thus far sat for 15 hrs of the 24 tt im sittin for. man. tts crazy. actually 21 of 30 if u include my SAT I n IIs. man. tts really some waste of time n some pascals on my arse.
im gonna hav to finish composin two essays for carnegie mellon by tomorrow n submit by 14th. that'll settle my ED. but now im not sure if i really wanna go there. well if u do, its gd, but other colleges as equally as gd n at a cheaper price. hmm hmm.
while ive been havin exams, my bro's been downloadin that 70's show for me. now ive got season 1 2 3 all complete. almost halfway through season 4 now. i could hav the entire series by this weekend. n then, burn mania. gonna do tt for friends after A's. n roswell too. ooh, this is cool.
when i reached home today, immediately went to my desk n threw maths n gp stuff on the ground. my mom was like, walid wat r u doin. heh, to hell wit those two for now. stacked up everythin later n it piled up to half a meter already. n theres still much more for chem n phy. 3/8 of my desk space is cleared for now. cant wait till next wk when i can get rid of the god darned chem. i'll still b doin maths n phy in uni, but i really dont want anythin got to do wit chem for the next few yrs.
Kuan Sian was damn funny today. after maths, we were juz talkin lot of shit as usual n he juz noted somethin;
"y is it tt whenever tt guy walks, two girls follow him?"
his friend: 'one of the girl is his gf n the other one is the gf's best friend."
Kuan Sian: "... (after few moments of silence), erm, does tt mean buy 1 get 1 free?"
everyone: "HAHAHAHAHA!!!"
hahahahahahaha..... BURN!!!! (Kelso That 70's Show style)
man Kuan Sian never fail to amuse n crack me up.
k gonna continue watchin amelie.
Tuesday, November 11, 2003
Monday, November 10, 2003
Saturday, November 08, 2003
Friday, November 07, 2003
I feel very calm and content.
Why?
Most probably coz I met her yesterday. I thought not seeing her for two weeks while she was on exchange programme was bad. Didnt turn out to be so bad. So it was interesting to listen to her stories of her time that she really seemed to enjoy. Somehow I kinda saw a different side of her, maybe it was a side she never showed me before, I was both surprised and delighted. Somehow it made her look more beautiful and adorable than she is usually.
Am I crazy to be thinking like that?
Nah, I guess not. I guess its the kind of reaction you get when you miss a person dearly. I've missed her a lot in the two weeks. Now gotta handle not seeing her for two months while she's away in Indonesia. I guess I can do that.
She's indirectly giving me a reason for me to work and succeed. I'm not talking about the A Levels. But about general things to come in the future. I'm not really bothered whether I'll succeed or not in the A Levels. Even if I screw that, I'll still go to a university and make my way from there.
But I guess its good that I'm heading into the A Levels with a calm and relaxed head.
And I have her to thank for that.
Enjoy your holiday and take care of yourself okay? I'll see you in January if I'm still in Singapore.
Why?
Most probably coz I met her yesterday. I thought not seeing her for two weeks while she was on exchange programme was bad. Didnt turn out to be so bad. So it was interesting to listen to her stories of her time that she really seemed to enjoy. Somehow I kinda saw a different side of her, maybe it was a side she never showed me before, I was both surprised and delighted. Somehow it made her look more beautiful and adorable than she is usually.
Am I crazy to be thinking like that?
Nah, I guess not. I guess its the kind of reaction you get when you miss a person dearly. I've missed her a lot in the two weeks. Now gotta handle not seeing her for two months while she's away in Indonesia. I guess I can do that.
She's indirectly giving me a reason for me to work and succeed. I'm not talking about the A Levels. But about general things to come in the future. I'm not really bothered whether I'll succeed or not in the A Levels. Even if I screw that, I'll still go to a university and make my way from there.
But I guess its good that I'm heading into the A Levels with a calm and relaxed head.
And I have her to thank for that.
Enjoy your holiday and take care of yourself okay? I'll see you in January if I'm still in Singapore.
Thursday, November 06, 2003
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
Looking up university data, information and planning the application is more fun than studyin for A's! n its taking my mind away!
Purdue, Georgia Tech, Chapel-Hill, etc....
ARGH! someone help...! i really need to do organic chem!
they say our prelims are two grades harder. since i got COO, does that mean if i'm at least of the same condition as i was in the prelims, i would get ADD? since i've been doin a lot of maths, maybe that could b ACD. a little bit more of chem n i might get ACC. eh, i'll b real happy wit that right now u know...
listenin to a lot of lounge music now. i happened to watch MTV ChillOut Lounge last nite n it was so gd. lots of my kind of music. Morcheeba, Massive Attack, DJ Shadow, DJ Krush, etc. I'm really into it now.
Purdue, Georgia Tech, Chapel-Hill, etc....
ARGH! someone help...! i really need to do organic chem!
they say our prelims are two grades harder. since i got COO, does that mean if i'm at least of the same condition as i was in the prelims, i would get ADD? since i've been doin a lot of maths, maybe that could b ACD. a little bit more of chem n i might get ACC. eh, i'll b real happy wit that right now u know...
listenin to a lot of lounge music now. i happened to watch MTV ChillOut Lounge last nite n it was so gd. lots of my kind of music. Morcheeba, Massive Attack, DJ Shadow, DJ Krush, etc. I'm really into it now.
U.S. News Best Graduate School Ranking 2003 Quick Facts
"Average MBA Grad earns US$45k before MBA. After MBA, they earn US$75k."
What the fuck...!
I was juz surfin around the rankin n data place coz i'm keepin my options open for MBA after undergrad n guess wat i stumbled upon. Those who gets MBA from Harvard, Stanford n UPenn (top 3 business schools) earn about US$108k. I'm like SHIT! u noe how much tt is? S$15k/mth!!! How easy life's gonna be like that?
Damn!
but to think again, if you get a masters from those three schools, i guess that pay is like well deserved. i mean, you're practically best of the best.
ok i better work my ass off when i do my undergrad. better make sure i get to a gd business school at least.
damn...
"Average MBA Grad earns US$45k before MBA. After MBA, they earn US$75k."
What the fuck...!
I was juz surfin around the rankin n data place coz i'm keepin my options open for MBA after undergrad n guess wat i stumbled upon. Those who gets MBA from Harvard, Stanford n UPenn (top 3 business schools) earn about US$108k. I'm like SHIT! u noe how much tt is? S$15k/mth!!! How easy life's gonna be like that?
Damn!
but to think again, if you get a masters from those three schools, i guess that pay is like well deserved. i mean, you're practically best of the best.
ok i better work my ass off when i do my undergrad. better make sure i get to a gd business school at least.
damn...
juz got off talkin to my uncle who lives in illinois. it was regardin my university admissions essay. he said we'll talk more tomorrow, but the highlight of the conversation was that my permanent residence status does come into very gd use.
colleges has two kind of tuition fees, one for in-state students, that refers to those students who are studyin in the same state that they lived prior to going to college, and out-of-state, for those who used to live in different state prior to college. now, the thing is, some states allow residents to be considered in-state residents after 6 mths, 12 mths, 18 mths, etc. it depends from state to state, but if thats the case, then i might be payin lets say US$15k for UT-Austin, and maybe after a yr, i'll only hav to pay US$8k! tt's like half the fee for a gd college! man, i'm lovin this.
now i gotta check out renssaeler, duke and couple of others for background info.
this sucks. on top of my A's revision (i juz started organic chem, imagine!) i gotta handle Carnegie Mellon application that's due in a week's time. i've got one that i can choose topic, another to explain y i chose a particular program and elaborate. i can sound v optimistic n bright, but i dun hav time to go in-depth. argh. n i gotta do the california ones that's due by Dec 1.
y, y, y...
o while i am studyin, i've been downloadin that 70's show episodes. i love Fez's accent n his jokes. i watch the episodes when i'm takin a break, etc. now i've got the whole season 1 n 2. goin on to 3. damn, i can hav the complete set by start of A's i think.
colleges has two kind of tuition fees, one for in-state students, that refers to those students who are studyin in the same state that they lived prior to going to college, and out-of-state, for those who used to live in different state prior to college. now, the thing is, some states allow residents to be considered in-state residents after 6 mths, 12 mths, 18 mths, etc. it depends from state to state, but if thats the case, then i might be payin lets say US$15k for UT-Austin, and maybe after a yr, i'll only hav to pay US$8k! tt's like half the fee for a gd college! man, i'm lovin this.
now i gotta check out renssaeler, duke and couple of others for background info.
this sucks. on top of my A's revision (i juz started organic chem, imagine!) i gotta handle Carnegie Mellon application that's due in a week's time. i've got one that i can choose topic, another to explain y i chose a particular program and elaborate. i can sound v optimistic n bright, but i dun hav time to go in-depth. argh. n i gotta do the california ones that's due by Dec 1.
y, y, y...
o while i am studyin, i've been downloadin that 70's show episodes. i love Fez's accent n his jokes. i watch the episodes when i'm takin a break, etc. now i've got the whole season 1 n 2. goin on to 3. damn, i can hav the complete set by start of A's i think.
Sunday, November 02, 2003
hmmm, had gd day thinkin n sortin things out for the years to come. now tt i'm done wit SAT II, which kinda sucked, i feel. Writing, well, i'm not confident of scorin tt, maths was simpler than the ones i was practisin with, physics was too much of general detail n knowledge. but i guess it'll b ok. not too bad. besides, SAT II will only make a diff in top unis. Its more or less a supplement info than a requirement, i guess.
well, talkin bt unis, i think i've prepared myself mentally. since my SAT score isnt too gd, tt strikes off the top few unis. i'm almost certain i wont get into cornell, upenn n carnegie mellon now. i'm almost out of the race for berkeley, USC n michigan. tt leaves out the odd few public unis. Texas, Illinois n Massachusetts. but i guess i should b happy to know that tuition fees in these schools are about half of wat is required in top unis. most of these public would require US$ 20k or at max 23k per yr. top unis would require like 40k to 45k per yr. tt's a lot of money. n wats gd? some public unis like texas, illinois n michigan's engineerin program is better than those at top unis. so i got everythin to gain. at the most, i'll transfer to ivy leagues after 2 yrs. supposedly the name of ur bachelors does make a difference when we apply to work. tts an advice from my uncle. so get gd background knowledge in low profiled but gd programmed unis, then finish the cut wit Ivy. If I'm transferin, then the only unis i consider r MIT, cornell, stanford, Cal Tech n princeton. only those unis have better, if not equal grade for their programs.
Another factor might b weather. since i've been livin in singapore for so long, i think i wont b able to take the winter. so tt definately strikes out new england area, chicago, michigan, indiana n wisconsin. unless i'm willin to bear through the weather tt is. so tts gd for me. tt leaves me with either goin to California or Texas. my dad tells me texas weather is more or less like Singapore, if not hotter. tt's gd news. Tt means i can look very hopefully n prospectively at San Diego, Los Angeles n Texas. N I feel like I wanna go there. Ooh, its gonna b so exciting. I cant hardly wait.
and theres the plan n goal of doin well enough to enroll into graduate sch to do MBA. If MBA, then we better be talkin bt Chicago or UPenn. those two r juz it. they're the best in the field.
yea so when i say the future looks gd for me, u better believe me. n these schs dont require academic perfection or supremacy. tts wat i juz love.
yep, but i got all the time in the world to dream n wonder. right now, better focus on wats ahead of me. n tts the A's. ive got a wk to sort everythin out n make sure i do alrite. its juz 4 more wks to freedom n play time. i'm so gonna do it. its make it or break it. either way, i'm gonna go on.
these thoughts make me believe that i can do it.
well, talkin bt unis, i think i've prepared myself mentally. since my SAT score isnt too gd, tt strikes off the top few unis. i'm almost certain i wont get into cornell, upenn n carnegie mellon now. i'm almost out of the race for berkeley, USC n michigan. tt leaves out the odd few public unis. Texas, Illinois n Massachusetts. but i guess i should b happy to know that tuition fees in these schools are about half of wat is required in top unis. most of these public would require US$ 20k or at max 23k per yr. top unis would require like 40k to 45k per yr. tt's a lot of money. n wats gd? some public unis like texas, illinois n michigan's engineerin program is better than those at top unis. so i got everythin to gain. at the most, i'll transfer to ivy leagues after 2 yrs. supposedly the name of ur bachelors does make a difference when we apply to work. tts an advice from my uncle. so get gd background knowledge in low profiled but gd programmed unis, then finish the cut wit Ivy. If I'm transferin, then the only unis i consider r MIT, cornell, stanford, Cal Tech n princeton. only those unis have better, if not equal grade for their programs.
Another factor might b weather. since i've been livin in singapore for so long, i think i wont b able to take the winter. so tt definately strikes out new england area, chicago, michigan, indiana n wisconsin. unless i'm willin to bear through the weather tt is. so tts gd for me. tt leaves me with either goin to California or Texas. my dad tells me texas weather is more or less like Singapore, if not hotter. tt's gd news. Tt means i can look very hopefully n prospectively at San Diego, Los Angeles n Texas. N I feel like I wanna go there. Ooh, its gonna b so exciting. I cant hardly wait.
and theres the plan n goal of doin well enough to enroll into graduate sch to do MBA. If MBA, then we better be talkin bt Chicago or UPenn. those two r juz it. they're the best in the field.
yea so when i say the future looks gd for me, u better believe me. n these schs dont require academic perfection or supremacy. tts wat i juz love.
yep, but i got all the time in the world to dream n wonder. right now, better focus on wats ahead of me. n tts the A's. ive got a wk to sort everythin out n make sure i do alrite. its juz 4 more wks to freedom n play time. i'm so gonna do it. its make it or break it. either way, i'm gonna go on.
these thoughts make me believe that i can do it.
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