'these are the days' by jamie cullum and 'baptized' by lenny kravitz (awesome, awesome song!) keeps running in my head.
its 4:26am on a saturday morning. i was watching the movie 'office space', something that has been mentioned quite a lot by my peers, so i thought i check it out. wasnt so bad, though i wouldnt say it was good in my eyes.
had another night of good jazz music, this time by former tech students who dub themselves as 'Style Points.' they were pretty good, but can't top jamie. im still reeling from last night's performance.
alright, better get to sleep. wonder what i'll be doing tomorrow...
Saturday, October 30, 2004
Friday, October 29, 2004
'High-tech football'
For the 'Battle of the Techs' football game between Virginia Tech and Georgia Tech, ESPN ran a story about us in a way that makes us look real nerdy, but I couldn't agree more with what he had to say here. It's an interesting read, you'll understand how my university is like.
Here it is. 'Football as Rocket Science'
Here it is. 'Football as Rocket Science'
the jamie cullum gig... continued
i am still reeling from last night.
they say nothing will be as good as your first concert. for pamela, leisha and me, it was our first concert and it cant possibly get any better than the one we witnessed last night.
and for all that for US$20? to think that people will pay US$50 for the avril lavigne concert at the other end of atlanta, i thought this was definately value for money for real music.
the earlier part of the day was pretty draggy. i had my calc test, which should go fine, and then i had a run of classes til 12, and then another run from 1:30 til 4.
and then i was settling some stuff out when i got a surprise call from leisha and pamela that they were heading to tech. since tech and emory has a joint biomedical engineering program, theres a shuttle running from tech to emory daily, so they got on that.
they came at the right time to see tech at its best atmosphere as people were gearing themselves ready for the battle of the techs, a football game between virginia tech and ourselves - a game i had to miss due to the concert - but a game where we lost it all in the last quarter.
so i showed them around tech for a while and then had to leave for buckhead. to a place i wasnt quite sure where it was, so we had to leave a little early on. the online map said it was only about a mile from the lenox mall, which turned out to be quite inaccurate, we spent a good 30-40 minutes walking there, but i guess that was because we never went to the coca-cola roxy theatre before.
so there was a big sigh of relief when we finally found the place. there was a scare that we might not be able to get the tickets, but that was taken care of. i got myself a copy of his album with a signature for 10 bucks. the US release of 'twentysomething' is different from the one that my dad bought in singapore, plus it included his rendition of pharrell william's 'frontin'' (which he performed superbly later on in the concert) so i thought it was nice.
the theatre had this really old feel to it which made the concept of attending a jazz (well, supposedly) concert much better.
the introducing artist was this ukelele performer from hawaii named jake shimabukuro. he was just awesome strumming his ukelele, he was strumming so fast and with so much passion, you could feel the song. he's really talented with the acoustics of the ukelele, which made a great opening for what was to follow.
so we waited around 15 mins to a great cheering and applause as jamie cullum came on to play 'these are the days' which we went crazy to. and then he played my favourite at the moment, 'twentysomething' when he actually came down to the audience area and started walking around. since i was sitting on the centre aisle, he actually walked right infront of me and it was just awesome to see that while he was performing a song that ive been listening to for the past few days.
i cant recall the exact order of the songs he played, but every one of his performances were great. i truly enjoyed myself throughly and some of the things he did on the stage was just funny as hell.
during one of his songs, he was really getting into the song, he started playing the piano with all his might, then he started slamming his hands, then he took his stool and tried to play the piano with it, then he put that down and started sitting and jumping on it, we were all laughing so hard.
and at the end of one of his other songs ( i think it was what a difference a day made) where it got quite quiet, he started muttering the chorus section of christina aguilera's 'beautiful' in such a mock of the way the song goes, that really cracked everyone up.
there were tons more things that he did, which were all awesome. he would talk in between couple of songs and he was actually pretty funny. in another one of his songs, he came down to the audience area again and this time, i extended my hands out while he was walking and i actually got to shake his hand, which was pretty awesome.
alright, i gotta run to history, but whatever it is, it was clearly one of the best nights ive had in a long time. and to come at the end of a really rough week, it was very welcomed.
they say nothing will be as good as your first concert. for pamela, leisha and me, it was our first concert and it cant possibly get any better than the one we witnessed last night.
and for all that for US$20? to think that people will pay US$50 for the avril lavigne concert at the other end of atlanta, i thought this was definately value for money for real music.
the earlier part of the day was pretty draggy. i had my calc test, which should go fine, and then i had a run of classes til 12, and then another run from 1:30 til 4.
and then i was settling some stuff out when i got a surprise call from leisha and pamela that they were heading to tech. since tech and emory has a joint biomedical engineering program, theres a shuttle running from tech to emory daily, so they got on that.
they came at the right time to see tech at its best atmosphere as people were gearing themselves ready for the battle of the techs, a football game between virginia tech and ourselves - a game i had to miss due to the concert - but a game where we lost it all in the last quarter.
so i showed them around tech for a while and then had to leave for buckhead. to a place i wasnt quite sure where it was, so we had to leave a little early on. the online map said it was only about a mile from the lenox mall, which turned out to be quite inaccurate, we spent a good 30-40 minutes walking there, but i guess that was because we never went to the coca-cola roxy theatre before.
so there was a big sigh of relief when we finally found the place. there was a scare that we might not be able to get the tickets, but that was taken care of. i got myself a copy of his album with a signature for 10 bucks. the US release of 'twentysomething' is different from the one that my dad bought in singapore, plus it included his rendition of pharrell william's 'frontin'' (which he performed superbly later on in the concert) so i thought it was nice.
the theatre had this really old feel to it which made the concept of attending a jazz (well, supposedly) concert much better.
the introducing artist was this ukelele performer from hawaii named jake shimabukuro. he was just awesome strumming his ukelele, he was strumming so fast and with so much passion, you could feel the song. he's really talented with the acoustics of the ukelele, which made a great opening for what was to follow.
so we waited around 15 mins to a great cheering and applause as jamie cullum came on to play 'these are the days' which we went crazy to. and then he played my favourite at the moment, 'twentysomething' when he actually came down to the audience area and started walking around. since i was sitting on the centre aisle, he actually walked right infront of me and it was just awesome to see that while he was performing a song that ive been listening to for the past few days.
i cant recall the exact order of the songs he played, but every one of his performances were great. i truly enjoyed myself throughly and some of the things he did on the stage was just funny as hell.
during one of his songs, he was really getting into the song, he started playing the piano with all his might, then he started slamming his hands, then he took his stool and tried to play the piano with it, then he put that down and started sitting and jumping on it, we were all laughing so hard.
and at the end of one of his other songs ( i think it was what a difference a day made) where it got quite quiet, he started muttering the chorus section of christina aguilera's 'beautiful' in such a mock of the way the song goes, that really cracked everyone up.
there were tons more things that he did, which were all awesome. he would talk in between couple of songs and he was actually pretty funny. in another one of his songs, he came down to the audience area again and this time, i extended my hands out while he was walking and i actually got to shake his hand, which was pretty awesome.
alright, i gotta run to history, but whatever it is, it was clearly one of the best nights ive had in a long time. and to come at the end of a really rough week, it was very welcomed.
the jamie cullum gig
well, its quite late and im tired, but the jamie cullum concert was just excellent. i had so much fun and he is such a talented musician.
if his performances werent good enough, i actually got to shake his hand during one of his performances where he started walking around the audiences area.
so my dad was so made. its frankly the best thing that has happened in a long time.
more about the concert tomorrow.
if his performances werent good enough, i actually got to shake his hand during one of his performances where he started walking around the audiences area.
so my dad was so made. its frankly the best thing that has happened in a long time.
more about the concert tomorrow.
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
request for help
im doing a paper for english on how the media is or has become unreliable concerning the elections, be it because they're too concerned with things they shouldn't be, or focused too much on statistics and whatnot.
if you guys have any blogs or articles you know that is of credible source, please leave a link in the comments. i have until next week to complete this paper.
the reason why im asking here is because this paper technically points finger at the media, so its very difficult getting resources from network pages or the news web, since they're essentially part of the media. there are some interesting articles ive found, but its biased, so its not that helpful in the end.
if anyone can help me find more articles, then your efforts will be appreciated.
if you guys have any blogs or articles you know that is of credible source, please leave a link in the comments. i have until next week to complete this paper.
the reason why im asking here is because this paper technically points finger at the media, so its very difficult getting resources from network pages or the news web, since they're essentially part of the media. there are some interesting articles ive found, but its biased, so its not that helpful in the end.
if anyone can help me find more articles, then your efforts will be appreciated.
Monday, October 25, 2004
rough week
this week, i have...
3 tests, 2 papers, 3 meetings, 1 event to carry out, a concert, tons of assignments to complete....
that's what im looking at. let's go..
the only good thing this week is that im attending the jamie cullum concert and that the daylight saving time ends on halloween.
3 tests, 2 papers, 3 meetings, 1 event to carry out, a concert, tons of assignments to complete....
that's what im looking at. let's go..
the only good thing this week is that im attending the jamie cullum concert and that the daylight saving time ends on halloween.
Sunday, October 24, 2004
day out in emory
i finally met up with leisha, who's studying in emory, after like 2 months of living in the same city.
i woke up early for team buzz, an annual campuswide community service which i talked about in an earlier post.
what i didnt mention, i got freaked out when i came back to my room. why? coz when i woke up this morning, i saw a red stain in the community toilet door. it didnt exactly seem like blood, more like pasta paste or a really bad case of vomiting, except that there werent any stench throughout the hallway. i was talking to tyler, joe and kyle this morning what the hell that was.
and then i come back to the room after team buzz and find the same kind of stain, but like a finger print, on the message board on my room door. at this moment, im thinking, what the heck. and then i open the door. and the first thing that i see is james' blankets and pillow on the floor. then i see the pillow.
the pillow had several stains of blood splattered over it.
i didnt know that it was james who was bleeding. i was awake when he came back from chi psi party drunk, but still sane and conscious of what he was doing. so i thought it couldnt be. just to make sure that he wasnt unconscious, i woke him up, he didnt respond for first couple times, but eventually he woke up so i was relieved. he doesnt seem to remember what happened at all. he tells me that daniel was there this morning when he went to the toilet. i go over to dan's room and find out he collapsed in the toilet cubicle. it scares the shit out of me coz i dont know the severity of his damage and the cause. james wakes up later and i see the scar on his head. he tells me it hurts a lot, and the gash looks real bad. i tell him to go check it up wit a doc, but he is fine for now, or thats what he says. he walks fine, knows what he's doing, but only problem is that he doesnt know how he got it. could have happened during the party, on the way back to our room, or maybe during that fall in the toilet.
what a scare in the morning.
anyway, i found out that number of my friends knew a person who was studying in emory, who is leisha, and we've been talking about meeting and all, but it never materialized til today. and another surprise? marc, as in marc irawan, has a cousin, pamela, in emory too, and she also knows leisha. so i got to meet two people yesterday.
we walked around for a while, talking partly about tech and emory, and then it was cool that another guy who was there, yong, intended to go to the jamie cullum concert too. so now i have at least a couple of people going for the concert, apart from gautam and gopi who expressed an interest, but yet to confirm, along wit some other people from the hall council.
we deliberated whether to watch 'the forgotten' or 'the grudge' which is the american version of 'ju-on', much like 'the ring.' ive seen the trailer of 'the forgotten' and thought it had a good storyline, but both movies had received a lukewarm review on CNN so i wasnt too keen on either. i would have watched garden state for the second time just for natalie portman. and i later found out this girl staying next to pamela in emory, has a sister who's the best friend of natalie portman as they practically grew up together. how coincidental is that. i am that close to potentially meeting natalie portman! (if, at all)
anyway, so we decided to watch 'the grudge' starring sarah michelle geller, and jason behr from roswell. i was ambivalent to either movies, so it didnt matter much. but i thought the movie was horrible. whenever someone remakes a movie, they always lose the touch of the original one. but i didnt complete watching the japanese ju-on, so i cant really comment on that. but i bet the japanese one was more freaky.
but yea, overall, horrible, dont waste your money on this. everything is so predictable, you know when theres a scary part, coz you can see the ghost or whatever that thing was for like a second or two before they kick in with that horrible sound, or you know whats going to happen for most of the time. and the ending was just awful.
so as i lamented having wasted money and time on this movie, the people at the theatre started giving away readmission tickets to all of us in that theatre. i thought they were compensating for us watching an horrible movie, but as i realized, they did not align the movie properly when screening, the top section of the movie was somewhat above the projected screen, causing us to not be able to see the entire screen.
but i guess that was good enough compensation for me. im gonna use that to watch some other good movie maybe a month down the road, or use it to watch 'the forgotten.'
well, i decided to go by to emory, coz i never did that before. i heard it was an awesome campus, and even though i only got to see a section of emory, it was pretty impressive enough. their dorm was very new, compared to mine being old, and almost everything about emory was modern, new and nice. but again, thats coming from a first time visit. i felt like that about tech when i came here, about their old looking buildings and whatnot. but i liked the quietness of their campus and how they were spread out. emory might be located in atlanta, but unlike tech, which is in the smack of the city, emory's located a little off city limits. so it was a nice change of scenary for the day.
we talked about nonsensical stuff, but it was very much welcomed, since i havent had that kind of talk with people who understood what they meant. i could relate to things in singapore with leisha and pamela would understand too, and i found out other things about marc from his very own cousin, which was interesting too.
if i had told my friends in tech that i was actually in emory, they'd kill me. which kind of was true when my friends called to ask where i was and when i was coming back, i'd tell them im at emory and the first thing they would say is, why didnt you tell me you'd be at emory? the sex ratio at tech's pretty bad, as i mentioned very long ago, and the guys at tech will jump at the opportunity to go to UGA or emory, coz there are more girls.
and i kinda understand why now. the girls that i met in emory and saw around campus, well, were commendable. and the ones i got to know through leisha and pamela, though i cant exactly remember their names, were very nice bunch of people too.
oh and i got to measure my weight for the first time since coming here. i was so afraid i had gained like 10 lbs, but as i found out, i actually lost weight. i lost weight in my freshman semester. how weird is that? all these talk go on about the effects of the 'freshman-15' but i actually lost like 5 lbs. with all my coins, ipod, shoes and wallet, i weighed 139.5 lbs. so i assume that my weight is 139 lbs. i was elated, coz i had feared for the worst, but i guess my lost apetite in brittain caused me some good.
well whatever is it, i had a really good time in emory and if time permits, i'd love to be there more often. its a change of surrouding for once and its like an extended network of friends over that provides a different sort of unwinding and relaxing from the rigours of the weekday.
also, red sox wins the first game of the world series. i still believe! take that josh!
i woke up early for team buzz, an annual campuswide community service which i talked about in an earlier post.
what i didnt mention, i got freaked out when i came back to my room. why? coz when i woke up this morning, i saw a red stain in the community toilet door. it didnt exactly seem like blood, more like pasta paste or a really bad case of vomiting, except that there werent any stench throughout the hallway. i was talking to tyler, joe and kyle this morning what the hell that was.
and then i come back to the room after team buzz and find the same kind of stain, but like a finger print, on the message board on my room door. at this moment, im thinking, what the heck. and then i open the door. and the first thing that i see is james' blankets and pillow on the floor. then i see the pillow.
the pillow had several stains of blood splattered over it.
i didnt know that it was james who was bleeding. i was awake when he came back from chi psi party drunk, but still sane and conscious of what he was doing. so i thought it couldnt be. just to make sure that he wasnt unconscious, i woke him up, he didnt respond for first couple times, but eventually he woke up so i was relieved. he doesnt seem to remember what happened at all. he tells me that daniel was there this morning when he went to the toilet. i go over to dan's room and find out he collapsed in the toilet cubicle. it scares the shit out of me coz i dont know the severity of his damage and the cause. james wakes up later and i see the scar on his head. he tells me it hurts a lot, and the gash looks real bad. i tell him to go check it up wit a doc, but he is fine for now, or thats what he says. he walks fine, knows what he's doing, but only problem is that he doesnt know how he got it. could have happened during the party, on the way back to our room, or maybe during that fall in the toilet.
what a scare in the morning.
anyway, i found out that number of my friends knew a person who was studying in emory, who is leisha, and we've been talking about meeting and all, but it never materialized til today. and another surprise? marc, as in marc irawan, has a cousin, pamela, in emory too, and she also knows leisha. so i got to meet two people yesterday.
we walked around for a while, talking partly about tech and emory, and then it was cool that another guy who was there, yong, intended to go to the jamie cullum concert too. so now i have at least a couple of people going for the concert, apart from gautam and gopi who expressed an interest, but yet to confirm, along wit some other people from the hall council.
we deliberated whether to watch 'the forgotten' or 'the grudge' which is the american version of 'ju-on', much like 'the ring.' ive seen the trailer of 'the forgotten' and thought it had a good storyline, but both movies had received a lukewarm review on CNN so i wasnt too keen on either. i would have watched garden state for the second time just for natalie portman. and i later found out this girl staying next to pamela in emory, has a sister who's the best friend of natalie portman as they practically grew up together. how coincidental is that. i am that close to potentially meeting natalie portman! (if, at all)
anyway, so we decided to watch 'the grudge' starring sarah michelle geller, and jason behr from roswell. i was ambivalent to either movies, so it didnt matter much. but i thought the movie was horrible. whenever someone remakes a movie, they always lose the touch of the original one. but i didnt complete watching the japanese ju-on, so i cant really comment on that. but i bet the japanese one was more freaky.
but yea, overall, horrible, dont waste your money on this. everything is so predictable, you know when theres a scary part, coz you can see the ghost or whatever that thing was for like a second or two before they kick in with that horrible sound, or you know whats going to happen for most of the time. and the ending was just awful.
so as i lamented having wasted money and time on this movie, the people at the theatre started giving away readmission tickets to all of us in that theatre. i thought they were compensating for us watching an horrible movie, but as i realized, they did not align the movie properly when screening, the top section of the movie was somewhat above the projected screen, causing us to not be able to see the entire screen.
but i guess that was good enough compensation for me. im gonna use that to watch some other good movie maybe a month down the road, or use it to watch 'the forgotten.'
well, i decided to go by to emory, coz i never did that before. i heard it was an awesome campus, and even though i only got to see a section of emory, it was pretty impressive enough. their dorm was very new, compared to mine being old, and almost everything about emory was modern, new and nice. but again, thats coming from a first time visit. i felt like that about tech when i came here, about their old looking buildings and whatnot. but i liked the quietness of their campus and how they were spread out. emory might be located in atlanta, but unlike tech, which is in the smack of the city, emory's located a little off city limits. so it was a nice change of scenary for the day.
we talked about nonsensical stuff, but it was very much welcomed, since i havent had that kind of talk with people who understood what they meant. i could relate to things in singapore with leisha and pamela would understand too, and i found out other things about marc from his very own cousin, which was interesting too.
if i had told my friends in tech that i was actually in emory, they'd kill me. which kind of was true when my friends called to ask where i was and when i was coming back, i'd tell them im at emory and the first thing they would say is, why didnt you tell me you'd be at emory? the sex ratio at tech's pretty bad, as i mentioned very long ago, and the guys at tech will jump at the opportunity to go to UGA or emory, coz there are more girls.
and i kinda understand why now. the girls that i met in emory and saw around campus, well, were commendable. and the ones i got to know through leisha and pamela, though i cant exactly remember their names, were very nice bunch of people too.
oh and i got to measure my weight for the first time since coming here. i was so afraid i had gained like 10 lbs, but as i found out, i actually lost weight. i lost weight in my freshman semester. how weird is that? all these talk go on about the effects of the 'freshman-15' but i actually lost like 5 lbs. with all my coins, ipod, shoes and wallet, i weighed 139.5 lbs. so i assume that my weight is 139 lbs. i was elated, coz i had feared for the worst, but i guess my lost apetite in brittain caused me some good.
well whatever is it, i had a really good time in emory and if time permits, i'd love to be there more often. its a change of surrouding for once and its like an extended network of friends over that provides a different sort of unwinding and relaxing from the rigours of the weekday.
also, red sox wins the first game of the world series. i still believe! take that josh!
Saturday, October 23, 2004
a dedicated nick for me
"i feel such a connection.. even tho ur so far away.. juz think of me as the pages in ur diary... only we know what we talk about baby boy"
thanks a lot... means a lot to me in times like these...
thanks a lot... means a lot to me in times like these...
pepsi!
oh man, i finally had my first pepsi in like... 2 months!
its a big deal here, and if you dont know why, its because the coca cola headquarters is located right here in atlanta. well, to be precise, its right next to georgia tech. and when i mean right next to, it literally is right next to us. you walk anywhere in the campus, you'll see the lone coca cola building standing above the tech buildings surrounding you.
so you can imagine, the influence of coke is so strong, pepsi is like a banned substance here.
i had team buzz today, which is like a campuswide community service event. i initially signed up to referee soccer matches for elementary school kids, only to find out later that its actually flag football (american football, but like touch rugby) for middle/high school students.
but it went fine, it wasnt that hard, i was handling the downs indicator, and it turned out to be pretty fun. almost everyone there was african americans and they were so funny talking about certain plays and all, it was just hilarious to be there. it has gotta be the most fun community service ive ever been involved in.
yea, so at the end, we came back to the campus, coz they provided food (well, pizzas. and tons of it) and i was looking for drinks, and guess what i found.
yes, pepsi and diet pepsi.
my first reaction was whether i was gonna get arrested for taking that. or be beaten up. but apparantly not. i sat down with some of the delta sig guys and the first thign they said was, wat the hell's that pepsi doin here?
i had too much coke, i couldnt taste the difference. thats how much coke has corrupted my desire for pepsi. maybe its still diet pepsi that's why. i took a can of pepsi along while having a diet pepsi in one hand and left the place.
im just gonna sip it slowly and enjoy it while i can. i dont know the next time im having a pepsi. hell, even the taco bell and kfc which usually provides pepsi aint serving pepsi here in atlanta.
its a big deal here, and if you dont know why, its because the coca cola headquarters is located right here in atlanta. well, to be precise, its right next to georgia tech. and when i mean right next to, it literally is right next to us. you walk anywhere in the campus, you'll see the lone coca cola building standing above the tech buildings surrounding you.
so you can imagine, the influence of coke is so strong, pepsi is like a banned substance here.
i had team buzz today, which is like a campuswide community service event. i initially signed up to referee soccer matches for elementary school kids, only to find out later that its actually flag football (american football, but like touch rugby) for middle/high school students.
but it went fine, it wasnt that hard, i was handling the downs indicator, and it turned out to be pretty fun. almost everyone there was african americans and they were so funny talking about certain plays and all, it was just hilarious to be there. it has gotta be the most fun community service ive ever been involved in.
yea, so at the end, we came back to the campus, coz they provided food (well, pizzas. and tons of it) and i was looking for drinks, and guess what i found.
yes, pepsi and diet pepsi.
my first reaction was whether i was gonna get arrested for taking that. or be beaten up. but apparantly not. i sat down with some of the delta sig guys and the first thign they said was, wat the hell's that pepsi doin here?
i had too much coke, i couldnt taste the difference. thats how much coke has corrupted my desire for pepsi. maybe its still diet pepsi that's why. i took a can of pepsi along while having a diet pepsi in one hand and left the place.
im just gonna sip it slowly and enjoy it while i can. i dont know the next time im having a pepsi. hell, even the taco bell and kfc which usually provides pepsi aint serving pepsi here in atlanta.
Friday, October 22, 2004
santa monica
On the telephone line, I am any height
I am any age I want to be
I could be a caped crusader, or space invader
And you wouldn't know the difference
Or would you?
I am any age I want to be
I could be a caped crusader, or space invader
And you wouldn't know the difference
Or would you?
my history professor
i just had my history class, the last class of the week, and he's arguably the most funniest lecturer i have this semester.
to end off the lecture, he mentioned the news of fidel castro tripping. he told us that he saw that on the TV and the TV said that 'castro falls' and as a history professor, or anyone else for that matter, he thought it was the surprise end of the cuban revolution, only for him to see the footage of castro tripping after his speech in slow motion. and then he concluded by saying, that the news in this country ought to phrase things right, just a difference in word can make a lot of difference.
indeed.
to end off the lecture, he mentioned the news of fidel castro tripping. he told us that he saw that on the TV and the TV said that 'castro falls' and as a history professor, or anyone else for that matter, he thought it was the surprise end of the cuban revolution, only for him to see the footage of castro tripping after his speech in slow motion. and then he concluded by saying, that the news in this country ought to phrase things right, just a difference in word can make a lot of difference.
indeed.
Thursday, October 21, 2004
song at the moment
"Cos all of the stars
Have faded away,
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them some day,
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out"
- 'Stop Crying Your Heart Out' by Oasis
Have faded away,
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them some day,
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out"
- 'Stop Crying Your Heart Out' by Oasis
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
those sweet words
marc sent me couple of norah jones' songs, and im in love with this particular track called 'those sweet words.' its such a pleasant song at the right time.
okay, so i stepped up on the changes that i decided over the week.
and i de-pledged from Delta Sigma Phi. its regrettable, but i personally thought that i needed to do this, in order to have time for myself to rediscover myself all over again. ive been involved in something since grade 6, ive put something else infront of me all throughout this time, i totally forgot to just get to know myself. im gonna take the rest of the year to see how that goes and see if i'll wanna pledge again next year, when im more clear about what i really want.
another thing, im no longer gonna pursue the japanese minor. there's a course in the 4000-level course that prepares students for the JLPT, which i already have. that technically means there's no point if im to get a minor, i'd just be wasting 18 hours, which is like a semester. with that, if i just take one summer semester, i can graduate in 3 years, if i take on the co-op role, i can just take it easy and graduate within 4, just normally. which is a good news. i didnt get a call from toyota this week, so i assume that ill be getting a call about the co-op position next week. its gonna be nerve-wreckin yet again.
basically, those are the first major steps im taking. other things, im gonna take it easy, one day at a time. i already feel better about all this. its a change for the better. first test of my new plan will be the double header test next monday, for history and health. let's see how that goes.
okay, so i stepped up on the changes that i decided over the week.
and i de-pledged from Delta Sigma Phi. its regrettable, but i personally thought that i needed to do this, in order to have time for myself to rediscover myself all over again. ive been involved in something since grade 6, ive put something else infront of me all throughout this time, i totally forgot to just get to know myself. im gonna take the rest of the year to see how that goes and see if i'll wanna pledge again next year, when im more clear about what i really want.
another thing, im no longer gonna pursue the japanese minor. there's a course in the 4000-level course that prepares students for the JLPT, which i already have. that technically means there's no point if im to get a minor, i'd just be wasting 18 hours, which is like a semester. with that, if i just take one summer semester, i can graduate in 3 years, if i take on the co-op role, i can just take it easy and graduate within 4, just normally. which is a good news. i didnt get a call from toyota this week, so i assume that ill be getting a call about the co-op position next week. its gonna be nerve-wreckin yet again.
basically, those are the first major steps im taking. other things, im gonna take it easy, one day at a time. i already feel better about all this. its a change for the better. first test of my new plan will be the double header test next monday, for history and health. let's see how that goes.
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
being random
im just gonna list random lines from songs that kinda express how im feelin now, coz i dont wanna blog about my thoughts.
"These are the days that I’ve been missing"
"But sometimes don’t you just crave
To disappear within your mind
You never know what you might find"
"I'm singing in the rain
Just singing in the rain
What a glorious feeling"
"There's nothing here to run from,
'Cause everybody here's got somebody to lean on"
"So I look in your direction
But you pay me no attention
And you know how much I need you
But you never even see me"
"Well I'm sorry I ain't there with you but you ain't here with me
And I'm down in all my fears
But I ain't crying no tears over you"
"I hung your picture on the wall but that's all it is
I break my fingers to make a call and that's all it is
I know you're living way out west
Don't get me wrong I'm not impressed
With you no more"
"I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all"
"Yeah I got caught in the ruse of the world
It's just a promise no one ever keeps
And now it's changing while we sleep
And no one can see"
"And I wasn't all the things
I tried to make believe I was
And I wouldn't be the one to kneel
Before the dreams I wanted
And all the talk and all the lies
Were all the empty things disguised as me
stranger than your sympathy"
... Thanks a lot. But this is the end of the road. I'm off to a fresh start, just like what I initially thought I'd do. There has been a considerable delay, but this is it. It starts now.
(Don't worry, I don't mean I'm ending this blog. This is far from the end of the blog.)
"These are the days that I’ve been missing"
"But sometimes don’t you just crave
To disappear within your mind
You never know what you might find"
"I'm singing in the rain
Just singing in the rain
What a glorious feeling"
"There's nothing here to run from,
'Cause everybody here's got somebody to lean on"
"So I look in your direction
But you pay me no attention
And you know how much I need you
But you never even see me"
"Well I'm sorry I ain't there with you but you ain't here with me
And I'm down in all my fears
But I ain't crying no tears over you"
"I hung your picture on the wall but that's all it is
I break my fingers to make a call and that's all it is
I know you're living way out west
Don't get me wrong I'm not impressed
With you no more"
"I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all"
"Yeah I got caught in the ruse of the world
It's just a promise no one ever keeps
And now it's changing while we sleep
And no one can see"
"And I wasn't all the things
I tried to make believe I was
And I wouldn't be the one to kneel
Before the dreams I wanted
And all the talk and all the lies
Were all the empty things disguised as me
stranger than your sympathy"
... Thanks a lot. But this is the end of the road. I'm off to a fresh start, just like what I initially thought I'd do. There has been a considerable delay, but this is it. It starts now.
(Don't worry, I don't mean I'm ending this blog. This is far from the end of the blog.)
awesome break
i just watched two movies that has to do a lot with the mind back to back with some of my buddies just now.
n its awesome. we saw 'pi' and 'the butterfly effect.' following 'garden state' yesterday, it follows up on artistic films that left all of us in awe. all i need to watch are 'cold mountain', 'big fish', 'monster' and 'the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind' to complete the must sees of this year.
the most interesting thing is that these guys that i saw with (gautam, phani, gopi and sandesh) all seem to share my love for the complex side of these artistic films. good thing the 4th street apartments are organizing foreign film screening next week. im probably gonna go down with them.
ive enjoyed the break so far, tomorrow will be the carbon copy of what i usually do on sunday, get back to studies and settle fraternity and hall council stuff. but that might be about to change.
im about to take the first step of accomplishing my new found goals.
n its awesome. we saw 'pi' and 'the butterfly effect.' following 'garden state' yesterday, it follows up on artistic films that left all of us in awe. all i need to watch are 'cold mountain', 'big fish', 'monster' and 'the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind' to complete the must sees of this year.
the most interesting thing is that these guys that i saw with (gautam, phani, gopi and sandesh) all seem to share my love for the complex side of these artistic films. good thing the 4th street apartments are organizing foreign film screening next week. im probably gonna go down with them.
ive enjoyed the break so far, tomorrow will be the carbon copy of what i usually do on sunday, get back to studies and settle fraternity and hall council stuff. but that might be about to change.
im about to take the first step of accomplishing my new found goals.
Monday, October 18, 2004
'Garden State'
this has got to be one of the most impressive movies out there.
after months and months of hearing that this movie was excellent among friends, i finally got to watch it with a couple of friends yesterday. til then, no one could really tell me what exactly the movie was about. which made things interesting, coz i went into the theatre not knowing what the movie was about at all; something i hardly do, since most of the time i know the basic plot of the movie. the only thing i knew was that natalie portman was in it, which more or less guarantees you a good time.
and it turned out to be excellent time. it makes all of us look everything (or at least, me) at everything in its simplest entity. i was left to think so many things after the movie and it kinda made me realize how we all complicate our lives. if we make everything simple, life will be so much more simpler. sure, the movie had a little artistic touch to it than most movies, and im not sure if i interpreted everything the way we are expected to, since im the last person to appreciate or comprehend artistic value by any means. but im happy interpreting it in my own way to apply to myself.
i love these kind of movies that make you reevaluate your position in life. there are very few movies out there that does that.
this morning i woke up with a question in my head: what am i doing with all these things that i do? for once, i could not answer that question.
i think, just like the main character, i am so consumed in the other things that i did not get a chance to explore myself. in order to do that, i need to step up and take some actions, actions that i promised myself that i will do some time ago.
and needless to say, i love natalie portman more than ive ever loved her before. she's just terrific. i say this over and over, but ever since her first film appearance in 'the professional' which is also my personal favourite movie, ive watched almost every single film she has been in.
i crave for movies like these. not sure when the next one like this will come out, but i'll keep my eyes open for any that pops up in the near future.
the irony for the day? im collecting these quarter dollar coins that have state name and designs on them, and while taking the train to the mall, i finally got the new jersey coin that has eluded me all these while. and guess what new jersey's nick name is.
that's right, garden state.
after months and months of hearing that this movie was excellent among friends, i finally got to watch it with a couple of friends yesterday. til then, no one could really tell me what exactly the movie was about. which made things interesting, coz i went into the theatre not knowing what the movie was about at all; something i hardly do, since most of the time i know the basic plot of the movie. the only thing i knew was that natalie portman was in it, which more or less guarantees you a good time.
and it turned out to be excellent time. it makes all of us look everything (or at least, me) at everything in its simplest entity. i was left to think so many things after the movie and it kinda made me realize how we all complicate our lives. if we make everything simple, life will be so much more simpler. sure, the movie had a little artistic touch to it than most movies, and im not sure if i interpreted everything the way we are expected to, since im the last person to appreciate or comprehend artistic value by any means. but im happy interpreting it in my own way to apply to myself.
i love these kind of movies that make you reevaluate your position in life. there are very few movies out there that does that.
this morning i woke up with a question in my head: what am i doing with all these things that i do? for once, i could not answer that question.
i think, just like the main character, i am so consumed in the other things that i did not get a chance to explore myself. in order to do that, i need to step up and take some actions, actions that i promised myself that i will do some time ago.
and needless to say, i love natalie portman more than ive ever loved her before. she's just terrific. i say this over and over, but ever since her first film appearance in 'the professional' which is also my personal favourite movie, ive watched almost every single film she has been in.
i crave for movies like these. not sure when the next one like this will come out, but i'll keep my eyes open for any that pops up in the near future.
the irony for the day? im collecting these quarter dollar coins that have state name and designs on them, and while taking the train to the mall, i finally got the new jersey coin that has eluded me all these while. and guess what new jersey's nick name is.
that's right, garden state.
Friday, October 15, 2004
All At Sea
All At Sea by Jamie Cullum
I’m all at sea
Where no one can bother me
Forgot my roots
If only for a day
Just me and my thoughts
Sailing far away
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to, all at sea
I’m all at sea
Where no-one can bother me
I sleep by myself
I drink on my own
I don’t speak to nobody
I gave away my phone
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to, all at sea
Now I need you more than ever
I need you more than ever now
If you don’t need it every day
But sometimes don’t you just crave
To disappear within your mind
You never know what you might find
So come and spend some time with me
And we will spend it all at sea
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to, all at sea
If you want to, all at sea
If you want to
I’m all at sea
Where no one can bother me
Forgot my roots
If only for a day
Just me and my thoughts
Sailing far away
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to, all at sea
I’m all at sea
Where no-one can bother me
I sleep by myself
I drink on my own
I don’t speak to nobody
I gave away my phone
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to, all at sea
Now I need you more than ever
I need you more than ever now
If you don’t need it every day
But sometimes don’t you just crave
To disappear within your mind
You never know what you might find
So come and spend some time with me
And we will spend it all at sea
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to, all at sea
If you want to, all at sea
If you want to
fall break
once again, im glad that the weekend is here. n a long one at that. since its the fall break, im having monday off as well.
james and tom asked if i wanted to go to marietta and stay in their place, but i thought i catch up with the other guys here in tech over the weekend.
ive finally got my apple $200 rebate, so i should be depositing that later on.
i knew it was going to be cold this week, but this morning, as i woke up, i felt an extreme sense of chill (below 10 degrees celcius at the lowest) like the one i felt in chicago at times. funny thing is, its not the beginning, just yet. its expected to warm up pretty good next week, like, 16, 17 degrees, but then after that it will cool down for good. the chill is sinking beneath my skin and it stays there for a good 10, 20 minutes, which i absolutely hate.
been working quite a bit for my hall council lately. its confirmed that i am indeed going to kentucky on november for the regional conference. i already know 2 of the 10 people that are going, so it shouldnt be too bad. somehow, my hall council seems to have gotten the reputation as being very efficient and well organized, and i still find it difficult to accept that, as it is not as smooth running as i hope to be, but its improving. i initially thought that my secretary's minutes would cause problems, but apparantly, it was receiving rave reviews from the other halls, which is a good sign.
i have yet to resolve whether i will try to graduate in 3 years or 5, but i still have a lot of time to decide that.
but its all settling down well, just trying not to worry too much for now. funny im listening to oasis' 'stop crying your heart out' now and writing that very line now.
alright, off to history...
james and tom asked if i wanted to go to marietta and stay in their place, but i thought i catch up with the other guys here in tech over the weekend.
ive finally got my apple $200 rebate, so i should be depositing that later on.
i knew it was going to be cold this week, but this morning, as i woke up, i felt an extreme sense of chill (below 10 degrees celcius at the lowest) like the one i felt in chicago at times. funny thing is, its not the beginning, just yet. its expected to warm up pretty good next week, like, 16, 17 degrees, but then after that it will cool down for good. the chill is sinking beneath my skin and it stays there for a good 10, 20 minutes, which i absolutely hate.
been working quite a bit for my hall council lately. its confirmed that i am indeed going to kentucky on november for the regional conference. i already know 2 of the 10 people that are going, so it shouldnt be too bad. somehow, my hall council seems to have gotten the reputation as being very efficient and well organized, and i still find it difficult to accept that, as it is not as smooth running as i hope to be, but its improving. i initially thought that my secretary's minutes would cause problems, but apparantly, it was receiving rave reviews from the other halls, which is a good sign.
i have yet to resolve whether i will try to graduate in 3 years or 5, but i still have a lot of time to decide that.
but its all settling down well, just trying not to worry too much for now. funny im listening to oasis' 'stop crying your heart out' now and writing that very line now.
alright, off to history...
Thursday, October 14, 2004
resolutions
i will/must:
- cease intake of caffeine
- cease intake of menthol
- stop cracking my bones
- stop being so involved
- get more sleep
- stop being paranoid about my time here
let's see how this goes.
- cease intake of caffeine
- cease intake of menthol
- stop cracking my bones
- stop being so involved
- get more sleep
- stop being paranoid about my time here
let's see how this goes.
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
what can i do?
aw hell.
ive got to resolve 3 things in the short future. and it would all prove costly. im afraid i cant disclose the exact details, since ive noticed that there has been an increase in the number of georgia tech visitors to this page, and as a result of not knowning who exactly these people are, i cannot take the risk of revealing a potentially big action.
whatever it is, its something i have to do with a dilemma that i have yet to solve. most people would say i still have time to think through it, but i just want to be sure, and want to make that decision as soon as i can, coz everything seems to be piling up. ive been thinking about these things for such a long time, im ready to tear my head apart.
oh crap, my iPod's scratched up so bad. well, not entirely. it must be because of one of the homecoming games i played yesterday which was named peter parker's assignment. we were given number of clues (about 20 or so) which directs us to various locations around campus and basically a person has to take a photo of that place, including 3 of the 4 members being visible in the picture. doug, j-raw and tom were my other team members and J.P. had the chance to drive fast and manacingly with a reason. it was very fun, but at the same time, very tiring, considering how big the campus is, within an hour. but it was a exhilarating dash around the campus and i discovered couple of things i never knew about, which is always a good thing. i felt so freaking tired, i had one of those very unusual 30 minute nap that actually worked. i tend not to fall asleep but just lie on the bed, since i find it so hard to fall asleep, but due to the fatigue, it worked marvelously.
day to day, i realize the impact of the british influence that singapore had on me. in terms of gesture, music, thinking and other things that i cannot think of right now. its rather weird, considering that i never thought i'd be like that. being a sceptic, pessimist, an occasional sarcastic comments and whatnot, its the typical behaviour, the only thing missing would be the black shirt that they wear (okay, that's an exaggerated stereotype)
do i want what i really want? lately that question has been haunting my mind. doing something half-convinced, always with a questionable doubt while doing whatever that im doing. ive been doing that for so long, i dont want to do it anymore. if i dont think im completely satisfied or committed, then im out. maybe i should take that action. or maybe i should not. there are pros and cons to every little thing, that its such a difficult task of deciding to do the right thing. i realized i contradict certain things at the same time while im trying to figure the best way possible.
urgh, here i go on and on again. its like i dont know how nor when to stop. so im just gonna stop. i might as well drop by the president's speech since i have some time now.
ive got to resolve 3 things in the short future. and it would all prove costly. im afraid i cant disclose the exact details, since ive noticed that there has been an increase in the number of georgia tech visitors to this page, and as a result of not knowning who exactly these people are, i cannot take the risk of revealing a potentially big action.
whatever it is, its something i have to do with a dilemma that i have yet to solve. most people would say i still have time to think through it, but i just want to be sure, and want to make that decision as soon as i can, coz everything seems to be piling up. ive been thinking about these things for such a long time, im ready to tear my head apart.
oh crap, my iPod's scratched up so bad. well, not entirely. it must be because of one of the homecoming games i played yesterday which was named peter parker's assignment. we were given number of clues (about 20 or so) which directs us to various locations around campus and basically a person has to take a photo of that place, including 3 of the 4 members being visible in the picture. doug, j-raw and tom were my other team members and J.P. had the chance to drive fast and manacingly with a reason. it was very fun, but at the same time, very tiring, considering how big the campus is, within an hour. but it was a exhilarating dash around the campus and i discovered couple of things i never knew about, which is always a good thing. i felt so freaking tired, i had one of those very unusual 30 minute nap that actually worked. i tend not to fall asleep but just lie on the bed, since i find it so hard to fall asleep, but due to the fatigue, it worked marvelously.
day to day, i realize the impact of the british influence that singapore had on me. in terms of gesture, music, thinking and other things that i cannot think of right now. its rather weird, considering that i never thought i'd be like that. being a sceptic, pessimist, an occasional sarcastic comments and whatnot, its the typical behaviour, the only thing missing would be the black shirt that they wear (okay, that's an exaggerated stereotype)
do i want what i really want? lately that question has been haunting my mind. doing something half-convinced, always with a questionable doubt while doing whatever that im doing. ive been doing that for so long, i dont want to do it anymore. if i dont think im completely satisfied or committed, then im out. maybe i should take that action. or maybe i should not. there are pros and cons to every little thing, that its such a difficult task of deciding to do the right thing. i realized i contradict certain things at the same time while im trying to figure the best way possible.
urgh, here i go on and on again. its like i dont know how nor when to stop. so im just gonna stop. i might as well drop by the president's speech since i have some time now.
Friday, October 08, 2004
rushing the week away
i feel so tired, i just wanna go to sleep after the history class.
wait, i gotta do laundry.
dammit.
my room mate has been playing poker every single night since last week and it doesnt help the fact that now he has in his possession a set of playing chips.
and he still claims i sleep longer than him. technically, he might be right, but i am such a sensitive sleeper, i actually am half-awake when he comes back into the room, i am aware of each and every single noise that is made. which also means i am not exactly sleeping.
anyway, had my third calculus test just now. i had suddenly forgotten how to come up with the formulas required to solve the question and i started panicking, but suddenly everything was clear in the last 5 mins, so i had to write it all out as quickly and clearly as i could.
well, thats done and over with now.
i finally got credit for the two JAPN exams i took. and i also realized im not getting the 6 hours of credit coz i took the 3001 n 3002 exams. i wish i had figured that out sooner, so i could sit for 3001 and 3002, do real well at it as a GPA booster and get the extra 6 towards the minor.
but i found out that the credit i got for calc 1 got counted towards my free elective. which means i can substitute that for a japanese class and add another to complete the 18 required.
there was the study abroad fair yesterday and it sucks to find out that i will miss the argentina ISyE one by a semester, coz i gotta co-op. and i really wanted to go to GT Lorraine in France, but they dont really offer the courses that i need. so i gotta make do with Fukuoka and Singapore/Beijing. besides, they only let us take up to 12 or 15, which isnt exactly gonna work out for me.
sigh.. its really going to be a busy couple of years ahead.
i signed up to go to SAACURH, which is a regional residence hall association conference. its basically a free trip to louisville, kentucky. i guess it will go a long way should i decide to involve myself in RHA permanently.
hopefully GT wins against maryland this week. if not, the week is gonna suck. we totally got screwed by miami last week, so everyone's mood hasnt exactly been good.
wait, i gotta do laundry.
dammit.
my room mate has been playing poker every single night since last week and it doesnt help the fact that now he has in his possession a set of playing chips.
and he still claims i sleep longer than him. technically, he might be right, but i am such a sensitive sleeper, i actually am half-awake when he comes back into the room, i am aware of each and every single noise that is made. which also means i am not exactly sleeping.
anyway, had my third calculus test just now. i had suddenly forgotten how to come up with the formulas required to solve the question and i started panicking, but suddenly everything was clear in the last 5 mins, so i had to write it all out as quickly and clearly as i could.
well, thats done and over with now.
i finally got credit for the two JAPN exams i took. and i also realized im not getting the 6 hours of credit coz i took the 3001 n 3002 exams. i wish i had figured that out sooner, so i could sit for 3001 and 3002, do real well at it as a GPA booster and get the extra 6 towards the minor.
but i found out that the credit i got for calc 1 got counted towards my free elective. which means i can substitute that for a japanese class and add another to complete the 18 required.
there was the study abroad fair yesterday and it sucks to find out that i will miss the argentina ISyE one by a semester, coz i gotta co-op. and i really wanted to go to GT Lorraine in France, but they dont really offer the courses that i need. so i gotta make do with Fukuoka and Singapore/Beijing. besides, they only let us take up to 12 or 15, which isnt exactly gonna work out for me.
sigh.. its really going to be a busy couple of years ahead.
i signed up to go to SAACURH, which is a regional residence hall association conference. its basically a free trip to louisville, kentucky. i guess it will go a long way should i decide to involve myself in RHA permanently.
hopefully GT wins against maryland this week. if not, the week is gonna suck. we totally got screwed by miami last week, so everyone's mood hasnt exactly been good.
Sunday, October 03, 2004
at club 318
im at club 318, and im surprised im getting wireless connection here. well, im losing it time to time, but its good enough for now.
jame's room mate is here from south carolina, so i had to give up my room for the night, or maybe two. so i decided to stay at club 318 upstairs, which is tecnically tom and nate's room.
anyway...
we're screwed tomorrow for the football game. its against no.5 miami. we're probably done for, but i hope there's a miracle to make things work.
on a more serious note, i realized i can graduate in 3 flat years if i work my ass off and do nothing else. i'll have to cram 16 hours every semester, maybe a little more to compensate for one summer semester (16 is max during summer, 21 on other sessions) to pull it through. heck, everyone needs to go through a semester or two of 17 or 18 hours.
anyway, im not sure why i would want to do that. maybe its because i want to get education done and over with? maybe the tuition rise in tech is a factor to consider, i mean, two years is almost US$50k.
the only thing why i would try to do 5 years is to stretch is out a little so that i can get 5 semesters of co-op under my belt, get a major, a minor, a certificate and tons of leadership experience. obviously, i'll come out highly qualified, but either way, im intending to do my MBA anyway, which, after graduation, might put all my undergrad experiences to not much use.
so its a big dilemma.
going away from academics, i realized ive been listening to a whole lot of british rock bands, far more than usual. i didnt realize it til i checked my iPod's top 25 played songs and discovered that Oasis, Coldplay, Keane and Radiohead made up most of them. Somehow or other, their lyrics and tone appeals a lot to me. and a lot of lines i can identify myself with. for example, in Keane's 'Somewhere Only We Know', it mentions,
'And if you have a minute, why don't we go, talk about it somewhere only we know'
or
'o simple things, where have you gone?'
to tell you honestly, ive been listening to that song on repeat every morning before my calculus classes, if not, i'll play 'Don't Look Back in Anger' by Oasis, also on repeat. and lately, i've been listening to a lot of Coldplay at night too.
maybe its because of a certain longing. a longing i cannot discuss here. i think that is the most probably reason for it.
but whatever it is, as my room mate commented recently, when im listening to their music, i trance into a world of my own, not realizing that james is talking to me. that is the kind of mental state ive been in these few days.
i guess everyone realizes that there isnt much organization to my blog entries. thats coz i type whatever that comes to my mind, like a real journal entry. some people like to see my point made clear, or at least a flow to my commentary. im sorry, if i were doing that, i'd quit blogging a long time ago. thats why i hate writing, and i wouldnt wanna be doing something that i detest.
im just going to chill down to these bands for the night. and let my mind relax after a long tiring week.
jame's room mate is here from south carolina, so i had to give up my room for the night, or maybe two. so i decided to stay at club 318 upstairs, which is tecnically tom and nate's room.
anyway...
we're screwed tomorrow for the football game. its against no.5 miami. we're probably done for, but i hope there's a miracle to make things work.
on a more serious note, i realized i can graduate in 3 flat years if i work my ass off and do nothing else. i'll have to cram 16 hours every semester, maybe a little more to compensate for one summer semester (16 is max during summer, 21 on other sessions) to pull it through. heck, everyone needs to go through a semester or two of 17 or 18 hours.
anyway, im not sure why i would want to do that. maybe its because i want to get education done and over with? maybe the tuition rise in tech is a factor to consider, i mean, two years is almost US$50k.
the only thing why i would try to do 5 years is to stretch is out a little so that i can get 5 semesters of co-op under my belt, get a major, a minor, a certificate and tons of leadership experience. obviously, i'll come out highly qualified, but either way, im intending to do my MBA anyway, which, after graduation, might put all my undergrad experiences to not much use.
so its a big dilemma.
going away from academics, i realized ive been listening to a whole lot of british rock bands, far more than usual. i didnt realize it til i checked my iPod's top 25 played songs and discovered that Oasis, Coldplay, Keane and Radiohead made up most of them. Somehow or other, their lyrics and tone appeals a lot to me. and a lot of lines i can identify myself with. for example, in Keane's 'Somewhere Only We Know', it mentions,
'And if you have a minute, why don't we go, talk about it somewhere only we know'
or
'o simple things, where have you gone?'
to tell you honestly, ive been listening to that song on repeat every morning before my calculus classes, if not, i'll play 'Don't Look Back in Anger' by Oasis, also on repeat. and lately, i've been listening to a lot of Coldplay at night too.
maybe its because of a certain longing. a longing i cannot discuss here. i think that is the most probably reason for it.
but whatever it is, as my room mate commented recently, when im listening to their music, i trance into a world of my own, not realizing that james is talking to me. that is the kind of mental state ive been in these few days.
i guess everyone realizes that there isnt much organization to my blog entries. thats coz i type whatever that comes to my mind, like a real journal entry. some people like to see my point made clear, or at least a flow to my commentary. im sorry, if i were doing that, i'd quit blogging a long time ago. thats why i hate writing, and i wouldnt wanna be doing something that i detest.
im just going to chill down to these bands for the night. and let my mind relax after a long tiring week.
Friday, October 01, 2004
the debates
so there was the first of the three presidential debates last night.
sadly, both speakers turned out pretty poor, maybe John Kerry edging out Bush in terms of style and eloquence, but I think Bush had an upper hand in terms of content and substance.
as I am ineligible to vote, all I can do it critique about this whole thing, but its pretty weird to think that all these campaigning is going to a very small percentage of the general population. about 90% of registered voters have already decided who they're going to vote for. if you ask me, the Republicans will vote for whoever that is representing them, so its not really that Bush is good, its just that he's the best candidate for a Republican. likewise for Kerry, the Democrats are going to vote for Kerry not because he is the most suitable candidate, but because he's a Democrat.
so the remaining 10% gets to decide who really should win. I hoped that there would be more people like me who will vote for the 'better' candidate instead of sticking loyally to their political party preference. I look at what each candidate has to offer, what their plans are and how truthful they seem. I used to be anti-Bush, hence, making me a Kerry supporter, but after taking on this english class, im starting to think differently and evaluating each candidate for their promises. its amazing to think that almost 10 million dollars is being spent on 10% of the voters who will swing the elections either way.
the only issues i am concerned about are the draft and the american foreign policy. personally, i think that the president of the United States is technically the president of the world. hence, I agree with some writers who say that people outside the United States should be allowed to vote too, because they too are affected by whoever is elected, be it Iraqis, Afghans, Iranian or North Koreans.
my privacy is affected because of what happened. but i cant complain, as it is necessary to secure all of our security. but at the same time, at what cost? sometimes the things that is being done is ridiculous.
even if it is an election for the Americans, by which domestic issues should be of the upmost concern, it is also the choice of the rest of the world, who will be affected by whoever gets elected.
sadly, both speakers turned out pretty poor, maybe John Kerry edging out Bush in terms of style and eloquence, but I think Bush had an upper hand in terms of content and substance.
as I am ineligible to vote, all I can do it critique about this whole thing, but its pretty weird to think that all these campaigning is going to a very small percentage of the general population. about 90% of registered voters have already decided who they're going to vote for. if you ask me, the Republicans will vote for whoever that is representing them, so its not really that Bush is good, its just that he's the best candidate for a Republican. likewise for Kerry, the Democrats are going to vote for Kerry not because he is the most suitable candidate, but because he's a Democrat.
so the remaining 10% gets to decide who really should win. I hoped that there would be more people like me who will vote for the 'better' candidate instead of sticking loyally to their political party preference. I look at what each candidate has to offer, what their plans are and how truthful they seem. I used to be anti-Bush, hence, making me a Kerry supporter, but after taking on this english class, im starting to think differently and evaluating each candidate for their promises. its amazing to think that almost 10 million dollars is being spent on 10% of the voters who will swing the elections either way.
the only issues i am concerned about are the draft and the american foreign policy. personally, i think that the president of the United States is technically the president of the world. hence, I agree with some writers who say that people outside the United States should be allowed to vote too, because they too are affected by whoever is elected, be it Iraqis, Afghans, Iranian or North Koreans.
my privacy is affected because of what happened. but i cant complain, as it is necessary to secure all of our security. but at the same time, at what cost? sometimes the things that is being done is ridiculous.
even if it is an election for the Americans, by which domestic issues should be of the upmost concern, it is also the choice of the rest of the world, who will be affected by whoever gets elected.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)