i cant seem to check the other application status online. majority of the unis inform by mail, so im stuck in naperville, coz the mails either go to singapore or to my aunt's place in lexington.
i juz got an email from georgia tech confirmin my admission to them, so thats that, its confirmed.
the only other uni i got news of at this moment is umass. funny thin is, i got accepted, but my major is undeclared, meanin i did not get my first nor second choice of major, n its funny, coz i am good enough to b accepted by georgia tech, but not gd enough to get in umass on my choice of major.
im confused.
but then again, it depends on the other students who applied.
but still.
hmmm. im still wonderin how i got into georgia tech. their student's average SAT score is from 1250 to 1420. mine's quite below that. yet, i got accepted.
sometimes u gotta count luck eh.
but i think i'll like it. at georgia tech. kinda lookin forward to it.
im kinda led to believe i screwed up my application. do u know why? coz i havent taken my TOEFL yet. yes, i juz remembered. since i got credit in english in the o levels n soon, a levels (hopefully) i tot TOEFL wont b necessary. not to mention the screwed up registration system they hav in asia. either fax, or phone. i couldnt even make out wat the person was sayin on the other line. so i juz told meself, feck it. n many sch might not accept me purely coz i didnt submit the score of the TOEFL that ive not even taken. ahhh, now i think i might know why if i dont get accepted to the safety schs too.
but since im already accepted to two, wat the heck.
been quite a nice couple of days...
n only this comes to my mind now.. wish i could say it out loud...
come away with me... in the night...
n i mean that.... i wish u all could see wat im seein. mayb even if u all were here, u wont see it as i see it. i dont know. but i still mean it.
Sunday, February 29, 2004
Final Score from Fratton Park;
Portsmouth 1
Lomano Tresor Lua Lua (88th)
Newcastle United 1
Craig Bellamy (34th)
damn it.. tts 7 successive away draws in premiership.. this is the worst one of the lot since we conceded yet again in the dying minutes, n worse, by a player who officially belongs to us, but is on 3 month loan to portsmouth.
lua lua definately made a point.
Portsmouth 1
Lomano Tresor Lua Lua (88th)
Newcastle United 1
Craig Bellamy (34th)
damn it.. tts 7 successive away draws in premiership.. this is the worst one of the lot since we conceded yet again in the dying minutes, n worse, by a player who officially belongs to us, but is on 3 month loan to portsmouth.
lua lua definately made a point.
Friday, February 27, 2004
Thursday, February 26, 2004
okay....
i juz love cinnamon gum. cant help it. somehow tt can only b gotten here. cinnamon anythin, i think its my new addiction added to menthol n caffeine.
anyway...
feel happy for my brother. tho he'll hav to do grade 9 for a while n then also in ESL for sometime, his math would b fantastic. he'll hav to go to grade 10 class after sch, n even tt class is for the excellent ones in grade 10. i wanted to go like duh, he studied math in singapore. if everythin goes well, then he could b doin college maths once he reaches senior yr, a program offered by univ of illinois.
in a sense, i really wished i could go to high sch. esp this one. i took a tour while my brother was gettin his english diagnostic n was amazed. a huge hall tt can accomodate 3 basketball courts which can b turned into a mini indoor stadia, n they r gonna hav a match later on. they hav ticketin counter in the sch, can u believe tt? plus an amazin auditorium, reminded me of animal farm. n so many other facilities. like an university.
georgia tech is also participatin in ncaa sports, so some match days will b real fun.
juz wrote long letters to couple of ppl. took like an hour or two. its done. wat else is left? ah, convert the photos to jpeg n upload. seems like a lot of work, but its not.
next few days gonna b a lil borin, since my dad's goin back to singapore n will b takin the laptop wit him. so all i got r the dvds i can rent from library, which should prove sufficient, n the bk, which i'll finish by next wk. i need a pc to do my C++ stuff. i guess tt leaves me to do F maths then. bla. but after seein the hasib incident, i suddenly wanna do maths all over again. im crazy.
day ends so early here, as in, it ges dark so early, cant even do much.
but the temperature is gettin better. for the first time, i could walk outside without wearin a jacket. altho i was wearin like three layers of clothes still.
checked out how much i could potentially earn. its way enough to lead a comfortable life for a bachelor. plus its quite a gd uni anyway. hasib's sch teachers were surprised n amazed tt i was accepted, as they said tt its a great sch. they hav this way of makin u feel welcomed n theyre oh so friendly.
so quite a bit of worries r gone. at least ive got a place to go, bro should settle in fine, etc.
sorry ive not been updatin so much. dad does quite a bit of work from here too so when i get to use it, usually time is blown replyin to private mails, checkin out infos n all.
n im feelin real sleepy. im gonna take a nap. before friends is shown in NBC. dammit, missed two of the previous episodes.
i juz love cinnamon gum. cant help it. somehow tt can only b gotten here. cinnamon anythin, i think its my new addiction added to menthol n caffeine.
anyway...
feel happy for my brother. tho he'll hav to do grade 9 for a while n then also in ESL for sometime, his math would b fantastic. he'll hav to go to grade 10 class after sch, n even tt class is for the excellent ones in grade 10. i wanted to go like duh, he studied math in singapore. if everythin goes well, then he could b doin college maths once he reaches senior yr, a program offered by univ of illinois.
in a sense, i really wished i could go to high sch. esp this one. i took a tour while my brother was gettin his english diagnostic n was amazed. a huge hall tt can accomodate 3 basketball courts which can b turned into a mini indoor stadia, n they r gonna hav a match later on. they hav ticketin counter in the sch, can u believe tt? plus an amazin auditorium, reminded me of animal farm. n so many other facilities. like an university.
georgia tech is also participatin in ncaa sports, so some match days will b real fun.
juz wrote long letters to couple of ppl. took like an hour or two. its done. wat else is left? ah, convert the photos to jpeg n upload. seems like a lot of work, but its not.
next few days gonna b a lil borin, since my dad's goin back to singapore n will b takin the laptop wit him. so all i got r the dvds i can rent from library, which should prove sufficient, n the bk, which i'll finish by next wk. i need a pc to do my C++ stuff. i guess tt leaves me to do F maths then. bla. but after seein the hasib incident, i suddenly wanna do maths all over again. im crazy.
day ends so early here, as in, it ges dark so early, cant even do much.
but the temperature is gettin better. for the first time, i could walk outside without wearin a jacket. altho i was wearin like three layers of clothes still.
checked out how much i could potentially earn. its way enough to lead a comfortable life for a bachelor. plus its quite a gd uni anyway. hasib's sch teachers were surprised n amazed tt i was accepted, as they said tt its a great sch. they hav this way of makin u feel welcomed n theyre oh so friendly.
so quite a bit of worries r gone. at least ive got a place to go, bro should settle in fine, etc.
sorry ive not been updatin so much. dad does quite a bit of work from here too so when i get to use it, usually time is blown replyin to private mails, checkin out infos n all.
n im feelin real sleepy. im gonna take a nap. before friends is shown in NBC. dammit, missed two of the previous episodes.
i hope i get offers from other unis, but here's a low down on the uni tt accepted me, georgia institute of technology.
overall national ranking (doctorate) - 37th (tied wit case western reserve uni & lehigh uni)
overall national engineering ranking - 5th (tied wit univ of illinois at urbana champaign)
computer engineering national ranking - 6th (tied wit univ of michigan - ann arbor)
isnt tt amazin or wat.
overall national ranking (doctorate) - 37th (tied wit case western reserve uni & lehigh uni)
overall national engineering ranking - 5th (tied wit univ of illinois at urbana champaign)
computer engineering national ranking - 6th (tied wit univ of michigan - ann arbor)
isnt tt amazin or wat.
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
my aunt from lexington, massachusetts juz called.
if wat she says is correct n not mistaken...
I'VE BEEN ACCEPTED TO GEORGIA INSTITUTE OF TECHNOLOGY!!!!
WOOHOO!!
i hope its the first of many schs tt i'll b hearin news from in the next couple of weeks...
i tot tt i would know my admission to penn state first... GIT beats the hell out of upenn for sure.
also.. i juz got news tt my uncle, the eldest bro of my dad has passed away. i always loved the way he laughed n smile. full set of teeth. tho i didnt get to know him personally, i kinda miss him already, he used to treat me real well.
*looks up at the sky*
if wat she says is correct n not mistaken...
I'VE BEEN ACCEPTED TO GEORGIA INSTITUTE OF TECHNOLOGY!!!!
WOOHOO!!
i hope its the first of many schs tt i'll b hearin news from in the next couple of weeks...
i tot tt i would know my admission to penn state first... GIT beats the hell out of upenn for sure.
also.. i juz got news tt my uncle, the eldest bro of my dad has passed away. i always loved the way he laughed n smile. full set of teeth. tho i didnt get to know him personally, i kinda miss him already, he used to treat me real well.
*looks up at the sky*
courtesy of talib...
check this site out, its super funny.
http://www.ebaumsworld.com/endofworld.html
check this site out, its super funny.
http://www.ebaumsworld.com/endofworld.html
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
okay, sorry for not having too many updates durin the last few days.
ive been writing mails to friends, managin online accounts, etc. took a lil bit more time than expected.
anyway...
went to my bro's sch, talked to advisors n all. my god, his sch is huge. they've got a football field wit stands, two separate baseball fields, couple more fields for dunno wat, n a whole buildin dedicated to freshmens (grade 9, sec 3) i think its way bigger than HCJC campus. n its only a high school.
my bro would b enjoying his time i guess. in a way, i kinda missed out on the fun, but at the same time, JC has more or less prepared me for wats to come in uni. so i hav an edge, since we've gone through so much shit, uni would b easy stuff for me, whereas many from the high schs might find it a lil challenging.
couple of days ago had dinner at my uncle's colleague's place. the family's japanese, but hav been livin in america for a long time. they were very nice to us, prob coz we were more japanese then they ever thought a foreigner could b n all. its my uncle's idea. since my mom isnt tt gd in english, he tot he get my mom to know the japanese community first, since she would hav an easier time communicatin wit em n all.
went to get a cellphone. american phones kinda suck, to b honest. since we wanted a one tt could b used even if we went to sg, we got tt sony ericsson one. the one denise has. tts the only one tt is compatible wit 4 bands. 850, 900, 1800 n 1900. sg uses both 800 n 1800. us operates on 850 n 1900. the conversation of comparison between TMA, CDMA n GSM networks has been the main focus these few days. america has been overloaded wit CDMA networks. but slowly the tide is changing to GSM. AT&T has succesively been replacin all their communication towers to GSM n tt has made the network more efficient n all. but the rates tt they offer is ridiculous. we're gonna pay quite a sum for the hps. we got two hps, sharin about 950 mins per month, unlimited weekend calls, unlimited cell to cell calls n shit like tt. tons of things i never heard in sg. they hav different plans for state wide plans n nation wide plans, naturally. its a whole new arena for communications technology.
but we gotta get a house line soon. tt would save us the trouble of the cell. i cant believe the amount tt we're payin for the cell per month. its crazy. we wont use tt much since we only know couple of ppl here, its not like we know so many yet. we're gonna pay like 100 per month or somethin. possibly more. but this company tt we subscribed from, called Cingular, rolls over unused minutes for max of a yr. which is v v appealing. but then again...
its 3 degrees today. when we walked from my bro's high sch to the stores nearby, the wind practically froze my face. my body is well protected, but the face is somethin i cant protect. but its a nice feelin, in a sense. accordin to the papers, we'll hit 50 degrees fehrenheit, prob 10 degrees celcius on wed, first time in chicago since jan 4th, so im lookin forward to the hot sun. it still feels sub zero most of the time.
while we were gettin items from the store, i found out there's a drivin sch right there. gonna go back in the evenin to sign up. i should b gettin the licence in two months or so. ive seen quite a lot of beetles around n feel like wantin one. my uncle told me its bt US$14k. tts not bad. but then again, seatin's gonna b a prob. most prob get some 2nd hand jap car or somethin, but im ok either way. i'll get to drive around n explore the place anyway.
yea, tts it for now. nothin much else than wake up, surf, go places, buy stuff n come back. plain life for now.
heard results r out on 4th march? boy... it doesnt matter but i cant help not b bothered.
ive been writing mails to friends, managin online accounts, etc. took a lil bit more time than expected.
anyway...
went to my bro's sch, talked to advisors n all. my god, his sch is huge. they've got a football field wit stands, two separate baseball fields, couple more fields for dunno wat, n a whole buildin dedicated to freshmens (grade 9, sec 3) i think its way bigger than HCJC campus. n its only a high school.
my bro would b enjoying his time i guess. in a way, i kinda missed out on the fun, but at the same time, JC has more or less prepared me for wats to come in uni. so i hav an edge, since we've gone through so much shit, uni would b easy stuff for me, whereas many from the high schs might find it a lil challenging.
couple of days ago had dinner at my uncle's colleague's place. the family's japanese, but hav been livin in america for a long time. they were very nice to us, prob coz we were more japanese then they ever thought a foreigner could b n all. its my uncle's idea. since my mom isnt tt gd in english, he tot he get my mom to know the japanese community first, since she would hav an easier time communicatin wit em n all.
went to get a cellphone. american phones kinda suck, to b honest. since we wanted a one tt could b used even if we went to sg, we got tt sony ericsson one. the one denise has. tts the only one tt is compatible wit 4 bands. 850, 900, 1800 n 1900. sg uses both 800 n 1800. us operates on 850 n 1900. the conversation of comparison between TMA, CDMA n GSM networks has been the main focus these few days. america has been overloaded wit CDMA networks. but slowly the tide is changing to GSM. AT&T has succesively been replacin all their communication towers to GSM n tt has made the network more efficient n all. but the rates tt they offer is ridiculous. we're gonna pay quite a sum for the hps. we got two hps, sharin about 950 mins per month, unlimited weekend calls, unlimited cell to cell calls n shit like tt. tons of things i never heard in sg. they hav different plans for state wide plans n nation wide plans, naturally. its a whole new arena for communications technology.
but we gotta get a house line soon. tt would save us the trouble of the cell. i cant believe the amount tt we're payin for the cell per month. its crazy. we wont use tt much since we only know couple of ppl here, its not like we know so many yet. we're gonna pay like 100 per month or somethin. possibly more. but this company tt we subscribed from, called Cingular, rolls over unused minutes for max of a yr. which is v v appealing. but then again...
its 3 degrees today. when we walked from my bro's high sch to the stores nearby, the wind practically froze my face. my body is well protected, but the face is somethin i cant protect. but its a nice feelin, in a sense. accordin to the papers, we'll hit 50 degrees fehrenheit, prob 10 degrees celcius on wed, first time in chicago since jan 4th, so im lookin forward to the hot sun. it still feels sub zero most of the time.
while we were gettin items from the store, i found out there's a drivin sch right there. gonna go back in the evenin to sign up. i should b gettin the licence in two months or so. ive seen quite a lot of beetles around n feel like wantin one. my uncle told me its bt US$14k. tts not bad. but then again, seatin's gonna b a prob. most prob get some 2nd hand jap car or somethin, but im ok either way. i'll get to drive around n explore the place anyway.
yea, tts it for now. nothin much else than wake up, surf, go places, buy stuff n come back. plain life for now.
heard results r out on 4th march? boy... it doesnt matter but i cant help not b bothered.
Monday, February 23, 2004
alrite many of u wanted snow? well, heres some for u guys...
yes.. now a dummy's guide to throwin a snowball...
first, grab a handful of snow as shown above..
using two hands, cup the snow so tt it becomes hard n circular, so tt it doesnt crumble when thrown.
then... aim as shown below...
and throw!!!
fire (actually snowball) in the hole!!!
yes.. now a dummy's guide to throwin a snowball...
first, grab a handful of snow as shown above..
using two hands, cup the snow so tt it becomes hard n circular, so tt it doesnt crumble when thrown.
then... aim as shown below...
and throw!!!
fire (actually snowball) in the hole!!!
Sunday, February 22, 2004
phew.. finally its done.
after convertin all 100++ pics from the digicam to JPEG format n uploadin one by one (coz somehow the drag n drop doesnt work on my dad's laptop) n sufferin number of upload failures.
its here, check em out!
-deleted-
enjoy...
couple of the nice ones tt i took.
mt fuji when we were descendin to narita int. excellent view.
such a cute lil boy.
howay the lads!!!
friends in tulip garden
the officer in the making n my 25 cent gf. haha.
excellent pic.. makes me feel like it was one of those days... youth rule... young hearts, run free..
she'd slap me if i were in sg. sorry lynn! haha, but my last v day in sg. thanx for being there princess!
after convertin all 100++ pics from the digicam to JPEG format n uploadin one by one (coz somehow the drag n drop doesnt work on my dad's laptop) n sufferin number of upload failures.
its here, check em out!
-deleted-
enjoy...
couple of the nice ones tt i took.
mt fuji when we were descendin to narita int. excellent view.
such a cute lil boy.
howay the lads!!!
friends in tulip garden
the officer in the making n my 25 cent gf. haha.
excellent pic.. makes me feel like it was one of those days... youth rule... young hearts, run free..
she'd slap me if i were in sg. sorry lynn! haha, but my last v day in sg. thanx for being there princess!
okay...
im in naperville. finally.
after like, 30 hrs of travelling? (flight, transit, car transport all included)
everythin was ok, til tt flight from ny to chicago which was delayed like for 2 hrs coz of bad weather. i asked the taxi driver from chicago to naperville afterwards n she juz said 'huh? ain't nothin' happened here' so i guess its wind probs.
but so far, its nice.
since i had like a collective sleep of maximum 2 hrs in the last 48 hrs, i was too tired to do anything, let alone think. so i went to sleep, n woke up 15 hrs later. but i read somewhere lost sleep cannot b gained back. but i felt so much better. juz tt my body feels very weird. i guess due to inexercise.
oh i wanted to say this. 'i'm in chi-town!' haha, always wonder wat tt meant in many of r kelly's songs.. chi-town doesnt mean china town, it means chicago. so when i sat in the taxi, wit the great feelin of the air travel finally been finished, i juz wanted to say tt loud.
but its freakin 0 degrees now. it isnt snowin, but theres snow accumulated outside the house. its a big change, really.
but im adaptin to it. hands n feet freezin, but im ok. giv it a month or so, weather will b better. but its finally great to see snow again after almost 15 yrs.
but we're overprepared for weather, so i dont feel so cold.
but seriously, i dunno where to begin.
theres so much things n so many things tt it makes singapore look like a holiday resort. i felt like i had a very gd holiday for the last 10 yrs. everythin's easy to get, everythin's so easy, basically its provided for u.
went for a lil shoppin, to get couple of things i need, then tt juz struck to me. we had to drive quite a distant to get to places. n these places r all specialized in certain products, meanin if u want to get electronics, u gotta head somewhere else. if u want winter clothes, its somewhere else. n i dont mean another shop. i mean a different place altogether.
things like tt. so i juz dunno where to begin. so many things i wanna say, but i got a writer's block when i try to blog.
anyway, keep an eye on this blog coz lotsa new things will b up. but for now, for those of u livin in singapore, appreciate the weather. seriously. im freezin like never before in this 0 degrees.
k im tired n hungry. i need to go.
hope u guys r alrite n havin fun! mail me everyone! take care
im in naperville. finally.
after like, 30 hrs of travelling? (flight, transit, car transport all included)
everythin was ok, til tt flight from ny to chicago which was delayed like for 2 hrs coz of bad weather. i asked the taxi driver from chicago to naperville afterwards n she juz said 'huh? ain't nothin' happened here' so i guess its wind probs.
but so far, its nice.
since i had like a collective sleep of maximum 2 hrs in the last 48 hrs, i was too tired to do anything, let alone think. so i went to sleep, n woke up 15 hrs later. but i read somewhere lost sleep cannot b gained back. but i felt so much better. juz tt my body feels very weird. i guess due to inexercise.
oh i wanted to say this. 'i'm in chi-town!' haha, always wonder wat tt meant in many of r kelly's songs.. chi-town doesnt mean china town, it means chicago. so when i sat in the taxi, wit the great feelin of the air travel finally been finished, i juz wanted to say tt loud.
but its freakin 0 degrees now. it isnt snowin, but theres snow accumulated outside the house. its a big change, really.
but im adaptin to it. hands n feet freezin, but im ok. giv it a month or so, weather will b better. but its finally great to see snow again after almost 15 yrs.
but we're overprepared for weather, so i dont feel so cold.
but seriously, i dunno where to begin.
theres so much things n so many things tt it makes singapore look like a holiday resort. i felt like i had a very gd holiday for the last 10 yrs. everythin's easy to get, everythin's so easy, basically its provided for u.
went for a lil shoppin, to get couple of things i need, then tt juz struck to me. we had to drive quite a distant to get to places. n these places r all specialized in certain products, meanin if u want to get electronics, u gotta head somewhere else. if u want winter clothes, its somewhere else. n i dont mean another shop. i mean a different place altogether.
things like tt. so i juz dunno where to begin. so many things i wanna say, but i got a writer's block when i try to blog.
anyway, keep an eye on this blog coz lotsa new things will b up. but for now, for those of u livin in singapore, appreciate the weather. seriously. im freezin like never before in this 0 degrees.
k im tired n hungry. i need to go.
hope u guys r alrite n havin fun! mail me everyone! take care
Final Score from St. Jame's Park;
Newcastle United 2
Craig Bellamy (63rd)
Alan Shearer (83rd, pen)
Middlesbrough 1
Boudewijn Zenden (33rd)
okay, juz realised i gotta 'listen' to soccer matches from the internet radio instead of juz watchin on TV at night time.
now i need to find stuff to do durin weekend nights, coz the matches all take place in the mornin or the afternoon here!
but gd win, keepts pressure up both on pool n newcastle.
n shearer's back to scoring.
Newcastle United 2
Craig Bellamy (63rd)
Alan Shearer (83rd, pen)
Middlesbrough 1
Boudewijn Zenden (33rd)
okay, juz realised i gotta 'listen' to soccer matches from the internet radio instead of juz watchin on TV at night time.
now i need to find stuff to do durin weekend nights, coz the matches all take place in the mornin or the afternoon here!
but gd win, keepts pressure up both on pool n newcastle.
n shearer's back to scoring.
Thursday, February 19, 2004
hey guys!
im at narita new tokyo int. airport now.
reached japan in like the shortest time ive ever travelled? juz a lil under 6 hrs.
now juz gotta wait til like 11... tts the longer flight... 12 or 13 hrs, in not sure exactly how long.
anyway, thanx to a whole load of ppl who came to see me off. im real sorry if i couldnt talk long wit u guys n also sorry for makin u guys wait n all.
anyway couple of shoutouts -
junli - k tts officially the best gift ever received in my lifetime period. for u to hav knitted 2 wks n giv it to me, well, i cant come up wit the words to describe my gratitude. its stretchy, warm enough n i think ill really like it!
beks - i havent really talked to u for so long n i am really apologetic tt i didnt get to talk enough while u were at the airport. lemme make it up to u somehow when i come back ya
madddieee... - its ok its ok, i think im comin back sooner than later, so we'll meet quite soon yes?
chahat n srabs - v v nice of u two to come down!
ok, crap, somehow the free internet service prohibits me from checkin my mailbox so can only do tt when i get to naperville.
flight was quite ok... while descending, caught a magnificent view of mt fuji wit the sun startin to rise. juz picture perfect.
kk will get back to u guys when i reach naperville.
remember, ill b 14 hrs behind yes?
im at narita new tokyo int. airport now.
reached japan in like the shortest time ive ever travelled? juz a lil under 6 hrs.
now juz gotta wait til like 11... tts the longer flight... 12 or 13 hrs, in not sure exactly how long.
anyway, thanx to a whole load of ppl who came to see me off. im real sorry if i couldnt talk long wit u guys n also sorry for makin u guys wait n all.
anyway couple of shoutouts -
junli - k tts officially the best gift ever received in my lifetime period. for u to hav knitted 2 wks n giv it to me, well, i cant come up wit the words to describe my gratitude. its stretchy, warm enough n i think ill really like it!
beks - i havent really talked to u for so long n i am really apologetic tt i didnt get to talk enough while u were at the airport. lemme make it up to u somehow when i come back ya
madddieee... - its ok its ok, i think im comin back sooner than later, so we'll meet quite soon yes?
chahat n srabs - v v nice of u two to come down!
ok, crap, somehow the free internet service prohibits me from checkin my mailbox so can only do tt when i get to naperville.
flight was quite ok... while descending, caught a magnificent view of mt fuji wit the sun startin to rise. juz picture perfect.
kk will get back to u guys when i reach naperville.
remember, ill b 14 hrs behind yes?
hey guys...
i guess this is my last entry from singapore.
packings r finally done, or so i think, there'll definately b some last min stuff tt we'll realise the moment we're about to leave.
im freakin tired, sweaty n hungry. gotta eat, shower, shave and get a lil sleep.
couldnt really sleep yesterday prob due to the capuccino tt i had in bk yesterday, which was given for free as hazril n kimberly bought their meals n got the cards or some sort.
met jennifer n nafis durin our time there too.
the phase 2 of the teeth op wasnt much, but the numbness of the upper lip n nose was still somewhat amusing.
soooo.... i'll b freezin in the harsh weather of chicago in the next 30 hrs or so. the fact tt im leavin still hasnt really sunk in yet. probably will when i see my friends in the airport.
whoaa... im already sighin at the freakin long flight. hope 'congo' lasts, i couldnt resist it n started readin already. im already at like a quarter of the book. its freakin interesting.
o well, there's always movies. missed so many gd ones, hope i can catch the good ones in the plane. its a night flight, but i bet i wont b able to sleep. by the time i hit JFK Int, NY, my eyes will b poppin red n i'll b like stoning, like clarisse.
beky beks - thank u for the email, i'll write back to u as soon as i hav time, or if enough time for transit is given, then mayb when im at narita, tokyo.
maddiieee!!! - v nice of u to call me all the way from down under. if ure at the airport, im at T1 ok? prob go in around 2200, hope to catch idol somewhere, hope camile gets in, but tts beside the pt, anyway, juz in case i dont see u, take care n enjoy urself in aussie!
wei fen - one of the best gift received. anythin tt's gotta do wit newcastle united n nice will already b greatly, lemme correct myself, immensely appreciated. the decor of my new room will b so much better wit the big newcastle flag. thank u so so much.
did i forget anyone...? o well, i bet i'll b thinkin bt every single of of u guys while im over the pacific.
anyway, sunny singapore. my home for 11 yrs ++. sure to miss.
i promise ill b back soon if i cant make it on july (god forbid)
u guys work hard, pray for gd A Level results (iskie, remember to icq sms me) and go to NUS or SMU or NTU or wherever u wish to go. hope i get to berkeley, then can say hi to william hung.
yea... erm, wat else.
i guess no more.
o wait, my girl camile sang well last nite!!! woohoo. thank god mat rogers n roman bros screwed their show up.
to b compared to lauryn hill by all three judges is somethin v flattering, but i think they were spot on for tt.
hope she gets in!
anyway, will miss u all. i'll try to get an entry once im at narita.
good bye everyone!
i guess this is my last entry from singapore.
packings r finally done, or so i think, there'll definately b some last min stuff tt we'll realise the moment we're about to leave.
im freakin tired, sweaty n hungry. gotta eat, shower, shave and get a lil sleep.
couldnt really sleep yesterday prob due to the capuccino tt i had in bk yesterday, which was given for free as hazril n kimberly bought their meals n got the cards or some sort.
met jennifer n nafis durin our time there too.
the phase 2 of the teeth op wasnt much, but the numbness of the upper lip n nose was still somewhat amusing.
soooo.... i'll b freezin in the harsh weather of chicago in the next 30 hrs or so. the fact tt im leavin still hasnt really sunk in yet. probably will when i see my friends in the airport.
whoaa... im already sighin at the freakin long flight. hope 'congo' lasts, i couldnt resist it n started readin already. im already at like a quarter of the book. its freakin interesting.
o well, there's always movies. missed so many gd ones, hope i can catch the good ones in the plane. its a night flight, but i bet i wont b able to sleep. by the time i hit JFK Int, NY, my eyes will b poppin red n i'll b like stoning, like clarisse.
beky beks - thank u for the email, i'll write back to u as soon as i hav time, or if enough time for transit is given, then mayb when im at narita, tokyo.
maddiieee!!! - v nice of u to call me all the way from down under. if ure at the airport, im at T1 ok? prob go in around 2200, hope to catch idol somewhere, hope camile gets in, but tts beside the pt, anyway, juz in case i dont see u, take care n enjoy urself in aussie!
wei fen - one of the best gift received. anythin tt's gotta do wit newcastle united n nice will already b greatly, lemme correct myself, immensely appreciated. the decor of my new room will b so much better wit the big newcastle flag. thank u so so much.
did i forget anyone...? o well, i bet i'll b thinkin bt every single of of u guys while im over the pacific.
anyway, sunny singapore. my home for 11 yrs ++. sure to miss.
i promise ill b back soon if i cant make it on july (god forbid)
u guys work hard, pray for gd A Level results (iskie, remember to icq sms me) and go to NUS or SMU or NTU or wherever u wish to go. hope i get to berkeley, then can say hi to william hung.
yea... erm, wat else.
i guess no more.
o wait, my girl camile sang well last nite!!! woohoo. thank god mat rogers n roman bros screwed their show up.
to b compared to lauryn hill by all three judges is somethin v flattering, but i think they were spot on for tt.
hope she gets in!
anyway, will miss u all. i'll try to get an entry once im at narita.
good bye everyone!
Kerry and Edwards fight off close race, Dean opts out
Copyright CNN.com
Wisconsin
Kerry 40%
Edwards 34%
Dean 18%
Kucinich 3%S
Sharpton 2%
Clark 2%
Uncommitted 0%
okie, so i dont need to repeat the fact tt kerry will be challenging bush since howard dean drops out. Edwards seemed to give a surprise challenge to kerry, but i dont think thats enough. unless the unprobable case of edwards gettin all the votes tt were claimed by dean n clark. tt would b v interesting.
it surprises me tt some people are still rooting for clark when he dropped out quite a number of days ago.
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
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Oh, and you can SMS me to this number,
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i tot it would b another 30 min session of my dental appointment.
turned out to be a mini operation tt lasted like 2 hrs.
see, i hav couple of decays tt were v minor, so the docs tt handled me wrote in my file as keep in view. now tt the doc knew tt i was leavin, she suggested i go treat em since in 6 mths, the decay could b quite major. so i told her, go for it! turns out i had to treat like 6 teeth. took couple of x rays, analysed n got my teeth drilled, get the cavity treated. i only had my upper jaw done for today. gotta go back tomorrow. its not complete, but the major ones were done today. since it was quite a mjor thing, the doc gave me several shots of painkillers, so throughout the whole thing, i felt like my whole upper lip was bloated. couldnt really feel my nose n the whole of upper jaw.
i mean, i wanted a break, the headseat wasnt too comfortable, i was movin time to time coz the pressure on my head was v irritating. the doc was audibly hungry n tired, i could hear her stomach growl.
then went to zara to see whether they had smaller fit or shorter sleeve for the jacket tt junwen n junli got me. they didnt, but o well, guess i can fold the sleeve a little, i mean tts wat the guy suggest i do. i think tt guy was tryin to say somethin coz he told me tt if alteration is required, then it would need a week; i dont hav a week, only two more days. n then he asked me like three or four times if i was ever comin back, i told him repeatedly, im not sure, prob not, etc, but he kept repeatin the qtn, so it was kinda weird.
got a blank cd to burn couple more CDs, n got myself a novel which i'll read durin the flight; michael crichton's 'congo', a novel adapted to movie, but never got to watch nor read. since it sounds interestin enough, i got it. i had a dilemma gettin either tt or the novel adaptation of the HBO's 'taken' but i guess i can watch tt series if i get to rent the DVD in US. i think it would b better since the novel is based on the series and the congo based on the book. the original source always seems to b better.
got home, while havin lunch somehow (my mouth was numb coz of the shots i took while at the dentist) some rice slipped outta my mouth while eating. so while havin lunch, finished watchin devdas, which i was watchin since yesterday. i think the whole movie's rather depressing. was v slow n all. but it had quite a storyline, tts for sure. the translations were so high ended, i wonder how ppl understood while listenin in hindi. it was like those words used in literature. but it was quite nice, overall.
then went to meet ina n ninie, acquaintance from QSS n JI, well, now MI. we talked bt how the sch were run, their council projects (their president is the worst one ive ever heard. like, MIA all the time... the most inefficient president ive ever heard of) and bitchin in general. heh, didnt really get to talk to her after QSS so it was quite nice.
met melissa n samantha there as well.
so i guess most of my meetin friends sessions r done. most. there were some tt i wish i could meet but schedule juz dont seem to fit.
i'll do my final piece of packin, then head for part 2 of the op on my teeth and then meet hazril.
two more days.
sigh. im listenin to 'two days in february' by goo goo dolls.
how fitting.
turned out to be a mini operation tt lasted like 2 hrs.
see, i hav couple of decays tt were v minor, so the docs tt handled me wrote in my file as keep in view. now tt the doc knew tt i was leavin, she suggested i go treat em since in 6 mths, the decay could b quite major. so i told her, go for it! turns out i had to treat like 6 teeth. took couple of x rays, analysed n got my teeth drilled, get the cavity treated. i only had my upper jaw done for today. gotta go back tomorrow. its not complete, but the major ones were done today. since it was quite a mjor thing, the doc gave me several shots of painkillers, so throughout the whole thing, i felt like my whole upper lip was bloated. couldnt really feel my nose n the whole of upper jaw.
i mean, i wanted a break, the headseat wasnt too comfortable, i was movin time to time coz the pressure on my head was v irritating. the doc was audibly hungry n tired, i could hear her stomach growl.
then went to zara to see whether they had smaller fit or shorter sleeve for the jacket tt junwen n junli got me. they didnt, but o well, guess i can fold the sleeve a little, i mean tts wat the guy suggest i do. i think tt guy was tryin to say somethin coz he told me tt if alteration is required, then it would need a week; i dont hav a week, only two more days. n then he asked me like three or four times if i was ever comin back, i told him repeatedly, im not sure, prob not, etc, but he kept repeatin the qtn, so it was kinda weird.
got a blank cd to burn couple more CDs, n got myself a novel which i'll read durin the flight; michael crichton's 'congo', a novel adapted to movie, but never got to watch nor read. since it sounds interestin enough, i got it. i had a dilemma gettin either tt or the novel adaptation of the HBO's 'taken' but i guess i can watch tt series if i get to rent the DVD in US. i think it would b better since the novel is based on the series and the congo based on the book. the original source always seems to b better.
got home, while havin lunch somehow (my mouth was numb coz of the shots i took while at the dentist) some rice slipped outta my mouth while eating. so while havin lunch, finished watchin devdas, which i was watchin since yesterday. i think the whole movie's rather depressing. was v slow n all. but it had quite a storyline, tts for sure. the translations were so high ended, i wonder how ppl understood while listenin in hindi. it was like those words used in literature. but it was quite nice, overall.
then went to meet ina n ninie, acquaintance from QSS n JI, well, now MI. we talked bt how the sch were run, their council projects (their president is the worst one ive ever heard. like, MIA all the time... the most inefficient president ive ever heard of) and bitchin in general. heh, didnt really get to talk to her after QSS so it was quite nice.
met melissa n samantha there as well.
so i guess most of my meetin friends sessions r done. most. there were some tt i wish i could meet but schedule juz dont seem to fit.
i'll do my final piece of packin, then head for part 2 of the op on my teeth and then meet hazril.
two more days.
sigh. im listenin to 'two days in february' by goo goo dolls.
how fitting.
soooo...
yesterday was quite fun.
woke up early to finalise most of my packing. emptied the drawers of my desk, so only small stuff left on my table. the rest r books, which i shant bother til i come back to get all my stuff.
went to pick up my passport, which had been extended, prob for the last time, then went to taka to collect hasib's specs and then mom got some stuff for my cousin at OG, then we headed to little india where my aunt was stayin in a hotel there.
by then it was already like 6 plus. i had the cricket/SASA/SA's indian bbq at shafiq's place so i got a cab n went home to take my digicam. traffic was so bad, it was jam everywhere, wit the rush hr n the never finishing construction.
but i got to bishan n wit couple of errors n wrong directions, i was soon at shafiq's place.
i juz ate to satisfy my hunger n then got down to talkin crap n chillin out wit the guys. this was more or less a guy's night, save for lin yan, but she was wit zee all the time.
met a whole lotta ppl ive not met for long time as well as some new guys who were formerly from SAS.
jamal the man! my OG friend from 1st 3 mths was there, mark 'the bitch' panicker, the only non chinese basketballer in SA, vasan, the ever cool jackass, zul, the chipped tooth mat, etc, etc.
its juz great to see em all again n talk a lot of shit, which is never absent when the cricketers meet. devan, julius, shafiq can talk the whole night n u will never be bored, seriously.
but i swear im gonna die of second hand smoking. practically everyone was smokin at least 10 sticks tt night. save for utkarsh, mark, sean and me. and drinkin cans after cans of beer. but not many actually got tt high, so it was alrite. its quite funny seein julius sayin shit when he seemed like he was gone. ahmad was workin tt day, then came later on to eat, smoke n drink when he was enlistin in NS the next day. shafiq also had to get up early coz he's doin relief teachin in SAS from today onwards. haha, those two, i wonder wat they gonna do.
but it was gd. n somehow it was ironic when shafiq was tellin us about when he almost got caught for smokin weed one night n as he was tellin the cops really came by coz ppl livin in the area complained of noise. i mean, it was past 12 already.
shafiq, bein the man tt he is, juz blamed it all on the chinese neighbours around him (the two cops were both malay, so they laughed when shafiq said tt) n juz cautious apology n some inquiry bout his police posting for NS n all, n it was done.
amazing. truly.
but thanx for the night guys, was real fun. one of those days u can juz say whatever shit tt comes to ur mind n still hav a laugh at it.
yesterday was quite fun.
woke up early to finalise most of my packing. emptied the drawers of my desk, so only small stuff left on my table. the rest r books, which i shant bother til i come back to get all my stuff.
went to pick up my passport, which had been extended, prob for the last time, then went to taka to collect hasib's specs and then mom got some stuff for my cousin at OG, then we headed to little india where my aunt was stayin in a hotel there.
by then it was already like 6 plus. i had the cricket/SASA/SA's indian bbq at shafiq's place so i got a cab n went home to take my digicam. traffic was so bad, it was jam everywhere, wit the rush hr n the never finishing construction.
but i got to bishan n wit couple of errors n wrong directions, i was soon at shafiq's place.
i juz ate to satisfy my hunger n then got down to talkin crap n chillin out wit the guys. this was more or less a guy's night, save for lin yan, but she was wit zee all the time.
met a whole lotta ppl ive not met for long time as well as some new guys who were formerly from SAS.
jamal the man! my OG friend from 1st 3 mths was there, mark 'the bitch' panicker, the only non chinese basketballer in SA, vasan, the ever cool jackass, zul, the chipped tooth mat, etc, etc.
its juz great to see em all again n talk a lot of shit, which is never absent when the cricketers meet. devan, julius, shafiq can talk the whole night n u will never be bored, seriously.
but i swear im gonna die of second hand smoking. practically everyone was smokin at least 10 sticks tt night. save for utkarsh, mark, sean and me. and drinkin cans after cans of beer. but not many actually got tt high, so it was alrite. its quite funny seein julius sayin shit when he seemed like he was gone. ahmad was workin tt day, then came later on to eat, smoke n drink when he was enlistin in NS the next day. shafiq also had to get up early coz he's doin relief teachin in SAS from today onwards. haha, those two, i wonder wat they gonna do.
but it was gd. n somehow it was ironic when shafiq was tellin us about when he almost got caught for smokin weed one night n as he was tellin the cops really came by coz ppl livin in the area complained of noise. i mean, it was past 12 already.
shafiq, bein the man tt he is, juz blamed it all on the chinese neighbours around him (the two cops were both malay, so they laughed when shafiq said tt) n juz cautious apology n some inquiry bout his police posting for NS n all, n it was done.
amazing. truly.
but thanx for the night guys, was real fun. one of those days u can juz say whatever shit tt comes to ur mind n still hav a laugh at it.
Sunday, February 15, 2004
ok today's entry would b rather personal.
met up wit my bengali friends on sat afternoon. armaan, nafi, sunny, shuvro n chahat. had lunch at macd n played pool for a while before i had to head off. prob wont b seeing those guys for quite sometime. tho ive known them in a short capacity, they hav welcomed me warmly to their group since we took our O's. they've been hanging around with eachother for very long time and its amazin to think how easily they seemed to accept me as one of their own, when i was very much not, n i mean in a bengali sense. i owe them a great deal for they were the only ones tt made me feel like i was still a bengali, as they too were pretty much like myself, only tt nobody knows unless you get to know em.
yea, then met paulina for dinner. she seemed a lil too quiet, but i guess it was alrite, considerin i dont hav much time left to see her anymore. even if i do come back to singapore, it'd b doubtful if i can see her since she'll b back in indonesia next yr. through the 3 yrs ive known her, she's left a deep impression to me and im very fond of her. is truly a pity i gotta leave at this crucial moment. ill miss her a lot, tts for sure.
somehow or other, i didnt feel tt well after i sent paulina home. the bengali guys asked if i wanted to go china black wit em. as u all know, im not the clubbin kind. so i tot i might as well walk down orchard wit some soul music playin n recollect myself. afterall, i dont think i hav tt many opportunity to b walkin in the middle of the city so late into the night, prob singapore's like the only place tts safe for things like tt. i realised i like walkin in the middle of the night, feelin the breeze on my face n juz think about stuff. after prom nite, we were walkin around orchard till 2 plus, after those numerous parties, i would b walkin to the bus stop or hailin a cab, i dunno if i can do tt in the states. plus, there were things tt were bothering me.
i popped in the alicia keys cd tt i borrowed from wei fen (thanx!) n headed back to orchard. tons on questions were already in my head after i read paulina's letter, which made me realise only then tt i was actually leavin in like 5 days time. went to pacific plaza, saw tt there was a v long queue for china black. met the guys, they lined up, i joined em. i was almost gonna enter when sunny reminded me tt i could not enter a club in three quarters, an ignorance in blessing, i realised afterwards. besides, i wasnt too keen on goin clubbin anyway, i really felt like thinkin bt my probs. so the three quarters was a gd reason for me to embark on my own solo walk around orchard while they were in china black. i popped my alicia keys cd n started thinkin n walkin.
went to borders, they were still open when it was almost 12. since i had finished michael crichton's 'prey' not too long ago, i was really interestin in readin his other bks, such as congo, the andromeda strain, etc etc. the novel version of the HBO hit, 'Taken' really caught my eyes, but as i gotta control my financial outflow, i backed outta buyin a bk. i headed to wisma area.
as i was walkin around without a purpose, i was thinkin about why i had to leave, wat i had to do, wat would happen in the future, etc etc. basically a culmination of thoughts from the incidents tt took place in the recent days. even if i werent thinkin, i juz wanted to be by myself n hav some quality time reflecting.
i'll b leavin a whole bunch of friends tt i made strong ties with in the past 4 years. mayb its another one of those chapter tt i hav to endure. it didnt hit hard when i came from japan coz i was only 8. basically ive been switchin environments every now n then. left japan when i was 8, left the singapore japanese sch in 2.5 yrs to go to UWC, left UWC in 2.5 yrs to go to QSS, spent 4 ys in QSS, then SAJC, tt also ended in 2 yrs n now im movin to a different country, a different environment altogether. but i'll b having a fresh chance at everything all over again. n i hav to b careful not to repeat the mistakes ive made durin my time here. a completely new try. im gonna study consistently, im gonna exercise regularly, be a better person to everyone tt i come across, etc etc. work towards my goals.
whatever the case, there is opportunity to be taken advantage of. even if i am to end up in a community college or some state university. i can work my way up from there if i juz press myself.
im sick n tired of being made to do wat im expected of, so im juz gonna do things my way. one of the restrictions i felt was being bengali n all, since we hav our way of behavin n doin stuff in some ways. since i never grew up around such customs, i think i will b able to experiment a lifestyle on my own. im approachin 20 n i think i know wat i want n how i want them.
im feelin v regretful of the opportunities i didnt seize. but instead of thinkin bt it over n over again, im gonna let the next few yrs be my quest. im tt determined.
throughout the walk, i had a chance to do couple of things tt im known not to do.
i went to a pub along the pubs behind centerpoint. one of the pub was showin a fa cup tie between fulham n west ham. i juz felt like sittin down n watch the gave wit a bottle of liquor. i could hav done it, but i didnt.
at times i was feelin so angry n some of these people juz sittin down n doin nothin were smokin. since so many of my friends smoke too, i would've juz gone ahead n got myself a cigarette n smoke, juz for the kick of it.
i could hav done so many other things, but ultimately i didnt. i didnt do anything. kinda made me feel better later on, as i realised it was my ability to push away temptations tt made me the person i am today. a non-conformist, i dont do things unless there r reasons n purpose behind it. as of the two hour walk tt i had on sat nite, i was ready to chuck away tt very character of mine, juz for the kick of it. could u believe tt? juz 2 hrs n the me i always were would hav been juz blown away.
suddenly i felt gd bt myself after tt. suddenly i started thinkin more logically, optimistically. dropped off 2 bucks to a busker along the underpass from lido to tangs. then i headed to a 7 eleven for a cup of green tea.
i realised theres a 7 eleven like every 50m or so along orchard road. one of those weird things u notice when uve got really nothin to do.
as i was walkin out of the 7 eleven near the thai embassy, a transvestive casually made this remark to me 'you're so cute ah!' i was wearin my headphones so i pretended like i didnt hear his/her comments. i wasnt sure if i should b bothered by tt. honestly, i couldnt b cared.
headed to china black, where i hoped my friends would b finished. was around 2 already. i juz tried to listen more to alicia keys n analyse her success behind 'songs in a minor.' as i was doin tt, i could observe those comin out of china black, close to passin out, shoutin like madman, pukin in a corner, talkin like a big shot on the handphone, swayin from side to side. after seein all the behaviours of these ppl, i suddenly felt glad tt i didnt go in to china black coz i would hav prob gotten more pissed n angry at the cheap thrill tt people seeked. i would b embarassed to b like tt juz for few hours of 'fun.' i dunno how other ppl define clubbin, but im more convinced than ever tt it simply isnt the thing for me.
met candace while i was waiting. i finally got to know the name of the girl tt i met durin the photo shoot for the sch yrbk. she was feelin a lil high, but she knew wat she was doin. it seemed tt we both never got to know of our names n were referrin to eachother somehow by description. i gave her my email add upon her request n she added me on friendster later on in the morning. talked to candace for a while bout why i was leaving n all before the two went back to china black.
since it seemed like my friends were not gonna b comin out anytime soon, i hailed a cab n went home.
'you are beautiful... no matter what they say...'
woke up at nine, didnt really feel too tired considerin i was awake til 3 earlier on. cleared some of my stuff from my room n tried helpin my mom pack.
met koustav n evelyn at 12 at orchard mrt. it was surprisin how some ppl confirmed tt they were comin n assumed it was cancelled juz coz i didnt get back at them. n how some ppl will notify me of their late arrival only minutes before the actual time. n late cancellations n all.
but i think we had a great time in marche. i met the NS guys who i wont see for quite sometime. u guys take care, hopefully ill see u guys soon. for those guys who wanna make it to OCS, well, strive on!
will b meetin some on thursday, before my flight.
walked around taka n lucky plaza before i headed back. i was feelin way too tired after goin out n walkin so much durin the past few days. the continuous wearin on contact lenses was also takin a toll on my eyes, makin it teary n red.
junli n junwen - thanx for the jacket, its really nice.
hui - i'll take the next few days to listen to the CD. i trust your recommendation, i'll try to feel the sounds of the band. n i was quite touched by your words on the letter. thanx you.
at the end of the day, im still feelin like this particular section of sarah mclachlan's 'i will remember you.' it describes my emotions perfectly. ive editted it a little to make it seem personal.
"I'm so tired that I can't sleep
Standing on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how I feel so much yet cannot say a word
I am screaming inside oh I can't be heard"
i feel like im about to repeat a mistake tt i committed a few yrs back. i really want to express how i feel, but it juz isnt the time. hence the expression above.
but as the liberated slave said in gladiator,
not yet.
not yet.
met up wit my bengali friends on sat afternoon. armaan, nafi, sunny, shuvro n chahat. had lunch at macd n played pool for a while before i had to head off. prob wont b seeing those guys for quite sometime. tho ive known them in a short capacity, they hav welcomed me warmly to their group since we took our O's. they've been hanging around with eachother for very long time and its amazin to think how easily they seemed to accept me as one of their own, when i was very much not, n i mean in a bengali sense. i owe them a great deal for they were the only ones tt made me feel like i was still a bengali, as they too were pretty much like myself, only tt nobody knows unless you get to know em.
yea, then met paulina for dinner. she seemed a lil too quiet, but i guess it was alrite, considerin i dont hav much time left to see her anymore. even if i do come back to singapore, it'd b doubtful if i can see her since she'll b back in indonesia next yr. through the 3 yrs ive known her, she's left a deep impression to me and im very fond of her. is truly a pity i gotta leave at this crucial moment. ill miss her a lot, tts for sure.
somehow or other, i didnt feel tt well after i sent paulina home. the bengali guys asked if i wanted to go china black wit em. as u all know, im not the clubbin kind. so i tot i might as well walk down orchard wit some soul music playin n recollect myself. afterall, i dont think i hav tt many opportunity to b walkin in the middle of the city so late into the night, prob singapore's like the only place tts safe for things like tt. i realised i like walkin in the middle of the night, feelin the breeze on my face n juz think about stuff. after prom nite, we were walkin around orchard till 2 plus, after those numerous parties, i would b walkin to the bus stop or hailin a cab, i dunno if i can do tt in the states. plus, there were things tt were bothering me.
i popped in the alicia keys cd tt i borrowed from wei fen (thanx!) n headed back to orchard. tons on questions were already in my head after i read paulina's letter, which made me realise only then tt i was actually leavin in like 5 days time. went to pacific plaza, saw tt there was a v long queue for china black. met the guys, they lined up, i joined em. i was almost gonna enter when sunny reminded me tt i could not enter a club in three quarters, an ignorance in blessing, i realised afterwards. besides, i wasnt too keen on goin clubbin anyway, i really felt like thinkin bt my probs. so the three quarters was a gd reason for me to embark on my own solo walk around orchard while they were in china black. i popped my alicia keys cd n started thinkin n walkin.
went to borders, they were still open when it was almost 12. since i had finished michael crichton's 'prey' not too long ago, i was really interestin in readin his other bks, such as congo, the andromeda strain, etc etc. the novel version of the HBO hit, 'Taken' really caught my eyes, but as i gotta control my financial outflow, i backed outta buyin a bk. i headed to wisma area.
as i was walkin around without a purpose, i was thinkin about why i had to leave, wat i had to do, wat would happen in the future, etc etc. basically a culmination of thoughts from the incidents tt took place in the recent days. even if i werent thinkin, i juz wanted to be by myself n hav some quality time reflecting.
i'll b leavin a whole bunch of friends tt i made strong ties with in the past 4 years. mayb its another one of those chapter tt i hav to endure. it didnt hit hard when i came from japan coz i was only 8. basically ive been switchin environments every now n then. left japan when i was 8, left the singapore japanese sch in 2.5 yrs to go to UWC, left UWC in 2.5 yrs to go to QSS, spent 4 ys in QSS, then SAJC, tt also ended in 2 yrs n now im movin to a different country, a different environment altogether. but i'll b having a fresh chance at everything all over again. n i hav to b careful not to repeat the mistakes ive made durin my time here. a completely new try. im gonna study consistently, im gonna exercise regularly, be a better person to everyone tt i come across, etc etc. work towards my goals.
whatever the case, there is opportunity to be taken advantage of. even if i am to end up in a community college or some state university. i can work my way up from there if i juz press myself.
im sick n tired of being made to do wat im expected of, so im juz gonna do things my way. one of the restrictions i felt was being bengali n all, since we hav our way of behavin n doin stuff in some ways. since i never grew up around such customs, i think i will b able to experiment a lifestyle on my own. im approachin 20 n i think i know wat i want n how i want them.
im feelin v regretful of the opportunities i didnt seize. but instead of thinkin bt it over n over again, im gonna let the next few yrs be my quest. im tt determined.
throughout the walk, i had a chance to do couple of things tt im known not to do.
i went to a pub along the pubs behind centerpoint. one of the pub was showin a fa cup tie between fulham n west ham. i juz felt like sittin down n watch the gave wit a bottle of liquor. i could hav done it, but i didnt.
at times i was feelin so angry n some of these people juz sittin down n doin nothin were smokin. since so many of my friends smoke too, i would've juz gone ahead n got myself a cigarette n smoke, juz for the kick of it.
i could hav done so many other things, but ultimately i didnt. i didnt do anything. kinda made me feel better later on, as i realised it was my ability to push away temptations tt made me the person i am today. a non-conformist, i dont do things unless there r reasons n purpose behind it. as of the two hour walk tt i had on sat nite, i was ready to chuck away tt very character of mine, juz for the kick of it. could u believe tt? juz 2 hrs n the me i always were would hav been juz blown away.
suddenly i felt gd bt myself after tt. suddenly i started thinkin more logically, optimistically. dropped off 2 bucks to a busker along the underpass from lido to tangs. then i headed to a 7 eleven for a cup of green tea.
i realised theres a 7 eleven like every 50m or so along orchard road. one of those weird things u notice when uve got really nothin to do.
as i was walkin out of the 7 eleven near the thai embassy, a transvestive casually made this remark to me 'you're so cute ah!' i was wearin my headphones so i pretended like i didnt hear his/her comments. i wasnt sure if i should b bothered by tt. honestly, i couldnt b cared.
headed to china black, where i hoped my friends would b finished. was around 2 already. i juz tried to listen more to alicia keys n analyse her success behind 'songs in a minor.' as i was doin tt, i could observe those comin out of china black, close to passin out, shoutin like madman, pukin in a corner, talkin like a big shot on the handphone, swayin from side to side. after seein all the behaviours of these ppl, i suddenly felt glad tt i didnt go in to china black coz i would hav prob gotten more pissed n angry at the cheap thrill tt people seeked. i would b embarassed to b like tt juz for few hours of 'fun.' i dunno how other ppl define clubbin, but im more convinced than ever tt it simply isnt the thing for me.
met candace while i was waiting. i finally got to know the name of the girl tt i met durin the photo shoot for the sch yrbk. she was feelin a lil high, but she knew wat she was doin. it seemed tt we both never got to know of our names n were referrin to eachother somehow by description. i gave her my email add upon her request n she added me on friendster later on in the morning. talked to candace for a while bout why i was leaving n all before the two went back to china black.
since it seemed like my friends were not gonna b comin out anytime soon, i hailed a cab n went home.
'you are beautiful... no matter what they say...'
woke up at nine, didnt really feel too tired considerin i was awake til 3 earlier on. cleared some of my stuff from my room n tried helpin my mom pack.
met koustav n evelyn at 12 at orchard mrt. it was surprisin how some ppl confirmed tt they were comin n assumed it was cancelled juz coz i didnt get back at them. n how some ppl will notify me of their late arrival only minutes before the actual time. n late cancellations n all.
but i think we had a great time in marche. i met the NS guys who i wont see for quite sometime. u guys take care, hopefully ill see u guys soon. for those guys who wanna make it to OCS, well, strive on!
will b meetin some on thursday, before my flight.
walked around taka n lucky plaza before i headed back. i was feelin way too tired after goin out n walkin so much durin the past few days. the continuous wearin on contact lenses was also takin a toll on my eyes, makin it teary n red.
junli n junwen - thanx for the jacket, its really nice.
hui - i'll take the next few days to listen to the CD. i trust your recommendation, i'll try to feel the sounds of the band. n i was quite touched by your words on the letter. thanx you.
at the end of the day, im still feelin like this particular section of sarah mclachlan's 'i will remember you.' it describes my emotions perfectly. ive editted it a little to make it seem personal.
"I'm so tired that I can't sleep
Standing on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how I feel so much yet cannot say a word
I am screaming inside oh I can't be heard"
i feel like im about to repeat a mistake tt i committed a few yrs back. i really want to express how i feel, but it juz isnt the time. hence the expression above.
but as the liberated slave said in gladiator,
not yet.
not yet.
Saturday, February 14, 2004
Friday, February 13, 2004
if u keep listenin to the song tts playing, ure gonna come across this bit where Zach de La Rocha, the lead vocalist, goes;
WAKE UP! WAKE UP!! WAKE UP!!! WAKE UP!!!!
WAKE UP! WAKE UP!! WAKE UP!!! WAKE UP!!!!
my favourite bit of the song, really. kicks up the spirit, non?
n yes, the song name is fittingly titled 'Wake Up.'
WAKE UP! WAKE UP!! WAKE UP!!! WAKE UP!!!!
WAKE UP! WAKE UP!! WAKE UP!!! WAKE UP!!!!
my favourite bit of the song, really. kicks up the spirit, non?
n yes, the song name is fittingly titled 'Wake Up.'
Thursday, February 12, 2004
k im gonna refute all those claims to get william hung back on idol.
yes, im one of those tt think he was funny, cute and whatever.
but guys, open ur eyes, this is a show to create pop singers who will earn millions of dollars as a result.
u seriously arent thinkin of depriving someone else who can 'sing' of their shot at bein an artist are u?
i mean, if william can be a star coz of his honesty, uniqueness, yada yada yada, then im sure the student council can go forward and get ourselves a recordin contract coz of our up beat spirit n the never diminishing passion.
n for christ's sake, its AMERICAN idol... i read the sms on the show n i read sms like 'william is our american idol!' n im like wat the hell do u know about definin 'american idol'??? send some high spirited ah beng who sings like william hung n send him in as a representative from singapore idol. n u'll see wat happens. similar to how the phua chu kang thing might hav misrepresented singaporeans in amazin race.
anywayyy...
yea, i guessed it right, fantasia n diana got through. those two shone from the rest, thats for sure. n as simon says, u can really tell fantasia's gonna b something. a successor to macy gray? heh...
n next week will b wat ive been waiting for!!! camile velasco!!! tt cutie from hawaii straight away caught my eyes in the auditions, her smile, beautiful hair, wonderful eyes... a perfect eye candy. wait, lemme get a pic of her here...
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aaahhh.... yes yes. tts camile baby. she reminds me of someone wit tt eyes n smile. prob juz my imagination.
but then, her group's got the toughest competition yet. seriously dont think she'll make it coz after the auditions, she's nowhere to be seen. on the other hand, her group mates, the roman brothers, matthew and briana hav been gettin more attention. plus they all sing good. so prob bye bye camile, but who knows, she might put up a surprise show next wk.
yes, im one of those tt think he was funny, cute and whatever.
but guys, open ur eyes, this is a show to create pop singers who will earn millions of dollars as a result.
u seriously arent thinkin of depriving someone else who can 'sing' of their shot at bein an artist are u?
i mean, if william can be a star coz of his honesty, uniqueness, yada yada yada, then im sure the student council can go forward and get ourselves a recordin contract coz of our up beat spirit n the never diminishing passion.
n for christ's sake, its AMERICAN idol... i read the sms on the show n i read sms like 'william is our american idol!' n im like wat the hell do u know about definin 'american idol'??? send some high spirited ah beng who sings like william hung n send him in as a representative from singapore idol. n u'll see wat happens. similar to how the phua chu kang thing might hav misrepresented singaporeans in amazin race.
anywayyy...
yea, i guessed it right, fantasia n diana got through. those two shone from the rest, thats for sure. n as simon says, u can really tell fantasia's gonna b something. a successor to macy gray? heh...
n next week will b wat ive been waiting for!!! camile velasco!!! tt cutie from hawaii straight away caught my eyes in the auditions, her smile, beautiful hair, wonderful eyes... a perfect eye candy. wait, lemme get a pic of her here...
Copyright Fox Networks/American Idol
aaahhh.... yes yes. tts camile baby. she reminds me of someone wit tt eyes n smile. prob juz my imagination.
but then, her group's got the toughest competition yet. seriously dont think she'll make it coz after the auditions, she's nowhere to be seen. on the other hand, her group mates, the roman brothers, matthew and briana hav been gettin more attention. plus they all sing good. so prob bye bye camile, but who knows, she might put up a surprise show next wk.
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
Final Score from Ewood Park;
Blackburn Rovers 1
Jonathan Stead (85th)
Newcastle United 1
Craig Bellamy (52nd)
dammit, another late equaliser. now we gotta be careful coz we're on level wit pool on gd as well.
anyway, bellamy's back! n scoring too! should hav more attacking options now.
souness claimed he saw the young alan shearer in stead. hope he's wrong. blackburn can be lethal if they wish to.
man utd lost.... heh, their defence is all over now tt rio's not playin...
Blackburn Rovers 1
Jonathan Stead (85th)
Newcastle United 1
Craig Bellamy (52nd)
dammit, another late equaliser. now we gotta be careful coz we're on level wit pool on gd as well.
anyway, bellamy's back! n scoring too! should hav more attacking options now.
souness claimed he saw the young alan shearer in stead. hope he's wrong. blackburn can be lethal if they wish to.
man utd lost.... heh, their defence is all over now tt rio's not playin...
Kerry sweeps South, Clark to pull out
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Results
Tennessee
Kerry 41%
Edwards 26%
Clark 23%
Dean 4%
Sharpton 2%
Kucinich 1%
Virginia
Kerry 52%
Edwards 27%
Clark 9%
Dean 7%
Sharpton 3%
Kucinich 1%
So its pretty clear Kerry's representing the Democrats come november. I think he will put up a good fight against Bush.
Our four star ex-NATO supreme allied commander, General Wesley Clark is pulling out. oh well, i guess he too realises theres no point fighting anymore. the race is clear cut. but its been a great ride i guess. now lets juz hope bush gets out of the white house.
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
weird weird...
i actually wanted to write down about this dream that i had few weeks back. i thought it was one of those random dreams where u do stuff that isnt probable. in that dream, i dreamt of three situations. coz i hav difficulty sleeping, i tend to wake up suddenly in the middle of the night, so the dream is stopped abruptly. first case, i was talking to lorraine, whom i met on fri. then second one, talkin to jennifer, who ive been meetin up rather more often than it used to be. the third person was my ex qss classmate and fellow saint, Jonas.
the reason y i said tt was improbably was coz the last time i actually went out wit him was all the way back in sec 4. although we entered the same JC n all, we never actually sat down n talked for a long long time. in that dream, the only things i can gather was tt i was talkin to him in a cafe like place and telling him bout somebody. im not gonna go into that, coz i cant remember exactly who it was. so when i woke up, i was like, hmm, that cant happen, i havent seen him outside in a long long while. so i thought it was one of those weird dreams i have time to time.
turns out, it was a case of deja vu, proven yesterday.
i dropped by to qss to meet my teachers n tell em that i was goin off. kind of like a gd bye thingie. then jonas, jenn n me went off to hv. jenn met kwee yong n another friend n went back. so jonas took me to this ice cream place behind hv, which was v gd. then we sat down n talked all things, like old times. then it suddenly got personal, we were talkin bt people, relationships, thoughts, etc, etc. n suddenly it occured, wait, wasnt this wat i dreamt about last wk? suddenly i was feelin so weird.
ive had several cases of deja vu, more often than a lot of people i think. but this is one of the most weird one yet. there would b a time where im sittin in the bus which bunch of friends tellin em somethin n i'd suddenly stop coz i envisioned tt scene before, there would b instances where im sittin in the caf in a particular position n see specific people i see walkin past me or somethin n suddenly tt scene is so familiar, even if i do not know the individuals involved. so many cases.
not gonna say ive got a premonition power, but it is weird enough, to come across deja vu so often.
there's one thing i dreamt about tt i wish would take place in real life, but hasnt happened yet. i guess when u want it to happen, it doesnt happen. it has to get u by surprise.
now... for the more serious topic..
chahats back... in case u dunno who she is, she's a gd friend of mine whos also bengali. her mom n my mom r like best friends. she was from PJ, and was holidayin in bangladesh for the past few weeks. so she's back n we're smsin or chattin on the net as usual. so happened tt she was tellin me bt the ppl tt she comes across n this particular line caught my eyes. she was sayin she finds it difficult to tell which of the guys come forward to get to know her without a motive. now thats food for thought. true, for girls, i guess almost every guy gets to know u wit an intention, i mean, how many people come across u for the pure reason of bein a friend? there has got to be some motive behind. so she was sayin bout the guys she met in sch. i gather from previous conversations tt she was quite a celebrity in PJ. n also assumin from the way she looks, i guess tons of guys fell for her. so i dont find it surprisin to hear those words from her. but then after she said tt, i kinda started questionin bout the people i know too. obviously, i bet there r some who got to know me coz i was a councillor/japanese speakin/bengali/ (i wont say it myself, but since people tell me) gd lookin. then comes the next thing; so some of the so called 'friends' i made, r they really friends or mere acquaintance who just wanna get to know me coz of my looks? that kinda made me shudder in disappointment. how would u feel when u found out some people befriended u purely coz of ur looks n they dont giv a damn wat kinda person u r? i know i know, this happens all the time, but i wanna make a pt here.
i mean, take for example, i met kwee yong yesterday rite, she told me one of her classmates was in SA first three months while i was involved in orientation. tt friend supposedly claimed tt she thought i was gd lookin n hoped tt i would talk to her or somethin. that makes me feel like sayin, is there all there is about me? ok fine, sorry i didnt get to talk to u, but dont talk as if tts my fault. how am i supposed to know when there r like so many people while im handlin orientation games or whatever. i cant b talkin to every person i come across.
tts not the only case, whenever someone tells me tt their friend knows who i am or somethin, all they mention is how i look. they think i look eurasian/bollywood actor/jewish (seriously, wat the hell? hav they ever seen a jewish person?) /brazilian/portuguese/whatever. i dont care! but dont make me sound like there's all there's to me! coz they talk like tts the only thing tt matters.
another thing, juz coz of the way i look, people assume my behavior. most get the idea tt im a hard core party person, ultimately flirtacious, very easy goin n a smooth talker. so they come across me as though i am actually that, when i am soooo not.
come on, didnt u all learn not to judge the book by the cover?
im probably like the last person u would see in a club or somethin.
dont expect me to be wat u think i am when u dont even know me, aight?
n i'll b quite disappointed n let down if i consider u my friend n all u care is havin a gd lookin person u know in person. im more than that, give me some credit, im a person too. plz kindly go away if ure one of em. i might as well tell u to fuck off when i find out tt ure one of them.
yea, i know it sounds all sensitive groanin and moaning n complaining, n so on n so on. but im sick of all this n afterall, its my blog. im not afraid to say wat i want. in fact, im entitled to say wat i want. if i realise or am convinced im wrong, then ill apologise. wat r u gonna do even if u dont agree? ive got a different opinion than urs, is there a problem? is it a crime to say stuff that u dont agree wit? dont juz tell me to stop moanin or somethin, convince me tt im wrong if u believe so. just casually commenting is easy, but hav u got arguments to say tt wat im sayin is not correct? (some of u know its true) ive seen enough cases tt convince me to come up wit the things i wrote above n its not based on handful of incidents but im talkin bout the culmination of the events of the past 6 yrs of my sch life. so dont tell me im biased. i might be, but these r the very comments ive heard from ppl i know.
i actually wanted to write down about this dream that i had few weeks back. i thought it was one of those random dreams where u do stuff that isnt probable. in that dream, i dreamt of three situations. coz i hav difficulty sleeping, i tend to wake up suddenly in the middle of the night, so the dream is stopped abruptly. first case, i was talking to lorraine, whom i met on fri. then second one, talkin to jennifer, who ive been meetin up rather more often than it used to be. the third person was my ex qss classmate and fellow saint, Jonas.
the reason y i said tt was improbably was coz the last time i actually went out wit him was all the way back in sec 4. although we entered the same JC n all, we never actually sat down n talked for a long long time. in that dream, the only things i can gather was tt i was talkin to him in a cafe like place and telling him bout somebody. im not gonna go into that, coz i cant remember exactly who it was. so when i woke up, i was like, hmm, that cant happen, i havent seen him outside in a long long while. so i thought it was one of those weird dreams i have time to time.
turns out, it was a case of deja vu, proven yesterday.
i dropped by to qss to meet my teachers n tell em that i was goin off. kind of like a gd bye thingie. then jonas, jenn n me went off to hv. jenn met kwee yong n another friend n went back. so jonas took me to this ice cream place behind hv, which was v gd. then we sat down n talked all things, like old times. then it suddenly got personal, we were talkin bt people, relationships, thoughts, etc, etc. n suddenly it occured, wait, wasnt this wat i dreamt about last wk? suddenly i was feelin so weird.
ive had several cases of deja vu, more often than a lot of people i think. but this is one of the most weird one yet. there would b a time where im sittin in the bus which bunch of friends tellin em somethin n i'd suddenly stop coz i envisioned tt scene before, there would b instances where im sittin in the caf in a particular position n see specific people i see walkin past me or somethin n suddenly tt scene is so familiar, even if i do not know the individuals involved. so many cases.
not gonna say ive got a premonition power, but it is weird enough, to come across deja vu so often.
there's one thing i dreamt about tt i wish would take place in real life, but hasnt happened yet. i guess when u want it to happen, it doesnt happen. it has to get u by surprise.
now... for the more serious topic..
chahats back... in case u dunno who she is, she's a gd friend of mine whos also bengali. her mom n my mom r like best friends. she was from PJ, and was holidayin in bangladesh for the past few weeks. so she's back n we're smsin or chattin on the net as usual. so happened tt she was tellin me bt the ppl tt she comes across n this particular line caught my eyes. she was sayin she finds it difficult to tell which of the guys come forward to get to know her without a motive. now thats food for thought. true, for girls, i guess almost every guy gets to know u wit an intention, i mean, how many people come across u for the pure reason of bein a friend? there has got to be some motive behind. so she was sayin bout the guys she met in sch. i gather from previous conversations tt she was quite a celebrity in PJ. n also assumin from the way she looks, i guess tons of guys fell for her. so i dont find it surprisin to hear those words from her. but then after she said tt, i kinda started questionin bout the people i know too. obviously, i bet there r some who got to know me coz i was a councillor/japanese speakin/bengali/ (i wont say it myself, but since people tell me) gd lookin. then comes the next thing; so some of the so called 'friends' i made, r they really friends or mere acquaintance who just wanna get to know me coz of my looks? that kinda made me shudder in disappointment. how would u feel when u found out some people befriended u purely coz of ur looks n they dont giv a damn wat kinda person u r? i know i know, this happens all the time, but i wanna make a pt here.
i mean, take for example, i met kwee yong yesterday rite, she told me one of her classmates was in SA first three months while i was involved in orientation. tt friend supposedly claimed tt she thought i was gd lookin n hoped tt i would talk to her or somethin. that makes me feel like sayin, is there all there is about me? ok fine, sorry i didnt get to talk to u, but dont talk as if tts my fault. how am i supposed to know when there r like so many people while im handlin orientation games or whatever. i cant b talkin to every person i come across.
tts not the only case, whenever someone tells me tt their friend knows who i am or somethin, all they mention is how i look. they think i look eurasian/bollywood actor/jewish (seriously, wat the hell? hav they ever seen a jewish person?) /brazilian/portuguese/whatever. i dont care! but dont make me sound like there's all there's to me! coz they talk like tts the only thing tt matters.
another thing, juz coz of the way i look, people assume my behavior. most get the idea tt im a hard core party person, ultimately flirtacious, very easy goin n a smooth talker. so they come across me as though i am actually that, when i am soooo not.
come on, didnt u all learn not to judge the book by the cover?
im probably like the last person u would see in a club or somethin.
dont expect me to be wat u think i am when u dont even know me, aight?
n i'll b quite disappointed n let down if i consider u my friend n all u care is havin a gd lookin person u know in person. im more than that, give me some credit, im a person too. plz kindly go away if ure one of em. i might as well tell u to fuck off when i find out tt ure one of them.
yea, i know it sounds all sensitive groanin and moaning n complaining, n so on n so on. but im sick of all this n afterall, its my blog. im not afraid to say wat i want. in fact, im entitled to say wat i want. if i realise or am convinced im wrong, then ill apologise. wat r u gonna do even if u dont agree? ive got a different opinion than urs, is there a problem? is it a crime to say stuff that u dont agree wit? dont juz tell me to stop moanin or somethin, convince me tt im wrong if u believe so. just casually commenting is easy, but hav u got arguments to say tt wat im sayin is not correct? (some of u know its true) ive seen enough cases tt convince me to come up wit the things i wrote above n its not based on handful of incidents but im talkin bout the culmination of the events of the past 6 yrs of my sch life. so dont tell me im biased. i might be, but these r the very comments ive heard from ppl i know.
ever felt how it feels like when someone u thought you knew shows a side of themselves that catches you by surprise, or in this case, confusion?
suddenly makes u think like tt person is someone u never knew at all. its kind of a weird feeling.
so i look in your direction, but you pay me no attention, do you.
suddenly makes u think like tt person is someone u never knew at all. its kind of a weird feeling.
so i look in your direction, but you pay me no attention, do you.
Monday, February 09, 2004
grammys....
so beyonce joins the likes of lauryn hill, alicia keys, norah jones in the recent successes of female singers. somehow i never got used to that yet. sure beyonce is good, but artists such as keys and jones were on a different level altogether. its like, lauryn hill emulated; out from a former group, then make it on your own.
big congrats goes to outkast! heeeeaaayy.. yeaaa....
but i think the awards show was a highlight of fashion disaster. aguilera was totally off, bad hair, bad dress n when they were having a huge funk performance, my god, bunch of people in orange striped clothes, green suits, etc. but i definately liked it, if tts wats funk is about, then i think im gonna be listenin to a whole lotta funk pretty soon.
white stripes performance was awesome. i thought there would be another case of boob show coz meg white's strap slid from her shoulders and if she had kept drummin, her top would hav fallen off. but other than tt, jack white rock.
sting n sean paul's performance was not really necessary. prob due to tech prob. sean paul's raggae didnt come out well. sting should hav just left it at the beatles tribute.
sad audioslave didnt get rock album of the year. had to go to foo fighters.
but overall, i think this yr was more about the janet jackson scandal n tributes to oldies. i mean, its only coz these legends r dyin tt they're nominated for some song tt was unreleased during their time. juz coz they're dead n they release it now, they're gd. tt doesnt justify the standard of the awards. its awarded to hits/successful songs, not some song which becomes popular coz of the artists' legacy and as a pity. tts juz wrong. i dont think they were fitful winners at all.
but then again, i could go on about whole lotta artists' integrity. how cry me a river is more popular coz its like justin tryin to get back at britney and how christina's successive hits are popular juz coz its sung by christina, etc, etc, etc, etc, etc.
yea i said it.
anyway, the way they played senorita yesterday, well, thats how tt song should b played. best version so far. giv it a southern funk feel, then the song sounds oh so well.
so beyonce joins the likes of lauryn hill, alicia keys, norah jones in the recent successes of female singers. somehow i never got used to that yet. sure beyonce is good, but artists such as keys and jones were on a different level altogether. its like, lauryn hill emulated; out from a former group, then make it on your own.
big congrats goes to outkast! heeeeaaayy.. yeaaa....
but i think the awards show was a highlight of fashion disaster. aguilera was totally off, bad hair, bad dress n when they were having a huge funk performance, my god, bunch of people in orange striped clothes, green suits, etc. but i definately liked it, if tts wats funk is about, then i think im gonna be listenin to a whole lotta funk pretty soon.
white stripes performance was awesome. i thought there would be another case of boob show coz meg white's strap slid from her shoulders and if she had kept drummin, her top would hav fallen off. but other than tt, jack white rock.
sting n sean paul's performance was not really necessary. prob due to tech prob. sean paul's raggae didnt come out well. sting should hav just left it at the beatles tribute.
sad audioslave didnt get rock album of the year. had to go to foo fighters.
but overall, i think this yr was more about the janet jackson scandal n tributes to oldies. i mean, its only coz these legends r dyin tt they're nominated for some song tt was unreleased during their time. juz coz they're dead n they release it now, they're gd. tt doesnt justify the standard of the awards. its awarded to hits/successful songs, not some song which becomes popular coz of the artists' legacy and as a pity. tts juz wrong. i dont think they were fitful winners at all.
but then again, i could go on about whole lotta artists' integrity. how cry me a river is more popular coz its like justin tryin to get back at britney and how christina's successive hits are popular juz coz its sung by christina, etc, etc, etc, etc, etc.
yea i said it.
anyway, the way they played senorita yesterday, well, thats how tt song should b played. best version so far. giv it a southern funk feel, then the song sounds oh so well.
man... things r so fucked up right now.
im barely keepin my temper gettin outta hand.
its like im dependin on audioslave n rage against the machine almost all the time like medication, anti-temperament kinda drug.
i kinda understand y its such a need to get rid of my bangladeshi passport as soon as possible. seriously. the embassy's so fucked up. i dont wanna go on, its too much of a torture.
anyway...
except for some incidents, everything else is all well.
friday... met jonas. i asked him if he could pass me his computing n FM notes... i'll need em to study til i wait for uni to begin in september. i mean, computin covers C++ and visual basic, which im learnin anyway, so the notes will help accelerate the learning, i should not hav any probs. as for FM, its juz to make my job easier in uni. i mean MC covers the first yr of my maths relatively well. if FM kinda touches on NUS engineerin maths for freshmen, think about how much more it covers in terms of US engineerin math. boy, if i use the computin n FM notes like A Level prep, i think i will hav a very easy time for the first two years in uni. im excited. no doubt, my grades would b gd then. if i maintain good GPA, then, well, hello ivy league. im gonna transfer to stanford, MIT or princeton for sure.
yea, definately everythin's gd.
ya, so had lunch wit jonas, talkin bt whole lotta stuff. we havent done tt since our days as classmates in queensway. then i was thinkin of meetin jennifer, also formerly of queensway, but she said she wanted to go to ngee ann poly's open house. since i hav quite a number of friends there, i tot i might as well drop by. met sean, lorraine, hazril, kim. went to starbucks later on juz for talk. was quite gd day then.
sat... went to take passport pic for extension, then in the evenin, met junli n junwen for dinner. went to tawseef's place after tt. kinda felt guilty when i found out nabil went to tawseef's place juz to meet me, when he had a party somewhere else. had i known, i would've been there straight away.
sun... meetin classmates, which turned out to b only 5, coz many assumed it was cancelled coz i didnt call em on sat. i was like, huh... if i told em on fri to meet me at 12 at orchard, how can they 'assume' its cancelled. at least they could msg or call me to confirm instead of juz assumin like tt. o well, fortunately the 4 who came was ppl i regularly talk to, if not, on a almost all the time basis, so the lunch was really entertaining. good food, funny stories, u cant ask for more.
thanks zee, sunny, mel n arvin for the gift. u guys really shouldnt hav.
okie, now for the serious discussion.
am i so appealing to guys? lemme correct myself, gays.
two incidents took place in a space of two days.
1. air conditionin ppl came to fix my leakin aircon on sat. i was in my bro's room listenin n watchin music videos tt i downloaded. then, the guy knocks on my door. i presumed they were done n they juz wanted to tell me tt. then the guy goes like he has a huge favour for me. i tot he wanted my help since they were carryin a lot of stuff. then wat he said struck me by surprise. 'erm, can i take a photo of u?' i was like... huh?? supposedly, n i say, supposedly, they think im damn gd lookin n they wanted to show a pic of me to their friend to see what he/she (they didnt say) thought. since ive seen this particular guy come service couple of times, i tot there wouldnt b any danger, told em jus dont spread around to some weird agencies. then they were like, ooh, of cuz not. now tt im thinkin bt it, is tt the reason y he kept comin over to come to my place...?
2. before i had lunch wit my classmates, zee n i walked from orchard mrt to fish n co next to park mall. sunny, mel n arvin were gonna meet us there. when we reached, we found out they werent there yet. so we took a seat. i looked into fish n co n there were couple of guys starin at me. i turned away, thinkin it was juz coincidence. then while i was talkin to zee, i noticed they were still starin at me. i tot it was juz coz i was wearin a newcastle jersey n mayb they hated newcastle or somethin. then, the bunch came out n sat in the outside area. they sat, continued to look at me, but this time smilin. i kinda grew uncomfortable n juz flipped through a copy of TIMES i had. then some muscular guy wearin bright orange shirt was walkin towards em. seems the bunch were waitin for him. then, a surprise. the orange guy walked up to one of the guys sittin n kissed him on the cheek, so casually. then the guy sat down n joined the rest in lookin at me. fortunately the rest came soon n we went in, only to be told to wait while they found a table for 5. then we were waitin inside fish n co, but my classmates also saw tt they were now lookin into the restaurant.
i hav nothin against ppl who r gay. im open to knowin all kinda ppl. juz, im not gay. n pls dont approach me thinkin i would wanna consider them or not. tts juz out of the question.
so im appealin to gays than girls now? boy hav i got a problem. so my friends who told me tt i was pretty wasnt jokin. dammit. this is quite freaky...!
im barely keepin my temper gettin outta hand.
its like im dependin on audioslave n rage against the machine almost all the time like medication, anti-temperament kinda drug.
i kinda understand y its such a need to get rid of my bangladeshi passport as soon as possible. seriously. the embassy's so fucked up. i dont wanna go on, its too much of a torture.
anyway...
except for some incidents, everything else is all well.
friday... met jonas. i asked him if he could pass me his computing n FM notes... i'll need em to study til i wait for uni to begin in september. i mean, computin covers C++ and visual basic, which im learnin anyway, so the notes will help accelerate the learning, i should not hav any probs. as for FM, its juz to make my job easier in uni. i mean MC covers the first yr of my maths relatively well. if FM kinda touches on NUS engineerin maths for freshmen, think about how much more it covers in terms of US engineerin math. boy, if i use the computin n FM notes like A Level prep, i think i will hav a very easy time for the first two years in uni. im excited. no doubt, my grades would b gd then. if i maintain good GPA, then, well, hello ivy league. im gonna transfer to stanford, MIT or princeton for sure.
yea, definately everythin's gd.
ya, so had lunch wit jonas, talkin bt whole lotta stuff. we havent done tt since our days as classmates in queensway. then i was thinkin of meetin jennifer, also formerly of queensway, but she said she wanted to go to ngee ann poly's open house. since i hav quite a number of friends there, i tot i might as well drop by. met sean, lorraine, hazril, kim. went to starbucks later on juz for talk. was quite gd day then.
sat... went to take passport pic for extension, then in the evenin, met junli n junwen for dinner. went to tawseef's place after tt. kinda felt guilty when i found out nabil went to tawseef's place juz to meet me, when he had a party somewhere else. had i known, i would've been there straight away.
sun... meetin classmates, which turned out to b only 5, coz many assumed it was cancelled coz i didnt call em on sat. i was like, huh... if i told em on fri to meet me at 12 at orchard, how can they 'assume' its cancelled. at least they could msg or call me to confirm instead of juz assumin like tt. o well, fortunately the 4 who came was ppl i regularly talk to, if not, on a almost all the time basis, so the lunch was really entertaining. good food, funny stories, u cant ask for more.
thanks zee, sunny, mel n arvin for the gift. u guys really shouldnt hav.
okie, now for the serious discussion.
am i so appealing to guys? lemme correct myself, gays.
two incidents took place in a space of two days.
1. air conditionin ppl came to fix my leakin aircon on sat. i was in my bro's room listenin n watchin music videos tt i downloaded. then, the guy knocks on my door. i presumed they were done n they juz wanted to tell me tt. then the guy goes like he has a huge favour for me. i tot he wanted my help since they were carryin a lot of stuff. then wat he said struck me by surprise. 'erm, can i take a photo of u?' i was like... huh?? supposedly, n i say, supposedly, they think im damn gd lookin n they wanted to show a pic of me to their friend to see what he/she (they didnt say) thought. since ive seen this particular guy come service couple of times, i tot there wouldnt b any danger, told em jus dont spread around to some weird agencies. then they were like, ooh, of cuz not. now tt im thinkin bt it, is tt the reason y he kept comin over to come to my place...?
2. before i had lunch wit my classmates, zee n i walked from orchard mrt to fish n co next to park mall. sunny, mel n arvin were gonna meet us there. when we reached, we found out they werent there yet. so we took a seat. i looked into fish n co n there were couple of guys starin at me. i turned away, thinkin it was juz coincidence. then while i was talkin to zee, i noticed they were still starin at me. i tot it was juz coz i was wearin a newcastle jersey n mayb they hated newcastle or somethin. then, the bunch came out n sat in the outside area. they sat, continued to look at me, but this time smilin. i kinda grew uncomfortable n juz flipped through a copy of TIMES i had. then some muscular guy wearin bright orange shirt was walkin towards em. seems the bunch were waitin for him. then, a surprise. the orange guy walked up to one of the guys sittin n kissed him on the cheek, so casually. then the guy sat down n joined the rest in lookin at me. fortunately the rest came soon n we went in, only to be told to wait while they found a table for 5. then we were waitin inside fish n co, but my classmates also saw tt they were now lookin into the restaurant.
i hav nothin against ppl who r gay. im open to knowin all kinda ppl. juz, im not gay. n pls dont approach me thinkin i would wanna consider them or not. tts juz out of the question.
so im appealin to gays than girls now? boy hav i got a problem. so my friends who told me tt i was pretty wasnt jokin. dammit. this is quite freaky...!
Sunday, February 08, 2004
John Kerry continues to march his way through Maine, Michigan & Washington
Copyright AP Photos
The Results
Maine
Kerry 45%
Dean 26%
Kucinich 16%
Edwards 8%
Clark 4%
Sharpton 0%
Michigan
Kerry 52%
Dean 17%
Edwards 13%
Sharpton 7%
Clark 7%
Kucinich 3%
Washington
Kerry 49%
Dean 30%
Kucinich 8%
Edwards 7%
Clark 3%
Sharpton 0%
Saturday, February 07, 2004
Final Score from St. James' Park;
Newcastle United 3
Shola Ameobi (30th)
Gerry Taggard (O.G., 37th)
Jermaine Jenas (59th)
Leicester City 1
Les Ferdinand (80th)
if charlton loses to chelski, then we have 4th position houston!
see, had we gotten all three pts against birmingham, it would hav helped, we could have been clear by two more pts, no need to worry if charlton drew.
howay the lads! secure the last champs lg spot!!
Newcastle United 3
Shola Ameobi (30th)
Gerry Taggard (O.G., 37th)
Jermaine Jenas (59th)
Leicester City 1
Les Ferdinand (80th)
if charlton loses to chelski, then we have 4th position houston!
see, had we gotten all three pts against birmingham, it would hav helped, we could have been clear by two more pts, no need to worry if charlton drew.
howay the lads! secure the last champs lg spot!!
I wanna live life, never be cruel,
I wanna live life, be good to you.
I wanna fly, never come down,
And live my life,
And have friends around.
We never change, do we?
We never learned to leave,
So I wanna live in a wooden house,
I wanna live life, always be true,
I wanna live life, and be good to you,
I wanna fly, and never come down,
And I live my life, and have friends around.
We never change do we? No, no,
We never learned to bleed,
So I wanna live in a wooden house,
Making more friends would be easy.
O I don't have a show to say,
Yes, and I sing of a single day,
We never change do we?
We never learned to leave.
So, I wanna live life in a wooden house,
Making more friends would be easy,
I wanna live where the sun comes out.
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
quick shots..
lemme see..
i hav exactly 2 weeks left before i leave for naperville. not smallville, naperville. ice cold chicago. its still like -8 degrees there.
i finished all my application materials, finally. the rest is up to the admission committe. pls pls pls. im a japan born bangladeshi who grew up in japan and singapore. where else could u find that kindafucked up person to add to the diverse campus that you guys seek?
i realised im connected to like 1 million people in friendster. as in the personal network thing. amazing how we're all connected to ppl. i wonder how many ppl i actually know in this world.
stacie orrico's so cute and hot. i saw one of her appearance pic for some award show. she's too hot. theres somethin bout her smile in tt 'i promise' vid. makes ur heart melt. she looks v indian in the vid tho.
fuck george bush
i want kids. i saw these two kids while goin places durin hari raya. the ideal kids for me. v cute girl. nice big eyes, great smile, her bro so quiet, yet playful. such a cute thing.
i copied a whole lotta cds. dont dare use kazaa once im there so im gettin as much music as i can now.
talked to ms chia, she's too nice. she makes me feel v capable. she has so much faith in me. she assured me i can make it in US. im gonna prove her right.
tt was prob my last visit to SA. left a huge pile of lect notes, tuts, everythin a levels to vicky n monisha. phew, tt helps me clear my room a bit.
im gonna leave soon. v soon.
ecstasy is all u need... livin in the big machine.. aw...
think i had nervous breakdown last nite. i think. maxwell, dave matthews, goo goo dolls, michelle branch n vanessa carlton made it better.
last time i had that kinda thing was like 2 yrs ago.
i still need to meet a whole lotta ppl b4 i leave. runnin outta time. plus the pressure.
when will this end. i tot i could relax after A's. then i still had college application. then now gotta pack everything. then go there n gotta get adjusted to everythin all over again. then college will start. then im gonna mug. then im gonna transfer to ivy. then im gonna get a job. then there'll never b a holiday until i retire.
fuck.
pats won super bowl!
feelin quite pissed now. audioslave helped for a while yesterday.
quick shots. quick points.
met melissa sng after a long while. was so nice talkin bt the old times in queensway. now i can only reminisce about it. time passes like tt. few yrs down the road i'll b talkin bt SA like tt.
i wanna watch a lot of movies. all those serious, artistic ones.
i know its brutal shit, but i feel like watchin irreversible. yea, tt movie where monica belluci gets raped for like 9 mins. not coz i wanna see the rape scene, but coz ive practically read almost everywhere tt its a reality check between fictional movies n depictin real life.
i like those kinda movies tt make u think. those low budget, complicated ones.
i missed a lot of movies.
last samurai was excellent.
finished readin micheal crichton's 'prey' in bout 3 days. all 525 pages of it. actually should hav finished in 2 days, i had to do lot of walkin n admin biz on tuesday.
im watchin survivor n american idol. thats somethin i never used to. but im tt free, in a sense.
gonna get me licence, learn C++ n visual basic b4 college starts.
mayb i should get some a level computin n FM stuff from jonas. i could do simple stuff b4 college. if i do FM, then engin maths would b much easier. comp touches lil on programmin so tt will help me too.
ooh, a master plan.
i wanted to do MBA after undergrad straight away. ms chia told me to work for few yrs b4 doin MBA. if tts the case, i'll come back to singapore much later. coz i was calculatin in terms of undergrad followed by MBA n job.
gonna apply to some MNC, n request transfer to singapore or japanese branch. most prob i'll b sent to japan. then i'll see how tt goes n decide where i wanna settle down.
does the future look bright? dunno. lot of planning. got headache now.
gonna miss a whole lotta ppl.
ok this is wat i was thinkin bt last nite.
block block.
*&$*&%@#@!!%^%$!
lemme see..
i hav exactly 2 weeks left before i leave for naperville. not smallville, naperville. ice cold chicago. its still like -8 degrees there.
i finished all my application materials, finally. the rest is up to the admission committe. pls pls pls. im a japan born bangladeshi who grew up in japan and singapore. where else could u find that kinda
i realised im connected to like 1 million people in friendster. as in the personal network thing. amazing how we're all connected to ppl. i wonder how many ppl i actually know in this world.
stacie orrico's so cute and hot. i saw one of her appearance pic for some award show. she's too hot. theres somethin bout her smile in tt 'i promise' vid. makes ur heart melt. she looks v indian in the vid tho.
fuck george bush
i want kids. i saw these two kids while goin places durin hari raya. the ideal kids for me. v cute girl. nice big eyes, great smile, her bro so quiet, yet playful. such a cute thing.
i copied a whole lotta cds. dont dare use kazaa once im there so im gettin as much music as i can now.
talked to ms chia, she's too nice. she makes me feel v capable. she has so much faith in me. she assured me i can make it in US. im gonna prove her right.
tt was prob my last visit to SA. left a huge pile of lect notes, tuts, everythin a levels to vicky n monisha. phew, tt helps me clear my room a bit.
im gonna leave soon. v soon.
ecstasy is all u need... livin in the big machine.. aw...
think i had nervous breakdown last nite. i think. maxwell, dave matthews, goo goo dolls, michelle branch n vanessa carlton made it better.
last time i had that kinda thing was like 2 yrs ago.
i still need to meet a whole lotta ppl b4 i leave. runnin outta time. plus the pressure.
when will this end. i tot i could relax after A's. then i still had college application. then now gotta pack everything. then go there n gotta get adjusted to everythin all over again. then college will start. then im gonna mug. then im gonna transfer to ivy. then im gonna get a job. then there'll never b a holiday until i retire.
fuck.
pats won super bowl!
feelin quite pissed now. audioslave helped for a while yesterday.
quick shots. quick points.
met melissa sng after a long while. was so nice talkin bt the old times in queensway. now i can only reminisce about it. time passes like tt. few yrs down the road i'll b talkin bt SA like tt.
i wanna watch a lot of movies. all those serious, artistic ones.
i know its brutal shit, but i feel like watchin irreversible. yea, tt movie where monica belluci gets raped for like 9 mins. not coz i wanna see the rape scene, but coz ive practically read almost everywhere tt its a reality check between fictional movies n depictin real life.
i like those kinda movies tt make u think. those low budget, complicated ones.
i missed a lot of movies.
last samurai was excellent.
finished readin micheal crichton's 'prey' in bout 3 days. all 525 pages of it. actually should hav finished in 2 days, i had to do lot of walkin n admin biz on tuesday.
im watchin survivor n american idol. thats somethin i never used to. but im tt free, in a sense.
gonna get me licence, learn C++ n visual basic b4 college starts.
mayb i should get some a level computin n FM stuff from jonas. i could do simple stuff b4 college. if i do FM, then engin maths would b much easier. comp touches lil on programmin so tt will help me too.
ooh, a master plan.
i wanted to do MBA after undergrad straight away. ms chia told me to work for few yrs b4 doin MBA. if tts the case, i'll come back to singapore much later. coz i was calculatin in terms of undergrad followed by MBA n job.
gonna apply to some MNC, n request transfer to singapore or japanese branch. most prob i'll b sent to japan. then i'll see how tt goes n decide where i wanna settle down.
does the future look bright? dunno. lot of planning. got headache now.
gonna miss a whole lotta ppl.
ok this is wat i was thinkin bt last nite.
block block.
*&$*&%@#@!!%^%$!
"Black Balloon" by Goo Goo Dolls
Baby's black balloon makes her fly
I almost fell into that hole in your life
And you're not thinking bout tomorrow
Cause you were the same as me
But on your knees
A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one
I saw the world spin beneath you
And scatter like ice from the spoon
That was your womb
Coming down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer
You know the lies they always told you
And the love you never knew
What's the things they never showed you
That swallow the light from the sun
Inside your room
Coming down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Always someone. . .
And there's no time left for losing
When you stand they fall
Coming down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
All because I'm
Coming down the years turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I'll go on now and lead you home and
All because I'm
All because I'm
And I'll become
What you became to me
Baby's black balloon makes her fly
I almost fell into that hole in your life
And you're not thinking bout tomorrow
Cause you were the same as me
But on your knees
A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one
I saw the world spin beneath you
And scatter like ice from the spoon
That was your womb
Coming down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer
You know the lies they always told you
And the love you never knew
What's the things they never showed you
That swallow the light from the sun
Inside your room
Coming down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Always someone. . .
And there's no time left for losing
When you stand they fall
Coming down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
All because I'm
Coming down the years turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I'll go on now and lead you home and
All because I'm
All because I'm
And I'll become
What you became to me
"Big Machine" by Goo Goo Dolls
Ecstasy is all you need
Living in the big machine
Oh you're so vain
Now your world is way too fast
Nothing's real and nothing lasts
And I'm aware
I'm in love and you don't care
Turn your anger into lust
I'm still here but you don't trust at all
And I'll be waiting
Love and sex and loneliness
Take what's yours and leave the rest
So I'll survive
God it's good to be alive
I'm torn in pieces
I'm blind and waiting for you
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you
Still in love with all your sins
Where you stop and I begin
And I'll be waiting
Living like a house on fire
What you fear is your desire
It's hard to deal
I still love the way you feel
Now this angry little girl
Drowning in this petty world
Oh who you run to
Swallow all your bitter pills
That's what makes you beautiful
You're all or not
I don't need what you ain't got
I'm torn in pieces
I'm blind and waiting for you
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you
I'm blind and waiting for you
I'm blind and waiting for you
Ecstasy is all you need
Living in the big machine
Oh you're so vain
Now your world is way too fast
Nothing's real and nothing lasts
And I'm aware
I'm in love and you don't care
Turn your anger into lust
I'm still here but you don't trust at all
And I'll be waiting
Love and sex and loneliness
Take what's yours and leave the rest
So I'll survive
God it's good to be alive
I'm torn in pieces
I'm blind and waiting for you
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you
Still in love with all your sins
Where you stop and I begin
And I'll be waiting
Living like a house on fire
What you fear is your desire
It's hard to deal
I still love the way you feel
Now this angry little girl
Drowning in this petty world
Oh who you run to
Swallow all your bitter pills
That's what makes you beautiful
You're all or not
I don't need what you ain't got
I'm torn in pieces
I'm blind and waiting for you
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you
I'm blind and waiting for you
I'm blind and waiting for you
v interesting articles about the by now very famous streaking.
Copyright ESPN.com
yes uve seen em in nike ads n all.
durin the super bowl half time, another one appeared. he's the world's most prolific streaker around. he's done it during soccer matches, rugby, tennis, golf, you name it, probably he's done it.
got three articles all by ESPN.com
read em in the order shown below.
1. http://sports.espn.go.com/nfl/playoffs03/news/story?id=1725499
2. http://espn.go.com/page2/s/drehs/030306.html
3. http://espn.go.com/page2/s/drehs/sidebar/030306.html
all courtesy of ESPN.com
yes uve seen em in nike ads n all.
durin the super bowl half time, another one appeared. he's the world's most prolific streaker around. he's done it during soccer matches, rugby, tennis, golf, you name it, probably he's done it.
got three articles all by ESPN.com
read em in the order shown below.
1. http://sports.espn.go.com/nfl/playoffs03/news/story?id=1725499
2. http://espn.go.com/page2/s/drehs/030306.html
3. http://espn.go.com/page2/s/drehs/sidebar/030306.html
all courtesy of ESPN.com
John Kerry sweeps Super Tuesday
Copyright CNN.com
oh boy, i think its pretty clear that John Kerry will be battling it out against George Bush for the elections this year. the closest oppenent only won one state and kerry sweeped 5 of the 7 states for the day. my my. clark did ok, i should be happy that he did better than dean in some aspect, i think dean's droppin out sooner or later. so its a two horse race between kerry and edwards, but edwards got no chance i think. but its comforting to know that kerry's gainin more support than bush in the recent polls.
Super Tuesday Results
Arizona
Kerry 43%
Clark 27%
Dean 14%
Edwards 7%
Lieberman 7%
Kucinich 2%
Sharpton 0%
Delaware
Kerry 50%
Lieberman 11%
Edwards 11%
Dean 10%
Clark 10%
Sharpton 6%
Kucinich 1%
Missouri
Kerry 51%
Edwards 25%
Dean 9%
Clark 4%
Lieberman 4%
Sharpton 3%
Gephardt 2%
Kucinich 1%
Uncommitted 1%
New Mexico
Kerry 42%
Clark 21%
Dean 16%
Edwards 11%
Kucinich 5%
Lieberman 3%
Uncommitted 1%
North Dakota
Kerry 50%
Clark 24%
Dean 12%
Edwards 10%
Kucinich 3%
Lieberman 1%
Sharpton 0%
Oklahoma
Clark 30%
Edwards 30%
Kerry 27%
Lieberman 6%
Dean 4%
Sharpton 1%
Kucinich 1%
South Carolina
Edwards 45%
Kerry 30%
Sharpton 10%
Clark 7%
Dean 5%
Lieberman 2%
Kucinich 1%
Monday, February 02, 2004
sorry i havent been updatin much, except for sports scores or election reports.
been settling paper work, admin (application stuff r all done!) and yes, ive started packing.
a note; im leavin on 19th feb, NOT 20th feb. apparantly there was a misunderstanding between my dad and me.
yep yep.
unlike other sendin offs, i'd prefer to meet those who want to send me off for a lunch rather than dinner, as my dad will not be wit us when we take off. so tt i means im the man who's gonna settle checking in, luggages, immigration (U.S. immigration is more complicated than compared to travellin to other countries) and etc etc, and not just for me, but for both my mom n bro. so u know how stressful its all gonna be.
yea, it would really be nice to see u guys when i go off, but wats the pt when im rushing from one place to another to do stuff and not get a chance to talk n say bye to u guys right? unless u guys really insist on it, then i cant force u to do anything, up to u.
another point, if u guys r gettin me gifts, etc, please please please dont give me anything tt might get me into trouble, like metallic weapon like accesories n stuff, or the huge stuff like we gave marc, coz we already hav a lot of stuff to carry around. im sorry im being v tight n all, but u know how it is. im holdin a bangladeshi passport and im a muslim, who's over 18, so im a potential target. u all might think its funny tryin to play around, but its not. its quite serious stuff coz i might be a marked man.
been settling paper work, admin (application stuff r all done!) and yes, ive started packing.
a note; im leavin on 19th feb, NOT 20th feb. apparantly there was a misunderstanding between my dad and me.
yep yep.
unlike other sendin offs, i'd prefer to meet those who want to send me off for a lunch rather than dinner, as my dad will not be wit us when we take off. so tt i means im the man who's gonna settle checking in, luggages, immigration (U.S. immigration is more complicated than compared to travellin to other countries) and etc etc, and not just for me, but for both my mom n bro. so u know how stressful its all gonna be.
yea, it would really be nice to see u guys when i go off, but wats the pt when im rushing from one place to another to do stuff and not get a chance to talk n say bye to u guys right? unless u guys really insist on it, then i cant force u to do anything, up to u.
another point, if u guys r gettin me gifts, etc, please please please dont give me anything tt might get me into trouble, like metallic weapon like accesories n stuff, or the huge stuff like we gave marc, coz we already hav a lot of stuff to carry around. im sorry im being v tight n all, but u know how it is. im holdin a bangladeshi passport and im a muslim, who's over 18, so im a potential target. u all might think its funny tryin to play around, but its not. its quite serious stuff coz i might be a marked man.
Sunday, February 01, 2004
NFL Super Bowl XXXVIII
at Houston, Texas
New England Patriots 32
Carolina Panthers 29
Copyright AP
fantastic game. truly one of a kind, fitting to be the final game, a championship game at that. such great plays, breathtaking moments, and for the game to be tied n settled at the last 5 seconds, you couldnt have expected anything more.
absolutely superb.
at Houston, Texas
New England Patriots 32
Carolina Panthers 29
Copyright AP
fantastic game. truly one of a kind, fitting to be the final game, a championship game at that. such great plays, breathtaking moments, and for the game to be tied n settled at the last 5 seconds, you couldnt have expected anything more.
absolutely superb.
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