why are we running?

forget the title, i just happened to see lenny on MTV, that's all.

nothing much for yesterday, i went to SAJC to collect an insignificant A Level certificate, but I went there not to do that but to see the deputy principal as well as hui and jessica.

apparantly i came a lil too early, since the girls were tanning themselves in sentosa, together with cynthia and erwin. i walked about school, thinking of the fun time i used to have, and the changes that i saw since i left.

by most people's idea of a high school life, i guess i had it all, i led the kind of high school life that most would want. know a lot of people, active in school, leadership role, hang around with the popular guys, getting recognised for distinguished talent, having a whole lotta fun almost all the time, etc, etc. and even though my academics arent there to top it all, the fact is, i did make it to university, and a pretty decent one, which is the most important point of going to a JC.

after talking to ms. chia, the deputy principal, im appreciating what happened. at times i wondered how putting a lot into council or drama would help after leaving the college. it helped in the most unexpected way possible. i was surfing through georgia tech's web recently and found out that this coming batch is the one of the smartest batch tech will have in its 119 years of existance or something. and i read their average SAT score; 1337. GPA of 3.75. and i had like 1160 and screwed up A Levels grades, but because of my extracurriculars, i got in.

i am truly lucky. i didnt know that my CCA record will help in this way. i didnt really realize the full extend of this until i talked with ms. chia. since i am fortunate enough to be admitted to a pretty advanced school, i only owe it to myself to make it and succeed. i cannot let this slip by. this is the final hurdle.

i felt bad that i had to leave ms. chia so early, since she realized that i was meeting friends and i was keeping them waiting, which wasn't exactly true. i have to return and talk to her longer sometime very soon. she's someone of great experience and very wise words, it is just nice to listen to her psych you up.

well, i was watching hui, jessica, cynthia and dewi amongst others dance to number of songs, it seems they'll presenting 4 items for the dance concert. but i felt like i too wanted to move when i saw them do N.E.R.D.'s 'She Wants To Move.' i cant wait til i see the final piece.

went back pretty earlier than expected, since nothing was planned, i didnt expect that i would have hanging around with the girls any longer, so i went back, only to realize they were playing soccer at tulip gardens, but they stopped by the time i got there. talked again for a while, before heading back. i think the contact lenses are taking a toll on me, i sleep pretty well nowadays, maybe because the lenses really tire my eyes. works out for me.

intended to run today, but couldnt. when i woke up and stretched my legs, i suffered a calf muscle spasm. its definately not the first time, but i hate it whenever it happens. 20-30 seconds of agony. it feels like someone is trying to rip my legs off. and obviously, its painful just to take steps after that. so no point trying to run, it'll be just painful. i guess i gotta just wait till monday for the next run.

why am i running? lenny sang that to convey that sometimes we have no idea why we do certain things, but there's always a reason. day to day, i discover a new side to me that i never knew. i am not sure why i am running right now, but when everything fits into its place, i will know that whatever i have been doing, which i might have thought was a waste of time, will come into very good use. much like how the whole prefect/council thing came to work to get me into university.

i shall take a breather, go out with hazril and just look around for laptops. we'll end up talking anyway, but i hope i can disclose a lot of things thats bottled up inside me. its friday, i remember how it used to be for us back in secondary school. we'll always talk to eachother as we went to the mosque to pray and a solitary lunch before we got back to our maths group study. seems like it was so long ago. but the essense of what we used to do will never change, and its gonna be like that today too.