"Everything you are
Falls from the sky like a star
Everything you are
Whatever ever you are"

Final score from St.James' Park
Newcastle United 1
Shearer (43rd)

Southampton 0

Weeee... first win in the Premier League this season! its been a long long wait, but its finally goin rite. big thumbs up n salutes to Big Al, scoring his 250 top flight goal tt got us the first win. i guess my superstition worked eh Denise? i took extra care to make sure it doesnt fall off after few days n even put up another picture tt had been covered by somethin else n subsequently the dust. but tt gets everythin goin off for me. hopefully this will signal the beginnin of better times. my war will start next wk n theres no turnin back after tt. it starts wit the SAT n i'm gonna do it, gettin inspiration from my hero, Shearer n Newcastle.

Hmm... really wanted to do a lot of work to free up the sunday, but it was not to be. woke up, had breakfast n the whole family was out to do couple of stuff for the day. first up to the dentist. i hadnt been there since March or so when i had to cancel an appointment either coz of Animal Farm practices or Council stuff. didnt get to reschedule till today. so i was up for the usual fittin in of retainers to check whether it was in shape, as well as my teeth alignments n the cleanin up. luckily they didnt do the salt clean thing. tt burns ur gums for the whole day. then went to cine to repair my phone, which wasnt vibratin anymore. haha, tt sounded quite wrong, hidden implications tho. the person told me to come back around 2, so we had abt 2 hrs to finish up couple of stuff. my mom wanted to get some new towels so off we went to taka, where we were checkin out different towels n arguin abt one bein too rough, too hard n ones tt wont absorb much water when we dry ourselves. in the end, got watever we tot were ok n went up, my dad wantin to get a connecter so tt he can hook his new nokia 6010 to his laptop. we spent some time where, while i watched parts of swordfish n 2 fast 2 furious. my dad got his stuff, then we went down to collect my dad's specs. since it was my mom's birthday today, we let her choose wat we should eat for lunch n she selected this japanese place. so we quite a nice lunch, everyone pretty much content wit wat they ordered. i had for myself u.s. prime beef plus green tea soba n some slices of sashimi. i'm not too used to the sashimi still, so was worried if i would puke later on in the day. but didnt. haha. by then, it was near 3 so i collected my hp n then we went off. my dad deposited n collected his laundry n returned my dvd rentals n we were back home. i did a little of SAT again, but couldnt force myself to continue after tt nice meal. initially intended to play soccer like any other saturday, but fell asleep instead. ah well, i guess i juz gotta do all the work tomorrow. then, as usual, it was premiership saturday.

certain things were crossin my mind throughout today. coz in one of the SAT passage, this particular passage spoke of an author's experience bein a son of mexican immigrant family settlin in america. tt made me think, since i didnt grow up in america, there would b certain aspects of life tt i'll always find it not part of myself if i eventually decide to live there. things like the numerous holidays tt they hav, which significance i'm not really aware of, those christian holidays such a st.patrick's day, thanksgiving, etc which i've not really seen christians in singapore celebrate n all. n i wont b able to understand certain pts in their lives. like the passage, where the author could see how his parents were adaptin to the new surroundings, but it was always obvious they were outsiders. i would want my kids to go through tt kinda thing n grow up feelin like strangers. if possible, at all, i would want em to grow up like any other american n lead their lives in no different ways like theirs so tt they would not hav to worry bt who they should b socialisin wit. tt would mean i would hav to celebrate days like thanksgivin, christmas n all other days while they grow up. i wouldnt know who i would marry yet, but watever the case, it wouldnt b right if my kids grow up not knowin wat these days represent n feel like they're missin out on somethin. tt seriously worried me coz i already at times feel pretty much an outsider, only tt i dont make issues out of it. i realise i'm bein put in an unusual, if not complicated situation but i've always been able to adapt or work my way around it. things like communication barrier in terms of language bein spoken, in terms of difference in religion, in terms of bein the minority, ive never actually seen these problesm hamper me but since i was facin all these probs since early on in my life, it has become normal to me. but tts how i became me. not everyone is like tt. n i wouldnt want my kids to suffer the same thing. any parent would want their kids to grow up not worryin n leadin a easy, enjoyable yet time. in a way, i could associate myself wit the author.

bengali writer Jhumpa Lahiri, winner of the pulitzer in 99 or 2000, i cant remember, recently published her first proper novel tt sort of is relevant to wat i've talked about above. i would really want to get my hands on tt bk n read it since i was pretty impressed wit her first book.

y am i thinkin so much ahead. its not like i'm plannin my whole life right now.