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Hey, I'll help you find it"

one more paper to go.. but i felt like i was finished wit prelims after phy p2. chem p1 isnt tt bad, i think, considerin at least u hav 25% chance of gettin it rite. i mean, since when i was mcq hard? can b, but never been. but i was like o shit when on the way back home, Koustav n Adeline were sayin to eachother, 'there were lot of calculations.'
ah well, like it matters anyway. as i've repeated time n time again, chem is gone. maths was undone by my marvellous p2. phy too can b undone. theres still p3 tomorrow, which Mr. Mannan said is '50% easier than p2' but i cant believe him anymore. he gave us a list of things to study for BT1, which hardly anythin from tt list came out, tips for BT2 didnt help much n now, am i gonna b misled again? i'm sittin down here bloggin n i'm reluctant to study anymore for phy. i could still salvage some grades, but wats the pt, the rest looks worse than bad.

right now, i would like to share with u y i decided to go to JC n do A Levels;

1. I didnt wanna leave for US yet

basically i didnt wanna leave so fast coz of friends, new prospectives in JC. main reason is i wanted to do high school coz if i had left, i would've gone straight to Uni n high sch is supposed to b the major part of teen yrs. i can say wif confidence so far, tt i wasnt wrong bt tt. i've learnt a lot, experienced a lot n enjoy throughly. another remote reason is coz it was only few months ago tt Sept 11 had taken place n me being a muslim wif a nationality of a third nation, above the age of 16, i assumed i was gonna suffer some scrunity upon entry to the US.

2. Skippin 2 yrs of education to go to Uni? Crazy?

yea, tt would've put a lot of pressure on me to start a new coz ppl around me would hav studied in high sch n i didnt. i dont care whether sg has a high standard of education, i would definately hav been disadvantaged if i had went to uni straight away. this is loosely connected to my 3rd reason. yea, basically i didnt wanna take any chance coz if u fail in uni, there aint any option to do shit else. tt's a more dangerous risk than screwin up ur A's.

3. A levels will b beneficial later on, i could finish Uni in 3 yrs if i do well (yea, like tt's gonna happen now)

Exactly! tt's a risk i'm willin to take! A level syllabus is so in depth, comprehensive, as we've all come to know, tt in US, goin through first yr would b a breeze for me, even if i suck! i mean, there's two outcomes in A's, u do well, or u do badly. either results, i'll b doin uni in US, its juz tt if i do well, i'll finish in 3 or 3 1/2 yrs, if not, 4 yrs, same as anyone. who wouldnt wanna take tt chance? n besides, even if i end up in lower tier colleges, i'll breeze through first yr, i work hard in second yr, maintain GPA, n i'll transfer to a better uni. it helps either way! wats there not to like?

Yea.. tt's pretty much the reasons y i went to JC. sometimes, i regret, coz on paper, our O's cert will look more clean n impressive than our A's, dunno bt the rest of y'all, but for me, nah. my uncle told me once, if u had entered uni wit ur O's, i think it would hav been better than u tryin to get in wif ur A's cert. true enough, but hey, wat can i do now, its too late. i think i can leave right now n not do A's, but tt'll b dumb. its only 2 mths away n as mentioned above, its either i do badly or do well. wat if i do well? its better chance than juz leavin n havin nothin left to bring along.

yea well. prelims will b over tomorrow. but after tt, everyone will mug like never b4. they'll all end up gettin gd grades coz we've been fucked so hard. i shall do my best too n see wat i can end up wif. if i dont do well, well, tough, i wasnt gd at it, if i do, gd, tt's all rite?

"And who gives a fuck about your problems, darlin'
When you can pay the rent
How much is enough?"