wasting my time, in the waiting line

"Wait in line
'Till your time
Ticking clock
Everyone stop

Everyone's saying different things to me
Different things to me
Everyone's saying different things to me
Different things to me

Do you believe
In what you see
There doesn't seem to be anybody else who agrees with me

Do you believe
In what you see
Motionless wheel
Nothing is real
Wasting my time
In the waiting line
Do you believe in
What you see"

im getting really frustrated at the lack of activity back 'home' in naperville. im literally counting down to the day that im flying back to atlanta and i can't wait. its utter waste of time for me to be here and i guess pamela put it quite simply because i dont know anybody here. being here depresses me for some reason. its suburbia getting to my head. funny enough, its the preferred mode of living for the relatively well off americans to be living in a suburb. its definately not the lifestyle for me. far away, secluded, in clean and safe environment, driving about in SUVs, shopping... the realization came sharply today as i accompanied my mom to the grocery shopping. drive, shop, bills, maintenance... for better part of today, i imagined myself back in singapore, living the fast paced life. and i really wished i was back there. i never settled well with the idea of living in this country, as a matter of fact, i dont like it at all here. maybe not atlanta, maybe not yet. i know some people will kill to be living in my position, but given the chances, i'll trade it. some human part of me dies each passing day. while many students look forward to being back at home for the semester break or holidays, i, for one, do not look forward to it from now on. and its only the first year that im feeling this dammit.

soon, i wont even call naperville 'home'... by mid way through next semester, i would have stayed longer in atlanta than i have in naperville. then what?