amazing...

im bloggging as im listening to george michael's new single, 'amazing' which is pretty nice. one of those light but soothing songs.

okay, so yesterday was pre-planned, i was supposed to go visit chahat's father who had an operation. my mom initially said that we'll be going in the afternoon, but later told me that we would have to go in the evening, so i had to basically waste time at home.

so later on, my mom and i went to NUH around 6, where we met couple of other bengali people there too. i met chahat and we walked around the hospital getting food for her mom and all. later, i saw her dad, since he had the operation like yesterday, he was still pretty weak and couldnt move much, but that's how it is with this kind of operation. she says within a week, he'll be discharged, so i guess everything's going fine. i guess its better to have all these things treated sooner than later, coz it'll so difficult and risky. so in that sense, even my dad got a little paranoid about it. he goes to check ups every now n then, but then certain things you cant detect til its pretty late.

i was talking to sunny's (not SA) dad about couple of things, like how he got the A*STAR scholarship, which i think is the best form of scholarship. i hope that he goes to john hopkins, since they're best in biomedical engineering. its gd in a sense tt he gets to study all the way to a Ph.D. and all expenses paid. so its like a 8 year plan and after which, he'll come back here for the bond. but then my dad brought a very crucial point, he said most of the these scholars might feel disillusioned when they stay in america for so long, coz after they see the endless horizon of opportunities there and then come back here, they'll feel that its very small and limited here, so much that they will hate coming back here, coz they're giving up the challenge there. its quite scary, but that's how it goes, if not, you gotta break the bond and pay all back. so its a double edged sword in a sense.

then i suddenly thought about my next 10 years in hand. im turning 20 next month, and then i'll start university. if i enroll in co-op plan in tech, i'll have to study for 5 years, if i am to transfer to urbana-champaign in illinois, then 4 years. after which i'll have to start working, say for 3 or 4 years at the max and then get back to grad school for MBA. by the time im done, its already 9 or 10 years. at the end of it, like a typical indian family, i'll be pressurized to get married. its either i meet someone along the way and face the wrath of disapproval or let my parents and relatives decide and i settle for some 'beautiful' and 'perfect' person to be my wife.

wow. its a scary thought. my next 10 to 12 years is mapped out. but then im not complaining, coz there isnt anything bad about it, but there's no surprise element anymore. like you know whats gonna happen, so you take it step by step, like im following a general plan, so it can be boring. unless of course, i happened to get employed by big name corporation or get into a superb grad school, those are the only things that will keep me excited.

jeez.

the bengali aunties in the hospital were talking about girls getting married and how the ones nowadays wanna delay the process for as long as possible and the guys not so interested in the whole thing and all. chahat and i were looking at eachother like, okay... now we know how the adults think about this whole thing and it was pretty weird.

couldnt join hui and erwin, coz by the time i could be free, it wasnt worth being there for less than 20 minutes and then have to leave. maybe next time.

called hazril up, should be out with him today, and then called up couple of people i should have called much earlier, like vieda and rachel. there still are more people i gotta meet up with.

italy is out. the favourites to get into the finals bows out at the group stages. another one of those that didnt score enough goals and lost out, like spain. another big name team will be out tomorrow, since the czechs qualified already, its only a matter of it being either germany or holland.

this euro is pretty interesting. so now czechs will meet denmark and sweden will meet either holland or germany.

"I was going down for the third time
My heart was broken I was not open
To your suggestions
I had so many questions
That you just kissed away

Tell me, I guess that cupid was in disguise
The day you walked in and changed my life
I think it's amazing
The way that love can set you free

So I walk in the midday sun
I never thought that my saviour would come
I think it's amazing
I think it's amazing"