Oh, here you are
There's nothing left to say
You're not supposed to be that way

ok, mayb this could b the event tt ive been waitin for it to happen...

the event tt can give me a fresh start.

im not sure if it happened for the better of the worse, but definately its a kick start i needed. i might b selfish sayin this, but there arent any more emotional burden attached to this particular issue. or any chance tt i would feel any... i wouldnt wanna use this word, but obligation?

it wasnt meant to b this way certainly. its the second time i made an error like this, but unlike the first time which was down to my pure selfish pride n lack of guts, i could say i had no choice but to follow this course of action this time round.. wait, the action wasnt done by me... but that doesnt make a difference.

but it was only a matter of time before somethin happened.

but im kinda glad it happened, made me realize wat my real intentions were, or so i feel, at least. now i think its definately for the better. i mean y drag somethin wit ur burden?

but as selfish and thoughtlessness as it seems, i think its a brand new start for me.

I never put you down
I never pushed you away

yea i guess this is it. it was only a matter of time. im surprised im not that bothered about it, but i keep thinkin of what it could hav been like. but i know better than to keep thinkin abt it, which leads to nowhere. but im happy/sad. mixed emotions. but its somethin tt i really needed. i think.

Is there anything to feel?
Is it pain that makes you real?
Cut me off before it kills me

i bet none of u hav any idea wat the fuck im talkin abt. theres no reason u all should. coz this is one of the very first private entries tt im makin publicly. n its not like any of u should know wat im talkin abt, coz its somethin i havent told anyone, k actually just one recently, so the majority wouldnt know. so dont pretend like u know wat im talking about. coz its better bein left that way. soon enough, this incident too will dissolve into merely an experience, juz like any other incidents.

n i hope it wont b somethin i'll come to regret in the future.

i did it again... i hope there wont b a third time for this. next time, im gonna do wat needs to b done.