okay, gonna blog early today so i can go off to sleep earlier. actually the prob is i've not been able to sleep for the past two nights. thank god its the weekend. had this happened in weekday, i'd b a zombie in the day. i dunnoe wats keepin me awake tho. i feel sleepy but juz cants sleep. i keep rollin from side to side, shiftin my pillow or blanket n tryin to fall asleep. nothin helped. by the time i fell asleep, i think it was 4 or 5. so i'll wake up around 10 or so. tt's y i said thank god its weekend, when i can afford to wake up early. so today, i'll go to sleep earlier, try not to read Ferguson's autobio, n see if it makes any diff. i think its coz i kinda get interested n excited while readin the book coz its rather interestin n by the time i finish the chapter to go to sleep, its already like 1 plus. mayb tts y. so lets see tonite. usually i finish my blog n lof off about 0030, so gonna finish early n then go off. coz i got a lot to say tonite.

talkin bt late nights, this was somethin i wanted to blog about earlier. many among us students seem to hav this concept tt studyin early into the morning or late into the night, watever u like, is some sort of 'status' to prove tt u're studyin. well, hear, actually read this BULLSHIT. ok? tt's so totally bull. wat, if u study till 2, 3, one even told me 5, u think u studied better than us? u think u're so much better off? think bt it okay. if u study 'productively', then yea mayb u're really studyin. i'd say its how u study rather than how long or how late u study. if ur methods r gd, then u dont need to study for long. get this outta ur head. studyin long hours doesnt necessarily mean u studied well. u might study for 6 hrs but u might find u can cover in 3 hrs if ur methods r correct n effective. i never believed in long hours unless its absolutely necessary. besides if u manage ur time well, u dont need to study so late into the night. most take a nap or waste time doin somethin from end of sch till mayb 10 or so. tt's y u study late into the night coz u think u need more time. dont come show off to me u studied till 2. i might juz ask, so how much did u cover? once u go past 12, ur brain activity slows down. once it does, not everythin is goin in ur head. then wats the pt? u might b thinkin ure studyin but if only three quarter is goin in ur head, its useless. then, ure juz wastin time n energy. might as well study when ure 100% efficient. but wats more stupid is, u study till 3, u get so litle sleep, u fall asleep in class or lecture when ure learnin somethin new. so its like ure only askin for it. if u fall asleep when ure supposed to pay attention, then of cuz u gotta study more than usual coz u gotta learn the new stuff by urself! its a dumb cycle n some ppl juz deserved it. they juz dont see it tt way.

i hate it too when ppl tell me they didnt study at all. its almost as if ure tryin ur best to seek attention, goin to ppl n sayin rite in their face. n then wat? they end up gettin gd grades n try to b humble n say, i dunno, i never study, lucky la... wat the fuck... y do u hav to b so humble for! shut up man... stop actin cute!

yea well, enough of bitchin. woken up by dad today. he told me there was a wholesale at philips plant in toa payoh. who we set off after breakfast to check it out. i usually take my sunday for rest n chillin so i juz followed him. there were so many ppl! i think everyone juz goes coz its a sale. but i found out tt juz coz its a sale doesnt mean its cheap! my bro's room's circular fluorescent light went off couple of days back n we got a new one for 5.90. however, in a so called sale, it went for 6. n i saw ppl buyin like 5, 6 of those. they think since its a sale, its cheap. not checkin the prices around, they succumbed to the temptation. not only the light, but some other stuff like discman n all too. so yea, take note, dont think its always better coz its a sale.

went to far east coz my dad wanted to get some cable for his laptop, while my bro checked out some new handphones at nearby burlington mall. then we went off to suntec for adidas sale. it opened on friday n today was the last day, so i kinda expected most of the gd stuff n those of regular sizes to b sold off. but i still found a soccer boots for 40 bucks, i tot it was a gd price so got em. i dun care bt the design, tt doesnt affect the play of the game, as long as i hav one tt fits n is comfortable, its alrite.

i was the kind of guy who would use one shoe for everythin. goin to sch, runnin, playin, goin out. but tt has changed, i hate to admit. not coz of me, but coz of my parents. they think when u go out, it should look nice, not wif tears or holes. so last yr, i had tt blue nike, which was quite gd. i used it to go to sch, play soccer, run, go out, watever. but since then... hmm.. my dad forced me to buy a new one coz there was a hole. come on, if u use ur shoe, theres bound to b damage! i'm the kind tt use till it breaks apart. but now.. i'm rather embarrassed to admit i've got like.. 6 pairs of shoes. i'm almost like a girl... i've got the leather like adidas campus, street soccer adidas, this new field soccer adidas, cross trainin nike, the white old school adidas, a converse slippers n a king's hill leather shoe tt's only used for formal events in sch n all. tt's 7... my my. but its not my fault! i juz get em coz my parents ask for it. fine, i think i more or less hav all the type i need for anythin tt i do. so yea.. no more probs!

o, forgot to mention this. before we went to suntec, we had lunch at this foot court below sim lim. there, i was almost gonna buy shanghai fried noodle when i noticed this pakistani/north indian stall. the guys there looked at me n said, hey, come, try this! so i was like, hmm, lets check them out, n was surprisingly treated v nicely, they knew i was one of them. they talked to me in mix of hindi n urdu n i felt nice tt i can b finally identified wif certain ppl. n they can tell wat i am. i've had all sorts of ppl askin me whether i'm brazilian, portuguese, arab, israeli, palestinian, eurasian, etc etc. i remember couple of hispanics came up to me in the train station in NYC n asked me stuff in spanish, n i was like, que no habla.. n they were like o? really? nvm then. so yea, its only the bengalis, hindis n the pakistanis tt can tell wat i am coz its either they know i'm one of them or they can tell the difference, although i'm nothin like one.

yea.. after all tt, came back, played soccer again. but today somethin unusual happened when one kid was bein tickled by so many kids somethin went wrong. supposedly one kid kicked n another threw grass on his face. so cant blame him, he snapped, whacked the hell outta the guy nearest to him, n reacted violently to the girl who tried to calm him down, but all in avail. i was playin wif the soccer ball, so i didnt see exactly wat happened, but got all those who were involved n told them wat shouldnt happen n to keep the situation under control all the time. n then i went off to the kid who was tryin to b isolated n talked to him, tryin to calm him down n givin assurances as i could. i kinda realised these skills i garnered by bein a prefect n in council does come into gd use at times like these. well, bein the oldest among the ppl down there, it was the least i should hav done as a older role model for the kids there. i hope everythin goes ok, but gotta see.

hmmm.. finally wrote quite a lot in a long long time. another day of revision tomorrow before the mayhem restarts. i can do it... or can i..? time will tell...