a day off today.. but started out rather shockingly. in the mornin the last time i checked the time was 7, i got nothin today so no school, so i tot i might as well get more sleep. the next thing i know, its 11 n my mom's tellin me tt im sleepin for too long. i was like, 11? damn, i tot it was 9! so there went my morning. by the time i had done the usual routine of eatin breakfast n readin the papers, it was already 1130. i didnt hav much planned for today except tt i was gonna meet my best friends to talk. but when i woke up n after washin up, i was havin such a dried long messed up hair n was unshaven, i looked like some fucked up latino. haha, i think i'll fit in well when i go to university. so takin tt in consideration, i had to cut my hair n hav a clean shave. but then, today's friday. i gotta go to mosque for daily prayer. so about 1, i left the house, after playin GTA Vice City for a while to kill time.

i'll admit, i'm not religious. or rather, i wasnt taught the fundamentals when i was young, so religion was never instilled in me. however i'm tryin my best. i've learnt how to read arabic, even tho i still suck at it, n the basic prayers n all. but tts probably it. except for the weekly friday n the yearly fastin or the festives, i dont pray at all. not tt i'm bad, its juz not part of me. my friends know how i am. in singapore, it seems muslims r not supposed to eat chinese, or rather non muslim food at all. i dun really agree wif it. to me, as long as u dun consume chunk of pork, i'm ok. i dun care bt how its cooked. food is food. my parents do tt too. i think it more or less has to do wif how we lived in japan. we're such a minority, i guess we were minority among the minorities for the majority to care bt halal food. so its either u eat or u dont. so i guess we brought tt thinkin to singapore. some of my muslim friends dont like it. but hey, i've lived like tt for so long, i cant juz eat muslim food all the time. i go for variety n if not, i lose apetite. there r lot of stuff regardin my supposed religion. for example, readin arabic is essential to understand the quran. but, how many of us, except for those who 'speak' arabic, understand wat they're readin? i mean, u can read, but tt doesnt mean u understand. so wats the pt of readin when u dun understand? i find tt logic hard to understand. so i refuse to read. i rather read it if i understand the meanin. some rules r there without any reason. the prob, i think is tt because its religion, noone questions it. a lot of rules in islam r there n everyone follows. i naturally question, n i find it hard to come to terms quite frequently. sometimes i really think, when i pray, am i really prayin or am i doin it because i'm supposed to? to b frank, i only started knowin bt the religion when i was about 12, when my grandparents insisted i go under religious class while i was in bangladesh on holiday. i only remember goin to a place tt resembles a mosque in japan only twice durin the 8 yrs i stayed there. i remember i sometimes wore some weird non-japanese costume. i discovered a lot of things after goin to local school. i din even know there was a mandatory friday prayer till i was in sec 1 n i noticed my malay guy friends comin to sch later on friday assemblys. how weird is tt? still my understandin of the religion is rather shallow. i prefer to b a free thinker, sometimes lettin islam rule certain things. but i think when i grow older, i dun think islam will b much part of me. i dun see it bein so. unless somethin happens tt makes me believe, or i get more interested in it. but for now, dont think so.

yea, so after my prayers, i went to holland village to cut my hair. o before tt, i bumped into a friend who studies in RJC. he's a fellow bengali n he was there for the prayers. he had his bio prac prelims today n we talked for a while bt how prelims suck n all. yea, so after tt, cut my hair, its not the usual cut, a little extra length on the centre, tt helps spike my hair up easier n better, while my sides r more flat now. i was thinkin, wat if i kept it uncut? i messed it up last nite n it looked quite nice. i looked like some messed rock band guy. but nah, its not my style, so i cut it. then i went home quickly to shower n get rid of all those short bits tt were in my scalp n on the neck. n i shaved clean too. i never liked to keep my beard or watever. i think its v irritatin. so i enjoy shavin quite frequently coz i hate the bits tt grow after a day or two. i keep touchin it till Koustav always tells me to keep my hands off my face. i like the feelin of the razor movin against my skin n cuttin the hair away. i use Gillette Mach 3 Turbo, n i muz say, boy tt razor is gd stuff. i never leave any bits left uncut, so my shavin process takes some time. i spend quite a bit of time lookin about n feelin my jaws to see whether any bit is left or not coz its usually at the jawline. n also the most difficult to cut coz of the contour. u hav to go up n go sideways n can cut urself easily. but i did it alrite today.

when i was talkin to my friend at coffee bean in holland village, i noticed i was touchin my clean shaven skin over n over again. haha. had nice time talkin to Hazril today. we used to talk to each other quite frequently, almost on daily basis but coz we grew so busy over this yr, hardly talked to him. so now we try our best to take time off once every month or so to catch up on time n all. we talked bt all sort of stuff as usual. but these few times tt i see him, i feel bad, coz its like only us talkin n his gf juz sits n reads her stuff n all. only sometime she engages wit the conversation. so i really feel i'm wastin her time. hope i manage to talk bt things tt she can talk abt in the future. some contents of wat i n him talked bt is between us, cant write up here coz its rather personal stuff goin bt these few days. n so r the contents of wat i talked about wif Junwen at nite. All i can say, he's goin over to Tokyo n California for holiday next wk. i think its fittin tt he has it now, considerin his army starts next month. as i said, i cant wait for my own globetrottin after my A's.

talkin bt ppl goin over for holidays, one of my dear friend is also goin off sooner than expected. Paulina got selected to go for Exchange Program to Aussieland so tt means she'll b leaving singapore at end of oct. after which she'll go straight to her homeland, Indonesia for her end of yr holiday so tt means i wont see her till she gets back at start of January whereby I'll b off globetrottin till god knows when.

so basically two of my handful of closest friends will b away when i'm done wif my A's. i'm not sure when i'll b leavin, but i hope i stay long enough to see em b4 i leave for gd. i should, i hav to. these r my close friends afterall.

alrite its gettin late n i think i wrote enough, i'm off to sleep. i gotta try not to repeat wat i did this morning. if i wake up, i'll wake up n not ask for extra.