i have two and a half days to nick the calculus paper, ive done quite a bit in the last couple of days, so its been good.
what im surprised is that the finals consist mainly questions from the 6 exams we had through this semester and the questions that are taken from these exams are carbon copy of the ones we took.
i ask, what's the point of having exams then? at least change the figures or the style of question? but then again, it works for me, i can just review the 6 exams and make sure i dont make the same stupid mistake i've made in them.
so that leaves me with just one test and chapter 8 to review. presented with this kind of opportunity, i have to nick it.
my TA was saying there might be a curve of 5 or 6 marks. in that case, i might just need to score anywhere above 70 to get A, but im not going to bank on that. im going for the A, which means a 90.
and since the questions are carbon copy, i dont see how that's difficult at all...
Thursday, December 09, 2004
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
out of words
when things screw up on me, especially for something that is out of my hands, the last thing i need is the very people whom i consider to be my 'friends' making it tougher for me. it should be the other way round.
Sunday, December 05, 2004
quote
Alice's (Natalie Portman) response to Dan (Jude Law) in 'Closer.'
"Where is this love? I can't see it, I can't touch it, I can't feel it. I can hear some words, but I can't do anything with your easy words."
"Where is this love? I can't see it, I can't touch it, I can't feel it. I can hear some words, but I can't do anything with your easy words."
i can't take my mind off of you...
The past couple of days has been filled with late night movie watching, and some really great ones, I could perhaps say that one of the best collections of movies I’ve ever seen. It all started with ‘dirty pretty things’ and ‘lost in translation.’ Soon enough, I was browsing through the best movie database website, imDB, and looking through recommended films that are similar to my favorite ones, or looking and making a list of whatever I have not seen in the all time top 250 listed by users, and boy, how beneficial that turned out to be. I downloaded a bunch of them and started watching them.
One of them was ‘memento,’ a movie that was very interesting, coz one story moved from the end backward every now and then, and in between each segment, the same story was moving forward from the beginning. I thought it was a very clever way to break the story down, and I was very impressed.
I watched traffic purely because I’ve always seen the DVD in serene centre and never got to watch it. Some fine acting, but I thought the story was kinda left messy, as three independent stories didn’t come together in the end. But it was alright.
I watched those on Friday, and on that day, the school had this all night games event named ‘one night stand’ and we were to play dodgeball, starting at 2am in the morning. How weird. But the reason why we even considered playing was because one half of the section signed up without even informing us, and soon enough, we came up with the anti-team of whatever that remained in the other half. Our sole intent was to beat that other team, and after some talking to to the officials, we made that happen, we were to play that. Regardless of whether we won or not, we would leave the tournament. We played around 3:30-ish. Until then, we watched the other matches, and since the place where we played was an indoor soccer court, we kept banging on glasses like mad south American soccer fans, chanting ‘you suck’ and just cheering, shouting at anything that happened. We were having so much fun. We finally played, I was the second last to get out, primarily because I dodged all the balls, but never got the ball coz my team mates kept taking the ball when I wanted it. Not like I would have gotten anyone out anyway. But in the end, it was a sole battle between james in my team and hunter from the other team. Since both hit eachother at the same time, it was left as a sudden death match, which james narrowly lost. We created so much entertainment, there could not have been anything better. But the officials changed the rules after that to cut on time, so the rest ended up being real messy and just a crazed meelee.
So we went back to our dorms, adrenaline pumping through our body, all excited and laughing like lunatics. While on the way back, james and I kind of straightened certain things out, which I guess worked well for the both of us, as the next day would prove. We couldn’t get to sleep, so james and I decided to watch a movie that was good and one that neither of us watched. Since I was looking through the top 250 list, I thought we watched ‘american beauty.’
The movie was very interesting, how they portrayed each characters and a very simple storyline. But these didn’t compare to what was coming in the next day.
But if there’s anything to be learnt from the movie, then it was mena suvari’s character mentioning she’s afraid to be just normal. I kinda realized there was a grave reverse psychology in our lives. We are all born technically born different. But everyone seems to think we’re all the same. And as a result, some people do different things, in order to be different, like being really popular, doing something unusual, and such, but by doing that, we actually are conforming to some style, that can be categorized, which means that that very thing that we’re doing to be different is actually making us the same as anyone else. I don’t think I expressed this right, but instead of being different, we’re all homogenizing. Like some people drink and do drugs to be different, but in the end, so are other people, which renders their actions useless… and such. I’m not sure how I’m trying to convey my point, but I thought that was extremely ironic.
Since the new Natalie Portman movie ‘closer’ had opened on Friday, I got couple of people to watch. Dan was definitely one that wanted to watch it, since he appreciates Natalie as much as I do. We were all excited when we read the review on CNN, that it was going to be one of the 5 movies to catch this season as recommended by the film institute (the rest consisting of ‘Finding Neverland, which I’ll watch with Pamela next week, and the much anticipated ‘Aviator’, and Clint Eastwood’s ‘Million Dollar Baby’ and ‘Sideways.’) but there was this segment that mentioned a scene where Natalie Portman is in a strip joint wearing only a bra and a G-string. We wondered how that would be like, since she never does roles like that.
So James and I went to sleep around 6:30am, after watching ‘American Beauty’ and I woke up around 11-ish, reeling from lack of sleep, but fine nonetheless. Tom and Dan decided to come with us, James preferring to stay in bed to catch up on sleep. Pam, Leisha and Adina joined us for the movie, and wow, how that turned out to be.
I was left speechless at the end, because it was so explicit, yet speaks so true of how we handle relationships. Most people would probably walk out of the theatre thinking it was fucked up or ‘perverted’ as tom described, I think it was a very accurate portrayal of how human handle relationships and sexuality in modern times. I should probably admit that none of us were qualified to truly appreciate the depth of the movie since we were all young and haven’t exactly gotten to that stage in our lifetime, but we could tell the seriousness and the honestly expressed in the movie.
I felt really weird after that, and I guess that kind of explained for the reason why I was feeling so out of place. The movie made me think about so many things, that I should be aware of as I grow older. Basically, to never take anyone for granted and all. Well, in the end, both Dan and I agreed that if you ever have Natalie Portman, you don’t fuck around. Simple as that.
The movie was probably the most provocative as well as R-rated movie I’ve ever seen, I guess. But I’m not really bothered about that. It made me feel real uneasy to watch parts of it, where couples were questioning eachother so furiously and explicitly. But clive owen was such a terrific actor in that movie. I don’t understand how the people behind this movie is going to push for Julia Roberts and jude law as the main actor/actress if ever nominated for awards (which it probably will be) and put clive owen and Natalie Portman as supporting actor/actress category as the ‘supporting’ characters totally overshadowed the more well known casts.
While getting dinner and walking around later on to look for tom and dan, I felt like Scarlet Johansson (I found out she’s only few months younger than I am) in ‘lost in translation’ I felt really out of place, like I described in my earlier entries. It felt like a slow motion walk, while things around me seemed to move faster and continuing, as if I wasn’t there at all. It was a weird moment. It kind of tied into the feeling I got after the movie, a sad realization of how life actually is.
It got worse after I came back. James and I decided to watch ‘road to perdition’ which we didn’t really enjoy for some reason. Slow, with not much substance to boot. We were really disappointed. And james suggested we watch ‘requiem for a dream.’ We got dan to come over and watch it, and boy, was that really intense too. It was all about drugs and what it does, but it was enough to make one stay off drugs for a lifetime. Education should not spend any money on posters and programs about anti drug whatever and just make students watch this, it’ll do a much better job of making people aware of what it can do and how it fucks people up than those informational flyers and workshops ever will.
So technically I had watched two very intense movies that day and I really felt awkward. We went to sleep at 4 am and woke up around 3pm, only to wake up feeling worse. Dan shared the same opinion. To complete this messed up feeling, I guess I might as well download ‘saw’ and make myself feel worse. I guess the two grave human errors from ‘closer’ and ‘requiem for a dream’ are ‘lust’ and ‘temptation.’ I wonder what saw will add. I feel like watching that in theatres, but I guess I can’t wait for it.
I have two new songs to add to my list. These were two songs that were played during ‘closer’ which deserves so much more attention. I looked around and found the song last night, and I cant believe I didn’t come across this beautifully crafted song before. I guess with it being featured in ‘closer’ Damien Rice will get more exposure. His song ‘The Blower’s Daughter’ is somewhat the main song for the movie and is featured prominently in the beginning and the end, and also couple of times in between, but it totally absorbs the intensity of the movie so well. And one of the lighter jazz songs by Suzanne Vega ‘Caramel’ is also very nice, I have to give credit to James for taking note of that one.
We both have been playing that on repeat, but its so nice, we just want to hear it again. Damien’s style reminds me a lot of Tracy Chapman’s simple folk guitar song, but its very different at the same time.
I should probably head back to studying for my finals, just thought I take a break, and write a summary of what’s been going on in the past few days. I feel terrible with these movies, but at the same time, im really glad that I saw them. I rather face reality than fictionalized content.
Just one more week, and im done.
Oh, there was another weird encounter on Friday night, or should I say Saturday morning. Its not the first time that happened, but the stare each of us gave…. I can’t find the words to describe… as if its like.. never mind. Sometimes time moves slow enough it feels like there’s something to it. I’m probably wrong.
God dammit, I might end up watching ‘saw’ tonight. Just to satisfy myself.
I can't stop playing this song... it's too beautiful...
'The Blower's Daughter' by Damien Rice
"And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new"
One of them was ‘memento,’ a movie that was very interesting, coz one story moved from the end backward every now and then, and in between each segment, the same story was moving forward from the beginning. I thought it was a very clever way to break the story down, and I was very impressed.
I watched traffic purely because I’ve always seen the DVD in serene centre and never got to watch it. Some fine acting, but I thought the story was kinda left messy, as three independent stories didn’t come together in the end. But it was alright.
I watched those on Friday, and on that day, the school had this all night games event named ‘one night stand’ and we were to play dodgeball, starting at 2am in the morning. How weird. But the reason why we even considered playing was because one half of the section signed up without even informing us, and soon enough, we came up with the anti-team of whatever that remained in the other half. Our sole intent was to beat that other team, and after some talking to to the officials, we made that happen, we were to play that. Regardless of whether we won or not, we would leave the tournament. We played around 3:30-ish. Until then, we watched the other matches, and since the place where we played was an indoor soccer court, we kept banging on glasses like mad south American soccer fans, chanting ‘you suck’ and just cheering, shouting at anything that happened. We were having so much fun. We finally played, I was the second last to get out, primarily because I dodged all the balls, but never got the ball coz my team mates kept taking the ball when I wanted it. Not like I would have gotten anyone out anyway. But in the end, it was a sole battle between james in my team and hunter from the other team. Since both hit eachother at the same time, it was left as a sudden death match, which james narrowly lost. We created so much entertainment, there could not have been anything better. But the officials changed the rules after that to cut on time, so the rest ended up being real messy and just a crazed meelee.
So we went back to our dorms, adrenaline pumping through our body, all excited and laughing like lunatics. While on the way back, james and I kind of straightened certain things out, which I guess worked well for the both of us, as the next day would prove. We couldn’t get to sleep, so james and I decided to watch a movie that was good and one that neither of us watched. Since I was looking through the top 250 list, I thought we watched ‘american beauty.’
The movie was very interesting, how they portrayed each characters and a very simple storyline. But these didn’t compare to what was coming in the next day.
But if there’s anything to be learnt from the movie, then it was mena suvari’s character mentioning she’s afraid to be just normal. I kinda realized there was a grave reverse psychology in our lives. We are all born technically born different. But everyone seems to think we’re all the same. And as a result, some people do different things, in order to be different, like being really popular, doing something unusual, and such, but by doing that, we actually are conforming to some style, that can be categorized, which means that that very thing that we’re doing to be different is actually making us the same as anyone else. I don’t think I expressed this right, but instead of being different, we’re all homogenizing. Like some people drink and do drugs to be different, but in the end, so are other people, which renders their actions useless… and such. I’m not sure how I’m trying to convey my point, but I thought that was extremely ironic.
Since the new Natalie Portman movie ‘closer’ had opened on Friday, I got couple of people to watch. Dan was definitely one that wanted to watch it, since he appreciates Natalie as much as I do. We were all excited when we read the review on CNN, that it was going to be one of the 5 movies to catch this season as recommended by the film institute (the rest consisting of ‘Finding Neverland, which I’ll watch with Pamela next week, and the much anticipated ‘Aviator’, and Clint Eastwood’s ‘Million Dollar Baby’ and ‘Sideways.’) but there was this segment that mentioned a scene where Natalie Portman is in a strip joint wearing only a bra and a G-string. We wondered how that would be like, since she never does roles like that.
So James and I went to sleep around 6:30am, after watching ‘American Beauty’ and I woke up around 11-ish, reeling from lack of sleep, but fine nonetheless. Tom and Dan decided to come with us, James preferring to stay in bed to catch up on sleep. Pam, Leisha and Adina joined us for the movie, and wow, how that turned out to be.
I was left speechless at the end, because it was so explicit, yet speaks so true of how we handle relationships. Most people would probably walk out of the theatre thinking it was fucked up or ‘perverted’ as tom described, I think it was a very accurate portrayal of how human handle relationships and sexuality in modern times. I should probably admit that none of us were qualified to truly appreciate the depth of the movie since we were all young and haven’t exactly gotten to that stage in our lifetime, but we could tell the seriousness and the honestly expressed in the movie.
I felt really weird after that, and I guess that kind of explained for the reason why I was feeling so out of place. The movie made me think about so many things, that I should be aware of as I grow older. Basically, to never take anyone for granted and all. Well, in the end, both Dan and I agreed that if you ever have Natalie Portman, you don’t fuck around. Simple as that.
The movie was probably the most provocative as well as R-rated movie I’ve ever seen, I guess. But I’m not really bothered about that. It made me feel real uneasy to watch parts of it, where couples were questioning eachother so furiously and explicitly. But clive owen was such a terrific actor in that movie. I don’t understand how the people behind this movie is going to push for Julia Roberts and jude law as the main actor/actress if ever nominated for awards (which it probably will be) and put clive owen and Natalie Portman as supporting actor/actress category as the ‘supporting’ characters totally overshadowed the more well known casts.
While getting dinner and walking around later on to look for tom and dan, I felt like Scarlet Johansson (I found out she’s only few months younger than I am) in ‘lost in translation’ I felt really out of place, like I described in my earlier entries. It felt like a slow motion walk, while things around me seemed to move faster and continuing, as if I wasn’t there at all. It was a weird moment. It kind of tied into the feeling I got after the movie, a sad realization of how life actually is.
It got worse after I came back. James and I decided to watch ‘road to perdition’ which we didn’t really enjoy for some reason. Slow, with not much substance to boot. We were really disappointed. And james suggested we watch ‘requiem for a dream.’ We got dan to come over and watch it, and boy, was that really intense too. It was all about drugs and what it does, but it was enough to make one stay off drugs for a lifetime. Education should not spend any money on posters and programs about anti drug whatever and just make students watch this, it’ll do a much better job of making people aware of what it can do and how it fucks people up than those informational flyers and workshops ever will.
So technically I had watched two very intense movies that day and I really felt awkward. We went to sleep at 4 am and woke up around 3pm, only to wake up feeling worse. Dan shared the same opinion. To complete this messed up feeling, I guess I might as well download ‘saw’ and make myself feel worse. I guess the two grave human errors from ‘closer’ and ‘requiem for a dream’ are ‘lust’ and ‘temptation.’ I wonder what saw will add. I feel like watching that in theatres, but I guess I can’t wait for it.
I have two new songs to add to my list. These were two songs that were played during ‘closer’ which deserves so much more attention. I looked around and found the song last night, and I cant believe I didn’t come across this beautifully crafted song before. I guess with it being featured in ‘closer’ Damien Rice will get more exposure. His song ‘The Blower’s Daughter’ is somewhat the main song for the movie and is featured prominently in the beginning and the end, and also couple of times in between, but it totally absorbs the intensity of the movie so well. And one of the lighter jazz songs by Suzanne Vega ‘Caramel’ is also very nice, I have to give credit to James for taking note of that one.
We both have been playing that on repeat, but its so nice, we just want to hear it again. Damien’s style reminds me a lot of Tracy Chapman’s simple folk guitar song, but its very different at the same time.
I should probably head back to studying for my finals, just thought I take a break, and write a summary of what’s been going on in the past few days. I feel terrible with these movies, but at the same time, im really glad that I saw them. I rather face reality than fictionalized content.
Just one more week, and im done.
Oh, there was another weird encounter on Friday night, or should I say Saturday morning. Its not the first time that happened, but the stare each of us gave…. I can’t find the words to describe… as if its like.. never mind. Sometimes time moves slow enough it feels like there’s something to it. I’m probably wrong.
God dammit, I might end up watching ‘saw’ tonight. Just to satisfy myself.
I can't stop playing this song... it's too beautiful...
'The Blower's Daughter' by Damien Rice
"And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new"
Friday, December 03, 2004
'Dirty Pretty Things' and 'Lost In Translation'
for the whole of yesterday, be it during class, or while walking to class, or even when i was in my room, i couldnt stop thinking about the events that took place in the movie 'Dirty Pretty Things.'
it was marvelously crafted, if you ask me. and at the end of the movie, it kinda leaves you feeling empty, somewhat guilty and vowing to yourself that you really want to be a better person than you are now. it was somewhat similar to my all-time favourite movie 'The Professional' in a sense that the guy, who's doing a dirty job, but ultimately has a real good heart, goes through so much to save the innocent girl, but they dont even up together.
yeah, it has the same effect on me whenever i watch 'the professional.' and its pretty sad at the last part, coz the two have to separate, never meeting eachother again. its a sad truth about how things end up.
'lost in translation' was something like that, but the stereotypes of the modern japanese society was a little far fetched. the japanese knows that foreigners arent likely to understand japanese by just talking to them in japanese, but other things that were portrayed in the movie was somewhat true, and fond memories of my time in japan began to resurface.
watching that movie reignited my desire that i might want to move to japan sometime early in my working career. i wouldnt wanna be dating someone or married by then, coz i wouldnt want her to be going through what scarlett johansson went through, alone, out of place and confused. but its certainly something i can imagine myself doing.
and that translator in the movie was horrible. i can definately do a much better job than that. i should really just become a translator. i can tell him exactly what the director was trying to convey to bill murray, but i guess that's the exaclt point sofia coppola was trying to convey in the movie.
those two movies are pretty good, i enjoyed it, both ending with similar endings, and it kinda came at the right time when i've been thinking about such things since thanksgiving.
somehow i feel like scarlett johansson in atlanta. i have friends, i know the place, and i am not at all confused about how people do things here, but i feel out of place somehow, alone, and just trying to put the pieces together myself... i begin to think about the good moments i had, not too long ago, and agonise over what it could have been, but didnt exactly ignite. but that's the same with everything. somethings just dont happen, we move on to different things, and the cycle repeats.
i'm just one class away from ending for the semester. it wont be that long if we dont have questions. then, its study mode. the first two wont be much, and i just need to make sure i dont make dumb mistakes for calculus. i need to score 90 to secure an A automatically, without curve, and considering majority of the questions will be taken out of the 6 exams we took, i dont think that will be much of a problem.
i was surfing through the imDB website and i was glad to come across various ranking of movies, of which, i made a shortlist and will start downloading them before i head back to naperville. i wish they had a list of the really good foreign language films. amelie ranks like 27th in the all time best list, which i think is really deserved. screening for andrey tautou's latest film 'a very long engagement' is only in selected theatres, so it kinda sucks, but natalie portman's anticipated 'closer' opens today. i wonder if i should catch it tonight or even tomorrow.
i still am thinking about 'dirty pretty things.' and it doesnt help that audrey tautou always seems to play that innocent girl role so well in all 4 films i've seen her in.
its a sad realization, as portrayed in the film, that good hearted people have to go through so much just to make a simple living. just because they're not from a modern developed country doesnt neccesarily have to make them go through such ordeal, when others are getting away with grave mistakes. that's the thing that evokes so much emotion out of me from that movie.
this warrants for more dido and zero 7...
it was marvelously crafted, if you ask me. and at the end of the movie, it kinda leaves you feeling empty, somewhat guilty and vowing to yourself that you really want to be a better person than you are now. it was somewhat similar to my all-time favourite movie 'The Professional' in a sense that the guy, who's doing a dirty job, but ultimately has a real good heart, goes through so much to save the innocent girl, but they dont even up together.
yeah, it has the same effect on me whenever i watch 'the professional.' and its pretty sad at the last part, coz the two have to separate, never meeting eachother again. its a sad truth about how things end up.
'lost in translation' was something like that, but the stereotypes of the modern japanese society was a little far fetched. the japanese knows that foreigners arent likely to understand japanese by just talking to them in japanese, but other things that were portrayed in the movie was somewhat true, and fond memories of my time in japan began to resurface.
watching that movie reignited my desire that i might want to move to japan sometime early in my working career. i wouldnt wanna be dating someone or married by then, coz i wouldnt want her to be going through what scarlett johansson went through, alone, out of place and confused. but its certainly something i can imagine myself doing.
and that translator in the movie was horrible. i can definately do a much better job than that. i should really just become a translator. i can tell him exactly what the director was trying to convey to bill murray, but i guess that's the exaclt point sofia coppola was trying to convey in the movie.
those two movies are pretty good, i enjoyed it, both ending with similar endings, and it kinda came at the right time when i've been thinking about such things since thanksgiving.
somehow i feel like scarlett johansson in atlanta. i have friends, i know the place, and i am not at all confused about how people do things here, but i feel out of place somehow, alone, and just trying to put the pieces together myself... i begin to think about the good moments i had, not too long ago, and agonise over what it could have been, but didnt exactly ignite. but that's the same with everything. somethings just dont happen, we move on to different things, and the cycle repeats.
i'm just one class away from ending for the semester. it wont be that long if we dont have questions. then, its study mode. the first two wont be much, and i just need to make sure i dont make dumb mistakes for calculus. i need to score 90 to secure an A automatically, without curve, and considering majority of the questions will be taken out of the 6 exams we took, i dont think that will be much of a problem.
i was surfing through the imDB website and i was glad to come across various ranking of movies, of which, i made a shortlist and will start downloading them before i head back to naperville. i wish they had a list of the really good foreign language films. amelie ranks like 27th in the all time best list, which i think is really deserved. screening for andrey tautou's latest film 'a very long engagement' is only in selected theatres, so it kinda sucks, but natalie portman's anticipated 'closer' opens today. i wonder if i should catch it tonight or even tomorrow.
i still am thinking about 'dirty pretty things.' and it doesnt help that audrey tautou always seems to play that innocent girl role so well in all 4 films i've seen her in.
its a sad realization, as portrayed in the film, that good hearted people have to go through so much just to make a simple living. just because they're not from a modern developed country doesnt neccesarily have to make them go through such ordeal, when others are getting away with grave mistakes. that's the thing that evokes so much emotion out of me from that movie.
this warrants for more dido and zero 7...
Thursday, December 02, 2004
Honestly OK
"I just want to feel,
Safe in my own skin
I just want to be,
Happy again
I just want to feel,
Deep in my own world
But I'm so lonely
I don't even want to be with myself anymore
On a different day,
If I was safe in my own skin
Then I wouldn't feel lost
and so frightened
But this is today
and I'm lost in my own skin
And I'm so lonely
I don't even want to be with myself anymore
I just want to feel,
Safe in my own skin
I just want to be,
Happy again."
Safe in my own skin
I just want to be,
Happy again
I just want to feel,
Deep in my own world
But I'm so lonely
I don't even want to be with myself anymore
On a different day,
If I was safe in my own skin
Then I wouldn't feel lost
and so frightened
But this is today
and I'm lost in my own skin
And I'm so lonely
I don't even want to be with myself anymore
I just want to feel,
Safe in my own skin
I just want to be,
Happy again."
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
i'm done biatch!
phewww...
im finally done with the english blogging assignment... 16 entries in 3 days... was tough... really tough...
i couldnt really get down to doing it today, since i was so tired, so i took a much needed nap in the afternoon, and got down to doing it. and i just finished. god it feels so good.
as i was talking to Junwen the other day, after i'm done with finals, i'm probably going to gather all the writing work i've done this semester and compile it into a separate blog, something i've been thinking of doing, and will continue to do for the rest of my academic life in georgia tech, as some sort of a record. it'll be interesting how that sums up.
im done, and i can either cool down for the rest of the week, or start right ahead in preparation for history finals. guess it'll be the latter.
oh, and i got a C for health. bleah. never mind. at least i didnt get a D. the best is a 3.43 for GPA now. isnt too bad i guess.
for now, im gonna take a real good shower, and ogle at audrey tautou in 'dirty little things' before going to sleep.
im finally done with the english blogging assignment... 16 entries in 3 days... was tough... really tough...
i couldnt really get down to doing it today, since i was so tired, so i took a much needed nap in the afternoon, and got down to doing it. and i just finished. god it feels so good.
as i was talking to Junwen the other day, after i'm done with finals, i'm probably going to gather all the writing work i've done this semester and compile it into a separate blog, something i've been thinking of doing, and will continue to do for the rest of my academic life in georgia tech, as some sort of a record. it'll be interesting how that sums up.
im done, and i can either cool down for the rest of the week, or start right ahead in preparation for history finals. guess it'll be the latter.
oh, and i got a C for health. bleah. never mind. at least i didnt get a D. the best is a 3.43 for GPA now. isnt too bad i guess.
for now, im gonna take a real good shower, and ogle at audrey tautou in 'dirty little things' before going to sleep.
dead week
they call the last academic week 'dead week' for a reason. i so dead tired. ive been trying to finish off whatever that's required for the semester. and i guess i've been doing it a little too much, but its something that has to be done, if you ask me.
for english, im supposed to have 15 blog entries, reviewing editorials from newspapers or commenting on issues, and 6 more for a group entry. techincally, we should have been doing 2, at least 1 every week. each entry is a minimum of 250 words. i remember early in this semester, i was thinking, well, that isnt much, i should be doing consistently, and when the professor said that he expected people to rush in the last week, i thought i wouldnt be doing that.
since i got so involved on campus, the latter happened to be true. thankfully i had done couple over the semester, but im rushing so many entries now. i did 5 entries on monday, and 7 yesterday. and i spent practically the whole day doing that, so much that my eyes are sore from looking at the powerbook screen. i only have 5 more to go for today, which i will hopefully complete. 250 words isnt much, true, but when its added up, its something. i must have written 3500 words of analysis in the past 2 days. plus, on monday, i was finishing off my history text, and i managed to read 100 pages of that, play a soccer match (which we lost) and do 5 entries.
couple of the guys in my section of the dorm was drinking... on monday night! so i couldnt really sleep in peace coz there was so much noise outside. i wonder if the noise issue is better in west campus at all. last night was another case, i was doing work til 12 plus, unable to take it anymore, went to sleep, tried hard to sleep, but couldnt sleep.
this sucks. but i know, by end of today, i will have a relaxing thursday and friday. its worth being tired for. and i can even start my history revision early.
i found out last night that i have another final: intro to engineering. i was shocked, coz there isnt anything to test at all. but its basically an one hour paper with really straightforward questions. i just need to look through the topics covered briefly. i thought the grade would have been decided by our group project paper.
im going to find out my health grade today. its nerve wrecking, coz the last exam was alright, but i need to do well to get a B, since my first two fucked up.
if everything goes better than expected, i could end up with a GPA of 3.6, which is excellent, ill get a 2.8 in the worst case scenario, which i really hope wont take place.
gosh im so tired... but somehow, im able to pay attention in lectures.
we watched 'super size me' for health class on monday, since we're done with the syllabus. its a pretty shocking revelation of the fast food industry, directed specially to macdonalds, and i thought it was a pretty entertaining documentary.
i managed to get hold on two movies ive been wanting to watch 'dirty pretty things' and 'lost in translation.' when im finally done with my english assignment tonight, im gonna treat myself to the lovely audrey tautou in 'dirty pretty things.' thankfully, its not in french, so i wont need subtitles. i read yesterday on CNN that the director of amelie and andrey tautou collaborated on another film which will be similar to the theme of amelie, but it'll be set in the world war 2 era, so i'll be pretty excited to catch that, whenever it may be.
been listening to way too much dido recently... but her voice and background music blends well, so im not complaning. its pretty good music...
alright, time to leave for history...
for english, im supposed to have 15 blog entries, reviewing editorials from newspapers or commenting on issues, and 6 more for a group entry. techincally, we should have been doing 2, at least 1 every week. each entry is a minimum of 250 words. i remember early in this semester, i was thinking, well, that isnt much, i should be doing consistently, and when the professor said that he expected people to rush in the last week, i thought i wouldnt be doing that.
since i got so involved on campus, the latter happened to be true. thankfully i had done couple over the semester, but im rushing so many entries now. i did 5 entries on monday, and 7 yesterday. and i spent practically the whole day doing that, so much that my eyes are sore from looking at the powerbook screen. i only have 5 more to go for today, which i will hopefully complete. 250 words isnt much, true, but when its added up, its something. i must have written 3500 words of analysis in the past 2 days. plus, on monday, i was finishing off my history text, and i managed to read 100 pages of that, play a soccer match (which we lost) and do 5 entries.
couple of the guys in my section of the dorm was drinking... on monday night! so i couldnt really sleep in peace coz there was so much noise outside. i wonder if the noise issue is better in west campus at all. last night was another case, i was doing work til 12 plus, unable to take it anymore, went to sleep, tried hard to sleep, but couldnt sleep.
this sucks. but i know, by end of today, i will have a relaxing thursday and friday. its worth being tired for. and i can even start my history revision early.
i found out last night that i have another final: intro to engineering. i was shocked, coz there isnt anything to test at all. but its basically an one hour paper with really straightforward questions. i just need to look through the topics covered briefly. i thought the grade would have been decided by our group project paper.
im going to find out my health grade today. its nerve wrecking, coz the last exam was alright, but i need to do well to get a B, since my first two fucked up.
if everything goes better than expected, i could end up with a GPA of 3.6, which is excellent, ill get a 2.8 in the worst case scenario, which i really hope wont take place.
gosh im so tired... but somehow, im able to pay attention in lectures.
we watched 'super size me' for health class on monday, since we're done with the syllabus. its a pretty shocking revelation of the fast food industry, directed specially to macdonalds, and i thought it was a pretty entertaining documentary.
i managed to get hold on two movies ive been wanting to watch 'dirty pretty things' and 'lost in translation.' when im finally done with my english assignment tonight, im gonna treat myself to the lovely audrey tautou in 'dirty pretty things.' thankfully, its not in french, so i wont need subtitles. i read yesterday on CNN that the director of amelie and andrey tautou collaborated on another film which will be similar to the theme of amelie, but it'll be set in the world war 2 era, so i'll be pretty excited to catch that, whenever it may be.
been listening to way too much dido recently... but her voice and background music blends well, so im not complaning. its pretty good music...
alright, time to leave for history...
Monday, November 29, 2004
Thanksgiving break at Naperville, IL
that was a great weekend. i got to see my dad after almost 4 months, and one of my cousins after like 8 years or something. the weather was horrible though, my flight was delayed for 3 hours. wednesday was mad, everyone scrambling to get home for thanksgiving. there was enough frustration in everyone to just stand up and scream. when we finally left atlanta, people started clapping in the plane. when we landed, the captain offered a scant word of consolation, stating 'we just flew from one of the most busiet airport in the world to another equally busy one in the most treacherous of conditions.' in my 5 days in chicagoland, i saw 3 very different weathers. my other cousin took 3 hours just to get from the airport to my place, since he was new to chicago. wednesday night was a snow storm, the snow stacked up to my ankle height. and then in 2 days, it was pouring really heavily. the last day, the sky cleared up and the sun was really warming up the place like atlanta.
i found out that thanksgiving wasnt a christian custom that americans practiced but its origins were that of the native americans and the europeans getting together. it seems like from now on, thanksgiving will be my annual getting together with my other family members. so it was my whole family, my two cousins from my dad's side, my uncle and his wife for the weekend, so it was pretty awesome.
we also went to couple of people's place during that time. the most interesting was when my dad went to visit his dorm friend from his university days. they finally met after 23 years. it was amazing how those two still kept in touch and he coincidentally happened to live near us. looking at them and thinking how i will be interacting with people i know now, i cant picture how it will turn out.
we went to watch 'alexander' which was like a bad version of lord of the rings. some of the scenes showed really homosexual scenes that was just bad. i mean i knew alexander was bisexual, but they could have portrayed his other parts of life in a better way. it is indeed a flop of the year. all the 3 movies that had kings and knights as their main theme flopped (troy, king arthur and of course, alexander) which is really disappointing coz i just love the medieval era.
oh, and i also went to the top (well, not really) of the world's tallest building, the SEARS Tower in chicago. i drove past it this spring, but didnt get to go up. it was a fascinating sight from all four directions and you could technically see michigan, wisconsin and indiana.
since i'll be heading back to chicago after my finals, i didnt really feel so bad about leaving, but im definately looking forward to being there for the winter. well, save for the sub zero temperature (it was like 28-36 when i was there... about -2 to 5 degrees celcius)
surprisingly my flight back to atlanta wasnt delayed, which was a welcome. i got back in good time, enough to get a good dinner at moe's and read my history text. i just gotta read 40 more pages for the semester.
it was another case of my alienated presence at the airport. i dont think ill go deep into it, but it was one of those times where it was just depressing, like how i wanted to blog about this some time ago, about how two people can come together and leave without a word. she was sitting right infront of my seat during the flight, in the next cabin on the train ride back to north avenue, but all we did was just glance at eachother time to time, to cross our eyes and quickly look elsewhere. listening to zero 7 and dido in the train made me feel worse, but somehow their tune was just the antidote i needed to get through it.
when am i gonna do something about this? it just keeps happening...
i found out that thanksgiving wasnt a christian custom that americans practiced but its origins were that of the native americans and the europeans getting together. it seems like from now on, thanksgiving will be my annual getting together with my other family members. so it was my whole family, my two cousins from my dad's side, my uncle and his wife for the weekend, so it was pretty awesome.
we also went to couple of people's place during that time. the most interesting was when my dad went to visit his dorm friend from his university days. they finally met after 23 years. it was amazing how those two still kept in touch and he coincidentally happened to live near us. looking at them and thinking how i will be interacting with people i know now, i cant picture how it will turn out.
we went to watch 'alexander' which was like a bad version of lord of the rings. some of the scenes showed really homosexual scenes that was just bad. i mean i knew alexander was bisexual, but they could have portrayed his other parts of life in a better way. it is indeed a flop of the year. all the 3 movies that had kings and knights as their main theme flopped (troy, king arthur and of course, alexander) which is really disappointing coz i just love the medieval era.
oh, and i also went to the top (well, not really) of the world's tallest building, the SEARS Tower in chicago. i drove past it this spring, but didnt get to go up. it was a fascinating sight from all four directions and you could technically see michigan, wisconsin and indiana.
since i'll be heading back to chicago after my finals, i didnt really feel so bad about leaving, but im definately looking forward to being there for the winter. well, save for the sub zero temperature (it was like 28-36 when i was there... about -2 to 5 degrees celcius)
surprisingly my flight back to atlanta wasnt delayed, which was a welcome. i got back in good time, enough to get a good dinner at moe's and read my history text. i just gotta read 40 more pages for the semester.
it was another case of my alienated presence at the airport. i dont think ill go deep into it, but it was one of those times where it was just depressing, like how i wanted to blog about this some time ago, about how two people can come together and leave without a word. she was sitting right infront of my seat during the flight, in the next cabin on the train ride back to north avenue, but all we did was just glance at eachother time to time, to cross our eyes and quickly look elsewhere. listening to zero 7 and dido in the train made me feel worse, but somehow their tune was just the antidote i needed to get through it.
when am i gonna do something about this? it just keeps happening...
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
birthdays
due to lack of updates, i didnt get to dedicate birthday messages to a number of people.
so, happy belated birthday to chahat, denise and lem!
so, happy belated birthday to chahat, denise and lem!
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